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Short stories. I'm an abstract artist at heart.","description_bbcode_parsed":"I kind of want to make art pieces unfinished on purpose as to develop a story around the unfinishedness. Short stories. I'm an abstract artist at heart.","writing":"I was first going through homelessness at the time that I was making this art piece, stress was high and my aunt allowed me to stay with her during the time being.\n\nIt was an interesting first couple of months; I done cleaning but I didn't feel like I was getting appreciated by the work due to her attitude.\n\nMy aunt genuinely tries to be a nice person, however she's not aware about how narcissistic she is.\n\nAfter about? A couple months after that house eviction my cousin's/aunt's children would return from those foster homes that child protection services put them through; my cousin's faced many hardships due to this, that and their \"father\" is an abuser.\n\nAfter all of this things started to sink in my mind, the first time I met an interesting young, 6 or 7 year old girl was when I thought about making this art piece; her name sounded like 'Zebra' so? I drew Zebra like patterns just to let my emotions out and do what I enjoyed. I LOVE making abstract art pieces!\n\nI never offended against children, and never will.\n\nIf anything? I'll make artworks about my feelings if anything.\n\nI'm not around children that often, hardly ever around children, actually.\n\nThis [i]Zebra[/i] girl was in my subconscious, I wasn't realising exactly how attracted I was beginning to be towards her; I gone ahead and decided not to trick or treat that year.\n\nI'm a bisexual for sure, I tried denying my feelings and that is only leading to my own self destruction.\n\nI fall romantically and sexually attracted towards ANYTHING young, as young as a baby; my primary attraction is lolicon and shotacon which is? “Lolishota” for short within Japanese slanging.\n『ロリショタ』as what Japanese input would spell it as.\n\nSoon after this realization, roughly about? 4 months of months afterwards it hit me that these feelings are as much of a choice as typical homosexuality is.\n\nWithin that realization I remember being at the RV park over here in Townsend, Montana.\n\nWith the public WiFi I made an account for this \"Virtuous Pedophile\" forum, though this account I hadn't used since I was extremely self conscious and felt discomforted by the fact that Indeed this is a part of who I am no matter if I liked it or not.\n\nIt honestly was an extremely painful reality, having the universe show to yourself about an aspect of yourself, towards yourself.\n\nAs I think about the past events back in that first homeless case; living at my aunt's for that short period of time I remember being in an episode of psychosis, stress and sleep deprivation. I was in my cousin's room warning them about child predators, and was extremely disappointed that my aunt allowed my cousin's to be on the internet at that young of an age whilst unsupervised.\n\nShe's the parent, I'm not, I'm only the older cousin.\n\nThey where getting messages from grown adults on TikTok; my cousin's already been molested in a foster home so this just was really triggering me at a subconscious level.\n\nThese children are stressful, they're not well behaved.","writing_bbcode_parsed":"I was first going through homelessness at the time that I was making this art piece, stress was high and my aunt allowed me to stay with her during the time being.
It was an interesting first couple of months; I done cleaning but I didn't feel like I was getting appreciated by the work due to her attitude.
My aunt genuinely tries to be a nice person, however she's not aware about how narcissistic she is.
After about? A couple months after that house eviction my cousin's/aunt's children would return from those foster homes that child protection services put them through; my cousin's faced many hardships due to this, that and their "father" is an abuser.
After all of this things started to sink in my mind, the first time I met an interesting young, 6 or 7 year old girl was when I thought about making this art piece; her name sounded like 'Zebra' so? I drew Zebra like patterns just to let my emotions out and do what I enjoyed. I LOVE making abstract art pieces!
I never offended against children, and never will.
If anything? I'll make artworks about my feelings if anything.
I'm not around children that often, hardly ever around children, actually.
This Zebra girl was in my subconscious, I wasn't realising exactly how attracted I was beginning to be towards her; I gone ahead and decided not to trick or treat that year.
I'm a bisexual for sure, I tried denying my feelings and that is only leading to my own self destruction.
I fall romantically and sexually attracted towards ANYTHING young, as young as a baby; my primary attraction is lolicon and shotacon which is? “Lolishota” for short within Japanese slanging.
『ロリショタ』as what Japanese input would spell it as.
Soon after this realization, roughly about? 4 months of months afterwards it hit me that these feelings are as much of a choice as typical homosexuality is.
Within that realization I remember being at the RV park over here in Townsend, Montana.
With the public WiFi I made an account for this "Virtuous Pedophile" forum, though this account I hadn't used since I was extremely self conscious and felt discomforted by the fact that Indeed this is a part of who I am no matter if I liked it or not.
It honestly was an extremely painful reality, having the universe show to yourself about an aspect of yourself, towards yourself.
As I think about the past events back in that first homeless case; living at my aunt's for that short period of time I remember being in an episode of psychosis, stress and sleep deprivation. I was in my cousin's room warning them about child predators, and was extremely disappointed that my aunt allowed my cousin's to be on the internet at that young of an age whilst unsupervised.
She's the parent, I'm not, I'm only the older cousin.
They where getting messages from grown adults on TikTok; my cousin's already been molested in a foster home so this just was really triggering me at a subconscious level.
These children are stressful, they're not well behaved.","pools_count":2,"title":"Unfinished Zebra pattern. Art resulting from tragedy and loss","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"image/png","pagecount":"1","rating_id":"1","rating_name":"Mature","ratings":[{"content_tag_id":"2","name":"Nudity","description":"Nonsexual nudity exposing breasts or genitals (must not show arousal)","rating_id":"1"},{"content_tag_id":"3","name":"Violence","description":"Mild violence","rating_id":"1"}],"submission_type_id":"12","type_name":"Writing - Document","guest_block":"t","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"0","views":"10"}