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Of course I received punishment when I did that.\n\nMy only exposure had been from family members when it comes to child nudity, I've never sought after actual naked children, not even back then.\nI completely understood the difference between right and wrong when I was a teenager, I knew that kind of stuff is psychologically harmful to children.\n\nHonestly? I did kind of thought that pedophiliac desires where made inside the person aside from the fact that we're just being born like this, anything prepubescent and baby like just makes the love hormone go into overdrive and with that I feel a romantic urge, sexual urge and whatnot. \n\nI honestly hate the stigma set around this world about these kinds of things. I'm just a random person who loves youthfulness, I hate to admit that it's natural for me. It is indeed natural I just wish nature didn't create people like me.\n\nSex isn't evil. 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