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Why am I born to find childish traits alluring? I fall in love with young characters of fiction, my first major attraction was cub scout/childhood scene Nick Wilde.\n\nWhen I first watched that movie I wasn't aware how this character would become redeemable; I didn't watch the trailers leading up to release of the film so I was as blind as a bat about the theatrical release.\n\nI was 17 years old at the time. Zootopia hit the box office in 2016, March 4th exactly a day after my birthday.\n\nI question why specifically it's that release date? A day after my birthday.\n\nWhy does nature create people like me? It's not a major factor of a personality however sexual orientation does factor in behavioral responses and can have an effect on personality.\n\nI love the idea of babysitting Nick Wilde, hold him close, hug him, kiss him on the lips and treat him like a lover.\n\nHe'd be like a small boyfriend that's also something I can take care of, I would need help however.\n\nJust like him I also found another boy of interest, Asriel Dreemurr.\n\nI was just 16 years old when Undertale released.\nI known absolutely nothing, not even the history of Toby Fox; I hadn't known about his Halloween hack, neither about the projects he's worked on in his past.\n\nToby Fox now works for Nintendo as a music composer, that is a highly respectful line of work, especially in Japan.\n\nAnd as I continue with this other thought as I am sidetracked, I want to ask this:\nIf it's so natural for me to find romantic and sexual love towards childish characters, either that be fictional or otherwise then why hasn't scientific research come up with a definite conclusion?\n\nI'm on the side that I am born this way, and that it's as much of a choice as homosexuality is; it's an orientation.\n\nI can satisfy it with fictional characters, things that aren't real. That is a fact. A naked young body, boy or girl, doesn't matter to me, is what my mind finds to be pleasant.\n\nI find youth like that to be beautiful, a naked fox boy like Nick Wilde for example; his 8 year old self is what I'm romantically invested with. He'd live a nudist life, him and I naked all the time in the same house.\n\nIt's just who I am. I can't change it. It is what I fall in love with.. his childhood story was what made me fall in love with him.\n\nSome people seem to think that it's unhealthy to be attracted towards fictional characters however the science doesn't say it's unhealthy at least. Though?\n\nWould you want a lolishota like me for example to psychologically project these feeling towards actual children? Children are adorable, especially Japanese children however but yeah.\n\nI'd rather focus on fictional characters, it feels like a healthy option to do so.\n\nIn my fantasies he is filled with a whole lot of love. \n\nI have many thoughts, many opinions. I express opinions whenever I am sure I have a factual bases set around this opinion.\n\nI am born to be attracted towards children and babies in the most boiled down, straight to the facts and technical sense of the explanation.\n\nAs I think about this more...\nI'm just a flawed human being: I would date a 9 year old fox cub, his soft fur in my sight as I sat at the other side of the restaurant table, ordering food with him in perhaps a Japanese style restaurant.\n\nEither that or a plane trip over to Japan with him. I felt so excited thinking about taking this young fox boy with me, everywhere with activities that he'd enjoy as well.\n\nI wouldn't know what else to do afterwards, this is just a thought I would need to exercise more.\n\nMother 3 is my favorite Nintendo game, the story is a must see! There's no official translation since Nintendo fears controversy due to cultural things specific to Japan, the dark nature of the story and other little details.\n\nMother 3 fans have made translations into english for those interested. I highly recommend.","writing_bbcode_parsed":"I don't know where my life is heading, I don't know what to do, and I don't know what I should do.
I think about why I been born like this? Why am I born to find childish traits alluring? I fall in love with young characters of fiction, my first major attraction was cub scout/childhood scene Nick Wilde.
When I first watched that movie I wasn't aware how this character would become redeemable; I didn't watch the trailers leading up to release of the film so I was as blind as a bat about the theatrical release.
I was 17 years old at the time. Zootopia hit the box office in 2016, March 4th exactly a day after my birthday.
I question why specifically it's that release date? A day after my birthday.
Why does nature create people like me? It's not a major factor of a personality however sexual orientation does factor in behavioral responses and can have an effect on personality.
I love the idea of babysitting Nick Wilde, hold him close, hug him, kiss him on the lips and treat him like a lover.
He'd be like a small boyfriend that's also something I can take care of, I would need help however.
Just like him I also found another boy of interest, Asriel Dreemurr.
I was just 16 years old when Undertale released.
I known absolutely nothing, not even the history of Toby Fox; I hadn't known about his Halloween hack, neither about the projects he's worked on in his past.
Toby Fox now works for Nintendo as a music composer, that is a highly respectful line of work, especially in Japan.
And as I continue with this other thought as I am sidetracked, I want to ask this:
If it's so natural for me to find romantic and sexual love towards childish characters, either that be fictional or otherwise then why hasn't scientific research come up with a definite conclusion?
I'm on the side that I am born this way, and that it's as much of a choice as homosexuality is; it's an orientation.
I can satisfy it with fictional characters, things that aren't real. That is a fact. A naked young body, boy or girl, doesn't matter to me, is what my mind finds to be pleasant.
I find youth like that to be beautiful, a naked fox boy like Nick Wilde for example; his 8 year old self is what I'm romantically invested with. He'd live a nudist life, him and I naked all the time in the same house.
It's just who I am. I can't change it. It is what I fall in love with.. his childhood story was what made me fall in love with him.
Some people seem to think that it's unhealthy to be attracted towards fictional characters however the science doesn't say it's unhealthy at least. Though?
Would you want a lolishota like me for example to psychologically project these feeling towards actual children? Children are adorable, especially Japanese children however but yeah.
I'd rather focus on fictional characters, it feels like a healthy option to do so.
In my fantasies he is filled with a whole lot of love.
I have many thoughts, many opinions. I express opinions whenever I am sure I have a factual bases set around this opinion.
I am born to be attracted towards children and babies in the most boiled down, straight to the facts and technical sense of the explanation.
As I think about this more...
I'm just a flawed human being: I would date a 9 year old fox cub, his soft fur in my sight as I sat at the other side of the restaurant table, ordering food with him in perhaps a Japanese style restaurant.
Either that or a plane trip over to Japan with him. I felt so excited thinking about taking this young fox boy with me, everywhere with activities that he'd enjoy as well.
I wouldn't know what else to do afterwards, this is just a thought I would need to exercise more.
Mother 3 is my favorite Nintendo game, the story is a must see! There's no official translation since Nintendo fears controversy due to cultural things specific to Japan, the dark nature of the story and other little details.
Mother 3 fans have made translations into english for those interested. I highly recommend.","pools_count":0,"title":"Where's my muse? Why am I born this way?","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"image/png","pagecount":"1","rating_id":"1","rating_name":"Mature","ratings":[{"content_tag_id":"2","name":"Nudity","description":"Nonsexual nudity exposing breasts or genitals (must not show arousal)","rating_id":"1"}],"submission_type_id":"12","type_name":"Writing - Document","guest_block":"t","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"1","views":"22"}