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It was the first new thing Donnie had ever held in his hands. It was almost a shame that he had to take it out of the box. It would never be so perfect again. \n\nDonnie turned the box over in his hands. “This is exactly what I wanted.”\n\n“I can’t take all the credit,” Vern admitted and then gestured to April. “As soon as I told April about it she offered to help with the cost. Together we picked out the best we could find.”\n\n“I cannot thank you enough,” Donnie said to them both and headed to his lab. \n\n“What are you going to use it for,” April wanted to know. “It’s not like any of you can get pregnant.”\n\nDonnie felt a lump form in his throat as he glanced over to where he had his eggs. Swallowing hard, he let out a forced laugh and placed the sonogram device on his desk. “It’s the best device I can get my hands on for looking inside my brothers. It will help me see if there is anything wrong or broken. It’s not the best option but it’s better than nothing.”\n\n“Makes sense,” Vern said with a nod as Donnie came back out of his lab. “It’s not like you can simply go to the doctor.”\n\n“Exactly,” Donnie agreed. “I do what I can for my brothers, as limited as that may be.”\n\nApril and Vern couldn’t stay long, they had work to do. There was a series of crimes happening in the city and they were assigned to the story. Of course April jumped at the chance to do it. \n\nDonnie thanked them again as they left and then headed into his lab, making sure to close the door behind him. It was a simple gesture that let his brothers know to stay out. He opened the sonogram machine and quickly scanned through the instructions. It was simple enough for him to understand. \n\nOnce he had it set up, he took it over to the four remaining eggs. The other two had collapsed within the first few days. With a lump in his throat he squeezed some K.Y. Jelly on to one of the eggs and then placed the probe on the surface. It wasn’t supple like a human’s stomach would have been and he couldn’t push down against it so he was limited in what he could see. But the heartbeat that the device picked up brought a smile to his face. \n\nDonnie moved the probe around the surface to see if it would pick up anything more. A faint form appeared on the screen but he could tell that it was a baby. Tears filled his eyes as he saved the image and recorded the sound of the beating heart. \n\nHe moved on the second one, repeating the process. Once again he heard a heartbeat and saw an image of a forming baby. His heart seemed to skip a beat. They were alive. \n\nThe third egg proved to be, at the very least, a dud as did the forth, despite the fact that they were both still perfectly round. So it was safe to assume that they had been alive at one point, because if they had been duds from the beginning then they would have turned grey and collapsed along with the other two. \n\nDonnie cleaned the sonogram machine and put it away before relocating the two dead eggs to the locked chest containing the other two that had collapsed the week before. He tried not to linger on the loss. He still had two. But did he dare get his hopes up?\n\nThere was nothing more he could do for them at the moment, so he decided to get some work done. Worry gnawed at his insides, making it hard to focus. It was the same every year. He fussed and worried over the eggs he knew better than to get attached to. Why did he always allow himself to hope?\n\nAfter a few hours, Raphael slowly entered the lab. “Is it okay if I come in?”\n\nDonnie looked up from his array and nodded his head. “Just don’t touch anything.”\n\n“Does that include you?” Raph said, grinning widely. \n\nDonnie chuckled and shook his head. Raph saw that as an invitation to come over. He started gently rubbing Donnie’s shoulders and then planted a few soft kisses along his neck. “Do you think that maybe we can start spending some time alone in my room?”\n\nGlancing at the eggs Donnie reminded himself that there was nothing more he could do for them. Leaving them for the night would change nothing. “I think I would be more comfortable in my room,” Donnie replied. \n\n“Whichever you prefer,” Raph whispered against Don’s neck. “As long as you’re comfortable. I’ll be happy just to be with you.”\n\nReaching up, Donnie placed his hand over Raph’s. “I’m working right now but we can spend some quality time alone together later tonight.”\n\n“Alright,” Raph agreed with a nod of his head. He rubbed Don’s shoulders a few more times and kissed the top of his head before seeing himself out. “I love you,” he said as he stepped through the door. \n\n“I love you too,” Donnie replied just before Raph closed the door. Donnie turned once again to look towards the eggs. Anxiety had his stomach in knots. He hated that there was nothing more he could do for them. \n\nA short time later, there was a soft knock at the door. “Come in,” Donnie called out. \n\nSplinter poked his head in. “Can I ask a favor of you?”\n\n“Sure,” Donnie replied, turning his attention to his father. It wasn’t often that Splinter came to them for help. “What do you need from me?”\n\n“I need you to research a name,” Splinter explained. “Hamato Yoshi.”\n\n“Is that all you have to go on?” Donnie asked. \n\nSplinter nodded. “Sadly, yes.”\n\n“I’ll see what I can come up with,” Donnie assured him. If there was anything out there about Hamato Yoshi, Donnie will find it for his father, no matter how deep he had to look. \n\n“Thank you,” Splinter said, bowing his head. “I will leave you to your work.” A soft smile spread across his lips. “Don’t forget to take a break and get something to eat.”\n\n“I won’t,” Donnie promised as he watched his father leave. \n\nThat night, after dinner, Donnie pulled Raph into his room. It was the first time Raphael had been in Don’s room since declaring his love. He knew Donnie wouldn’t be up for much of anything until he had laid his eggs so he had given him his space. \n\nDonnie had managed to unpack more of his things so the room was no longer ‘prison like’. Small handheld devices in varying levels of repair littered the top of a mended desk. Posters of space and dark blue cloth covered the cold brick walls. Several strands of white Christmas lights, some of them painted to dim them or make them appear smaller, were hung across the ceiling so that it would look like the night sky; Donatello had even managed to form a few constellations out of them. A lamp that looked like and showed the phases of the moon was hung on the wall furthest from Donnie’s bed. \n\nWhen Donnie removed his glasses and dimmed the lights at night, it was easy to pretend that he was outside, under the stars. It helped him to settle his restless mind and get to sleep. \n\nDonatello walked over and turned up the light on the lamp in the corner. “What do you think?”\n\nRaph looked around, taking it all in. “You need a plush green rug. And maybe one of those things that looks like a campfire and it would pull the whole room together. Being in your room would be like camping outside.”\n\n“That’s what I’m going for,” Donnie said as he walked up to Raph. “As much as I love technology, I need a little bit of nature to help me relax, even if it is fake.”\n\n“I have other ways to help you relax,” Raph said playfully as he leaned in for a kiss. \n\nDonatello returned the kiss with gusto, feeling his spirits rise. He never thought that he could feel this way outside of mating season. In fact, it felt better because it was something he wanted and not something that nature had forced on him. \n\nHands fumbled with buckles and straps as they moved to the bed. Every article of clothing was removed and now littered the floor. \n\nWithout breaking their kiss, they made their way onto the bed. They lay side by side, facing each other and simply kissed. Raph’s hand, resting on Donnie’s hip, would occasionally squeeze and kneed the supple flesh. \n\nGradually the hand gravitated downward to Donnie’s backside and then around to trace circles on Don’s thigh. A sudden rush of anxiety had Donnie sitting up. “I can’t.” With one hand clutching his stomach, Donnie stood up off the bed. “I’m sorry.”\n\nRaph sat up and looked at Don in confusion. “What’d I do?” \n\nDonnie took a few steading breaths. “I don’t want you touching my tail.” He worried Raph wouldn’t understand. This was going to end before it even began. “I don’t even like toughing myself there.” He wrapped his arms around himself and turned his back to Raph. “I don’t mind doing stuff for you if you need it but please don’t touch me there.”\n\n“I don’t want this one sided.” Raph sat with his legs over the side of the bed. “I… I wasn’t thinking. I was moving a little fast. I’m sorry. I can wait.” He sat in silence as he considered Don for a moment. “If you don’t touch yourself then how do you…?”\n\nDonnie felt the blood rush to his face. All thought stopped as he tried to wrap his mind around what Raph was so bluntly asking. “I… I have my ways,” Donnie managed, keeping his back to Raph. \n\nRaph stood and walked over to stand behind Donnie. “When you’re ready you can show me what you do and I’ll do that.”\n\n“I don’t want you to laugh at me,” Donnie admitted through the tears, feeling ashamed. \n\nRaph nuzzled the back of Donnie’s neck. “Why would I laugh?”\n\nDonnie’s heart pounded in his chest. “I… made myself a… penis. I use it. I’ve had it for a while now.”\n\nWith his nose pressed against Donnie’s neck, Raph took a deep breath and wrapped his trembling arms around Donnie’s middle. “Can… I see it?” Donnie turned in Raph’s arms and looked him in the eyes. Raph looked scared, worried that he was going to say the wrong thing. “When you’re ready,” Raph added, swallowing hard. “We can just kiss more, for now, if you want. Or I can go. Whatever you want me to do.” Leaning forward he pressed his forehead against Don’s. “I love you.”\n\n“I’m sorry I’m being so difficult,” Donnie whispered. \n\nRaph shook his head. “It’s okay.”\n\n“I love you too.” Donnie placed his hands on Raph’s arms and leaned into him. “I can show it to you and explain how it works.”\n\nRaph heaved a sigh of relief. “I’d like that.”\n\nWith his heart in his throat Donnie went over to retrieve his artificial penis. He held it close to his chest as he made his way back over to Raph. “It seems that my artificial night sky is not the only fake thing that I have in my life.”\n\n“There is nothing wrong with this,” Raph insisted, looking down at the item in Donnie’s hands. “So you use this… dildo?”\n\nDonnie nodded. “I don’t like calling it a dildo though.” He felt numb. This was his most intimate secret and he still feared that Raph would think it was silly. “I made it, but I think of it as my penis,” Donnie said, holding it up a little higher. “It’s made of silicon. I molded it as close to a turtle’s penis as I could and kept the color as close as possible.” He squeezed the tip in demonstration. “It’s flexible and soft yet firm.”\n\nFlipping it over, he held up the base where it hooked an extended for several more inches. “This part goes inside me.” He swallowed hard past the lump in his throat. “That way I can… pump the shaft and the part inside stimulates me.”\n\nRaph smiled. “You are the resident problem solver.” He looked the penis over and ran his fingers along the shaft. “Is it something you would be able to use on me?”\n\nDonnie nodded. “We’d have to work up to it though. I don’t want to hurt you.”\n\n“It is kind of big.” The more they talked the more Raph seemed to relax. “Would I be able to push past it if you were wearing it?” \n\nThat question came as a bit of a shock to Donnie. “My cloaca can stretch. Have you seen the size of the eggs?” Donnie spoke without thinking and regretted it right away. Raph had never seen the eggs. Donnie kept them hidden from his family. None of his brothers had ever seen one. “Sorry.” Things were going well and he had to go and ruin it. “That just came out.”\n\n“It’s okay,” Raph soothed, rubbing Donnie’s arms. “We’re both a little nervous. Why don’t we go back to the bed and see where things go.”\n\n“Okay,” Donnie said, nodding his head. \n\nRaphael turned down the lights before joining Donnie on the bed. Once again they lay facing each other as they kissed and all of Donnie’s tension started to melt away. It was when Raph’s hand covered his that Donnie realized that he was still holding his artificial penis. \n\nHe felt awkward holding it. He didn’t want to drop it to the floor but he didn’t want to ruin the moment by getting up to put it away either. Then Raph started touching it and a full body shiver overcame Donnie. He wished it was real and that he could feel Raph’s touch. \n\nRaph shifted his position a little, parting his legs. The scent of his arousal filled the room and then Donnie felt something touch his leg. Donnie must have reacted to it because Raph shifted his position again and mumbled an apology. \n\nDonnie had never actually seen Raph’s penis before. Whenever they were together in the past, Donnie was bent over while Raph took him from behind. Back then they were simply fulfilling a need. Sex was a means to an end. \n\nCuriosity got the better of him and Donnie reached down to touch it. With a sharp intake of breath, Raph tensed. His hand held tight to Donnie’s shoulder and he bucked his hips in an attempt to get more contact. “You don’t have to,” Raph rasped out. “You can ignore it and we can go back to kissing.”\n\n“I want to,” Donnie whispered back. \n\nRaph reached down and put his hand over Donnie’s. “I already told you that I don’t want this to be one sided.”\n\n“Okay.” Donnie pulled away from Raph long enough to get the lubricant from the bedside table drawer. He put a generous amount of lubricant on the part of his penis that goes inside of him before putting it in. Once it was comfortable in place, he lay back down and faced Raph. “We can give it a try.”\n\nEven in the dark, Donnie could see the smile on Raph’s face. Raph grabbed hold of both of their cocks and started pumping them together. The rhythmic strokes caused the part that was inside of Donnie to move. The fact that Raph was the one doing it added to the stimulation. \n\n“Am I doing it right?” Raph whispered. \n\n“Yeah,” Donnie whimpered his reply. His hand held tight to Raph’s bicep, his fingers digging into the hard muscle. “It feels good.” Donnie moaned as he reached his climax. “Raphie.”\n\n“Oh, Donnie,” Raph grunted followed by a deep churr.\n\nWanting to be more involved, Donnie moved his hand down to cover Raph’s. After a few strokes, Raph shifted the positions of their hands so that Donnie’s was the one holding their combined cocks. \n\nRaph’s heated flesh was slick with natural lubricant and pre-cum. A great deal of it was now also coating Donnie’s penis and hand. Raph guided Don’s hand, encouraging him to pump faster. With a deep grunt, Raph’s body tensed and shuttered as his hot seed was released. The sight, feel, and scent of it all had Donnie climax for a second time. 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Donnie turned the box over in his hands. “This is exactly what I wanted.”

“I can’t take all the credit,” Vern admitted and then gestured to April. “As soon as I told April about it she offered to help with the cost. Together we picked out the best we could find.”

“I cannot thank you enough,” Donnie said to them both and headed to his lab.

“What are you going to use it for,” April wanted to know. “It’s not like any of you can get pregnant.”

Donnie felt a lump form in his throat as he glanced over to where he had his eggs. Swallowing hard, he let out a forced laugh and placed the sonogram device on his desk. “It’s the best device I can get my hands on for looking inside my brothers. It will help me see if there is anything wrong or broken. It’s not the best option but it’s better than nothing.”

“Makes sense,” Vern said with a nod as Donnie came back out of his lab. “It’s not like you can simply go to the doctor.”

“Exactly,” Donnie agreed. “I do what I can for my brothers, as limited as that may be.”

April and Vern couldn’t stay long, they had work to do. There was a series of crimes happening in the city and they were assigned to the story. Of course April jumped at the chance to do it.  

Donnie thanked them again as they left and then headed into his lab, making sure to close the door behind him. It was a simple gesture that let his brothers know to stay out. He opened the sonogram machine and quickly scanned through the instructions. It was simple enough for him to understand.

Once he had it set up, he took it over to the four remaining eggs. The other two had collapsed within the first few days. With a lump in his throat he squeezed some K.Y. Jelly on to one of the eggs and then placed the probe on the surface. It wasn’t supple like a human’s stomach would have been and he couldn’t push down against it so he was limited in what he could see. But the heartbeat that the device picked up brought a smile to his face.

Donnie moved the probe around the surface to see if it would pick up anything more. A faint form appeared on the screen but he could tell that it was a baby. Tears filled his eyes as he saved the image and recorded the sound of the beating heart.

He moved on the second one, repeating the process. Once again he heard a heartbeat and saw an image of a forming baby. His heart seemed to skip a beat. They were alive.

The third egg proved to be, at the very least, a dud as did the forth, despite the fact that they were both still perfectly round. So it was safe to assume that they had been alive at one point, because if they had been duds from the beginning then they would have turned grey and collapsed along with the other two.

Donnie cleaned the sonogram machine and put it away before relocating the two dead eggs to the locked chest containing the other two that had collapsed the week before. He tried not to linger on the loss. He still had two. But did he dare get his hopes up?

There was nothing more he could do for them at the moment, so he decided to get some work done. Worry gnawed at his insides, making it hard to focus. It was the same every year. He fussed and worried over the eggs he knew better than to get attached to. Why did he always allow himself to hope?

After a few hours, Raphael slowly entered the lab. “Is it okay if I come in?”

Donnie looked up from his array and nodded his head. “Just don’t touch anything.”

“Does that include you?” Raph said, grinning widely.

Donnie chuckled and shook his head. Raph saw that as an invitation to come over. He started gently rubbing Donnie’s shoulders and then planted a few soft kisses along his neck. “Do you think that maybe we can start spending some time alone in my room?”

Glancing at the eggs Donnie reminded himself that there was nothing more he could do for them. Leaving them for the night would change nothing. “I think I would be more comfortable in my room,” Donnie replied.

“Whichever you prefer,” Raph whispered against Don’s neck. “As long as you’re comfortable. I’ll be happy just to be with you.”

Reaching up, Donnie placed his hand over Raph’s. “I’m working right now but we can spend some quality time alone together later tonight.”

“Alright,” Raph agreed with a nod of his head. He rubbed Don’s shoulders a few more times and kissed the top of his head before seeing himself out. “I love you,” he said as he stepped through the door.

“I love you too,” Donnie replied just before Raph closed the door. Donnie turned once again to look towards the eggs. Anxiety had his stomach in knots. He hated that there was nothing more he could do for them.

A short time later, there was a soft knock at the door. “Come in,” Donnie called out.

Splinter poked his head in. “Can I ask a favor of you?”

“Sure,” Donnie replied, turning his attention to his father. It wasn’t often that Splinter came to them for help. “What do you need from me?”

“I need you to research a name,” Splinter explained. “Hamato Yoshi.”

“Is that all you have to go on?” Donnie asked.

Splinter nodded. “Sadly, yes.”

“I’ll see what I can come up with,” Donnie assured him. If there was anything out there about Hamato Yoshi, Donnie will find it for his father, no matter how deep he had to look.

“Thank you,” Splinter said, bowing his head. “I will leave you to your work.” A soft smile spread across his lips. “Don’t forget to take a break and get something to eat.”

“I won’t,” Donnie promised as he watched his father leave.  

That night, after dinner, Donnie pulled Raph into his room. It was the first time Raphael had been in Don’s room since declaring his love. He knew Donnie wouldn’t be up for much of anything until he had laid his eggs so he had given him his space.

Donnie had managed to unpack more of his things so the room was no longer ‘prison like’. Small handheld devices in varying levels of repair littered the top of a mended desk. Posters of space and dark blue cloth covered the cold brick walls. Several strands of white Christmas lights, some of them painted to dim them or make them appear smaller, were hung across the ceiling so that it would look like the night sky; Donatello had even managed to form a few constellations out of them. A lamp that looked like and showed the phases of the moon was hung on the wall furthest from Donnie’s bed.

When Donnie removed his glasses and dimmed the lights at night, it was easy to pretend that he was outside, under the stars. It helped him to settle his restless mind and get to sleep.

Donatello walked over and turned up the light on the lamp in the corner. “What do you think?”

Raph looked around, taking it all in. “You need a plush green rug. And maybe one of those things that looks like a campfire and it would pull the whole room together. Being in your room would be like camping outside.”

“That’s what I’m going for,” Donnie said as he walked up to Raph. “As much as I love technology, I need a little bit of nature to help me relax, even if it is fake.”

“I have other ways to help you relax,” Raph said playfully as he leaned in for a kiss.

Donatello returned the kiss with gusto, feeling his spirits rise. He never thought that he could feel this way outside of mating season. In fact, it felt better because it was something he wanted and not something that nature had forced on him.

Hands fumbled with buckles and straps as they moved to the bed. Every article of clothing was removed and now littered the floor.

Without breaking their kiss, they made their way onto the bed. They lay side by side, facing each other and simply kissed. Raph’s hand, resting on Donnie’s hip, would occasionally squeeze and kneed the supple flesh.

Gradually the hand gravitated downward to Donnie’s backside and then around to trace circles on Don’s thigh. A sudden rush of anxiety had Donnie sitting up. “I can’t.” With one hand clutching his stomach, Donnie stood up off the bed. “I’m sorry.”

Raph sat up and looked at Don in confusion. “What’d I do?”

Donnie took a few steading breaths. “I don’t want you touching my tail.” He worried Raph wouldn’t understand. This was going to end before it even began. “I don’t even like toughing myself there.” He wrapped his arms around himself and turned his back to Raph. “I don’t mind doing stuff for you if you need it but please don’t touch me there.”

“I don’t want this one sided.” Raph sat with his legs over the side of the bed. “I… I wasn’t thinking. I was moving a little fast. I’m sorry. I can wait.” He sat in silence as he considered Don for a moment. “If you don’t touch yourself then how do you…?”

Donnie felt the blood rush to his face. All thought stopped as he tried to wrap his mind around what Raph was so bluntly asking. “I… I have my ways,” Donnie managed, keeping his back to Raph.

Raph stood and walked over to stand behind Donnie. “When you’re ready you can show me what you do and I’ll do that.”

“I don’t want you to laugh at me,” Donnie admitted through the tears, feeling ashamed.

Raph nuzzled the back of Donnie’s neck. “Why would I laugh?”

Donnie’s heart pounded in his chest. “I… made myself a… penis. I use it. I’ve had it for a while now.”

With his nose pressed against Donnie’s neck, Raph took a deep breath and wrapped his trembling arms around Donnie’s middle. “Can… I see it?” Donnie turned in Raph’s arms and looked him in the eyes. Raph looked scared, worried that he was going to say the wrong thing. “When you’re ready,” Raph added, swallowing hard. “We can just kiss more, for now, if you want. Or I can go. Whatever you want me to do.” Leaning forward he pressed his forehead against Don’s. “I love you.”

“I’m sorry I’m being so difficult,” Donnie whispered.

Raph shook his head. “It’s okay.”

“I love you too.” Donnie placed his hands on Raph’s arms and leaned into him. “I can show it to you and explain how it works.”

Raph heaved a sigh of relief. “I’d like that.”

With his heart in his throat Donnie went over to retrieve his artificial penis. He held it close to his chest as he made his way back over to Raph. “It seems that my artificial night sky is not the only fake thing that I have in my life.”

“There is nothing wrong with this,” Raph insisted, looking down at the item in Donnie’s hands. “So you use this… dildo?”

Donnie nodded. “I don’t like calling it a dildo though.” He felt numb. This was his most intimate secret and he still feared that Raph would think it was silly. “I made it, but I think of it as my penis,” Donnie said, holding it up a little higher. “It’s made of silicon. I molded it as close to a turtle’s penis as I could and kept the color as close as possible.” He squeezed the tip in demonstration. “It’s flexible and soft yet firm.”

Flipping it over, he held up the base where it hooked an extended for several more inches. “This part goes inside me.” He swallowed hard past the lump in his throat. “That way I can… pump the shaft and the part inside stimulates me.”

Raph smiled. “You are the resident problem solver.” He looked the penis over and ran his fingers along the shaft. “Is it something you would be able to use on me?”

Donnie nodded. “We’d have to work up to it though. I don’t want to hurt you.”

“It is kind of big.” The more they talked the more Raph seemed to relax. “Would I be able to push past it if you were wearing it?”

That question came as a bit of a shock to Donnie. “My cloaca can stretch. Have you seen the size of the eggs?” Donnie spoke without thinking and regretted it right away. Raph had never seen the eggs. Donnie kept them hidden from his family. None of his brothers had ever seen one. “Sorry.” Things were going well and he had to go and ruin it. “That just came out.”

“It’s okay,” Raph soothed, rubbing Donnie’s arms. “We’re both a little nervous. Why don’t we go back to the bed and see where things go.”

“Okay,” Donnie said, nodding his head.

Raphael turned down the lights before joining Donnie on the bed. Once again they lay facing each other as they kissed and all of Donnie’s tension started to melt away. It was when Raph’s hand covered his that Donnie realized that he was still holding his artificial penis.

He felt awkward holding it. He didn’t want to drop it to the floor but he didn’t want to ruin the moment by getting up to put it away either. Then Raph started touching it and a full body shiver overcame Donnie. He wished it was real and that he could feel Raph’s touch.

Raph shifted his position a little, parting his legs. The scent of his arousal filled the room and then Donnie felt something touch his leg. Donnie must have reacted to it because Raph shifted his position again and mumbled an apology.

Donnie had never actually seen Raph’s penis before. Whenever they were together in the past, Donnie was bent over while Raph took him from behind. Back then they were simply fulfilling a need. Sex was a means to an end.

Curiosity got the better of him and Donnie reached down to touch it. With a sharp intake of breath, Raph tensed. His hand held tight to Donnie’s shoulder and he bucked his hips in an attempt to get more contact. “You don’t have to,” Raph rasped out. “You can ignore it and we can go back to kissing.”

“I want to,” Donnie whispered back.

Raph reached down and put his hand over Donnie’s. “I already told you that I don’t want this to be one sided.”

“Okay.” Donnie pulled away from Raph long enough to get the lubricant from the bedside table drawer. He put a generous amount of lubricant on the part of his penis that goes inside of him before putting it in. Once it was comfortable in place, he lay back down and faced Raph. “We can give it a try.”

Even in the dark, Donnie could see the smile on Raph’s face. Raph grabbed hold of both of their cocks and started pumping them together. The rhythmic strokes caused the part that was inside of Donnie to move. The fact that Raph was the one doing it added to the stimulation.

“Am I doing it right?” Raph whispered.

“Yeah,” Donnie whimpered his reply. His hand held tight to Raph’s bicep, his fingers digging into the hard muscle. “It feels good.” Donnie moaned as he reached his climax. “Raphie.”

“Oh, Donnie,” Raph grunted followed by a deep churr.

Wanting to be more involved, Donnie moved his hand down to cover Raph’s. After a few strokes, Raph shifted the positions of their hands so that Donnie’s was the one holding their combined cocks.  

Raph’s heated flesh was slick with natural lubricant and pre-cum. A great deal of it was now also coating Donnie’s penis and hand. Raph guided Don’s hand, encouraging him to pump faster. With a deep grunt, Raph’s body tensed and shuttered as his hot seed was released. The sight, feel, and scent of it all had Donnie climax for a second time. This was more intimate than any other time they had been together before and it felt so much better because of it.

Raph continued to encourage Donnie to move his hand, drawing as much pleasure from the moment as he could. When he was completely satisfied, Raph’s grip relaxed and he kissed Donnie’s forehead. “That was good,” Raph hummed in delight.

“It was,” Donnie agreed. A sudden sense of relief washed over Donnie and he started to cry. It wasn’t a soft, sniffling sob. It was a full blown, fat tears cry. His whole body shook as he wept and he covered his face in an attempt to contain it.

Raph wrapped his arms around Donnie and pulled him close. “Why are you crying? What happened? Did I do something? Say something?”

“I can’t believe that you are being so wonderful with all of this,” Donnie choked out.

“I’m trying.” Raph let out a sigh of relief, squeezing Donnie a little tighter. “I know this isn’t easy for you. We’ll figure all this out.”

“This can’t be real,” Donnie mumbled against Raph chest.

“No,” Raph pulled away enough to look Donnie in the eyes. “This is very real.”

Donnie could see the love in Raph’s eyes. He felt himself begin to relax and managed to smile. “Stay with me tonight?”

“Of course,” Raph replied.

Putting cuddling on hold, Donnie got out of bed for the daunting task of having to clean and put his penis away. It was something he was going to have to get used to. Every night of intimacy would end this way. He couldn’t sleep with it in and it had to be properly cared for or it wouldn’t last long.

Fortunately Raph patiently waited for him and welcomed Donnie back to bed with open arms.
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