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Before the good night strokes my will right,
I feel that I must speak my piece
Long ago is too much to show, long winds carrying the end
Some fall before their will shows verses the veil-
Long live the brave, long walks for the broken
In here, no one can see this fear
The terrors that reel forward from the banned husks
A little thought of doubt, a sudden crash of worry
Among this invasion happens to be hidden gems
A stand to face the stark, -a chance to break out
**
As flipping coins feel better than flipping out,
I pace around so I can holdout my thoughts
Even when trees break, -even as the dead walk,
I talk with a straight walk in the direction of my weight
Even if I cover up with sheer razor lies, -even if they break
Out there, no one knows the real story
So I look cautiously for others with ill intent
Until they can paint me in their light, -until I shine ultrabright,
with the shame that I feel that they`re right
Until I understand, -until I can be more than sharp and shy
While lighting up the next flare pit I adjust my feelings
I sense an urge to act as unthinkable
Hoping to become gone, hoping to belong-
But the truth isn`t more clear than feeling alone...
Hoping with wits end, hoping even again
***
Hoping in a trance from beyond the lands I still stand,
understanding lore and ends that bore the unwilling
Trying to ease interest in the void, trying to climb out-
Adjusted to hopelessness, and now I want out-
Trying to borrow light, trying to become my own night
Although I lack the means, no armor needs to fit me
Being a symbol that sparkles has its own right
Someone to remember, someone to consider
The one that can split apart from their coals-
Someone to set scores, someone to sparkle slight
Yet as I heal and bide to paste my mind back in place,
I still feel the numbing weight of jaws flaying my hide!
Not how I plan to go, not this way-
For while I know that even my will can die...
Not this one, not today-
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