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And my dream recollections.
I feel like art is about experimenting and seeing what works and what doesn't work.
I'm not great at drawing cubs, shotacon nor lolicon either due to my mother being extremely unsupportive about my interest.
I plan on buying art books and pediatrician books for anatomy purposes. I absolutely love medical accuracy.","writing":"I had a strange dream, I seen the trailer house I grew up in, and I seen myself climbing the fence inside the yard; within that yard I seen the opening underneath the trailer home.\n\nWithin that same dream I been to places, one place was a run down in a rather unsanitary situation; I'm definitely dealing with an unfortunate case of undiagnosed PTSD, my mother didn't exist in this dreamscape. Last time I dreamt of mother I had woke up with feeling extremely stressed.\n\nAs I continue recalling my dream I remember seeing things that I'd always find during car rides growing up, in the dream the road next to this trailer home had a unique sense of mystery.\n\nLater on I had found 2 houses, within this house I seen an attractive 7 or 8 year old furry cub, she was very adorable. I asked the people within this place if I could babysit.\n\nThe people seemed uncomfortable with the fact that I asked, like it was unusual for a grown man to work in child care.\n\nWhat is the point of telling my dreams? Well. I believe dreams can hold clues about the subconscious mind, I study my dreams oftentimes.\n\nBefore this I had a weird dream that had where I was at a gas station that looks similar to the one my father works at. The area however being completely different, there was this mountainous terrain where houses are built on with a steep sidewalk. I walked up this sidewalk.\n\nIt was in the middle of the night, all dark outside as I walked up; as I walked I seen rather run down buildings, they needed maintenance.\n\nAnd even further back, back when I was still in complete denial about my pedophilic desires, at this point I had extremely vivid dreams that showcased many aspects of childhood.\nI seen children in these dreams, I seen a schoolhouse, a playground and anything else like that and dreams where reoccurring more than once.\n\nThis dream I found a young girl sat at a table within the night, she wasn't ugly neither pretty, just completely average.\n\nI bet those videos influenced my dreams, the unsettling music over unsettling images that invoked feelings of childhood.\n\nThese buildings all empty, just an echo of the past.\n\nMy life currently is in an unfavorable position.\nWhen mother left she maxed out the credit cards and left us needing to recover from it, she took the credit cards that where listed under father's name.\n\nI'm nearly destitute in some aspects, we have necessities like food, heating and electricity however stuck inside a pull RV and stationed at an RV park.","writing_bbcode_parsed":"I had a strange dream, I seen the trailer house I grew up in, and I seen myself climbing the fence inside the yard; within that yard I seen the opening underneath the trailer home.
Within that same dream I been to places, one place was a run down in a rather unsanitary situation; I'm definitely dealing with an unfortunate case of undiagnosed PTSD, my mother didn't exist in this dreamscape. Last time I dreamt of mother I had woke up with feeling extremely stressed.
As I continue recalling my dream I remember seeing things that I'd always find during car rides growing up, in the dream the road next to this trailer home had a unique sense of mystery.
Later on I had found 2 houses, within this house I seen an attractive 7 or 8 year old furry cub, she was very adorable. I asked the people within this place if I could babysit.
The people seemed uncomfortable with the fact that I asked, like it was unusual for a grown man to work in child care.
What is the point of telling my dreams? Well. I believe dreams can hold clues about the subconscious mind, I study my dreams oftentimes.
Before this I had a weird dream that had where I was at a gas station that looks similar to the one my father works at. The area however being completely different, there was this mountainous terrain where houses are built on with a steep sidewalk. I walked up this sidewalk.
It was in the middle of the night, all dark outside as I walked up; as I walked I seen rather run down buildings, they needed maintenance.
And even further back, back when I was still in complete denial about my pedophilic desires, at this point I had extremely vivid dreams that showcased many aspects of childhood.
I seen children in these dreams, I seen a schoolhouse, a playground and anything else like that and dreams where reoccurring more than once.
This dream I found a young girl sat at a table within the night, she wasn't ugly neither pretty, just completely average.
I bet those videos influenced my dreams, the unsettling music over unsettling images that invoked feelings of childhood.
These buildings all empty, just an echo of the past.
My life currently is in an unfavorable position.
When mother left she maxed out the credit cards and left us needing to recover from it, she took the credit cards that where listed under father's name.
I'm nearly destitute in some aspects, we have necessities like food, heating and electricity however stuck inside a pull RV and stationed at an RV park.","pools_count":1,"title":"No idea what I've been drawing","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"image/png","pagecount":"1","rating_id":"0","rating_name":"General","ratings":[],"submission_type_id":"12","type_name":"Writing - Document","guest_block":"t","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"0","views":"15"}