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I don't think I can necessarily call myself a trans individual, simply because I am a dude, and I'm dude feeling. However, the reason I rely so heavily more and more on the intersexed, or vagentleman, or cuntboy position is because I feel that this should be an accurate depiction of myself in real life. I'm 37 years old, as of writing this, and I have felt that I've had the wrong lower parts since I was six. A six-year-old shouldn't have that feeling that something's not right, and when they compare themselves to their sisters, it feels tremendously like something's missing. No joke, when I was a kid, I was always wondering how I could go about getting surgery done so I could be just like them and feel happy about things. I was able to bury those feelings when I got into my teens, and they didn't really manifest themselves again until I was deep into the fandom. Like, year ten, was my first exposure in the fandom to gentleman of a certain setup, and it made me feel happy to see that, to know that there was some acceptance by some, and that I could allow myself to give in to what felt right. Felt natural.\n\nThe older I get, the more I both lament how things are, and accept how things are. I am who I am in person, in Real Life, and that's just what it is. Again, I can't say I'm really transgendered because it's only a part of me that's not right. So I don't want to take away from anyone who's feelings are far more endangered or tangled than my own. Truly, I don't want to misnomer or put anyone off. All I can do is offer my insight and my feelings and explain why I am the way I am. And apologize for certain word usage. It's what I feel best describes me, and it's something that I'm happy to use to call myself. It just feels right. And like I said, I felt I needed to give a little explanation as to why you see him, and him going back and forth.\n\nSo, genuinely thank you to those that take a moment to read this. It's very, very appreciated.\n\nArtwork is by my good friend fa!konicoon", "description_bbcode_parsed": "Here's where I get to be a little personal with anyone that takes the time to read this. I don't think I can necessarily call myself a trans individual, simply because I am a dude, and I'm dude feeling. However, the reason I rely so heavily more and more on the intersexed, or vagentleman, or cuntboy position is because I feel that this should be an accurate depiction of myself in real life. I'm 37 years old, as of writing this, and I have felt that I've had the wrong lower parts since I was six. A six-year-old shouldn't have that feeling that something's not right, and when they compare themselves to their sisters, it feels tremendously like something's missing. No joke, when I was a kid, I was always wondering how I could go about getting surgery done so I could be just like them and feel happy about things. I was able to bury those feelings when I got into my teens, and they didn't really manifest themselves again until I was deep into the fandom. Like, year ten, was my first exposure in the fandom to gentleman of a certain setup, and it made me feel happy to see that, to know that there was some acceptance by some, and that I could allow myself to give in to what felt right. Felt natural.

The older I get, the more I both lament how things are, and accept how things are. I am who I am in person, in Real Life, and that's just what it is. Again, I can't say I'm really transgendered because it's only a part of me that's not right. So I don't want to take away from anyone who's feelings are far more endangered or tangled than my own. Truly, I don't want to misnomer or put anyone off. All I can do is offer my insight and my feelings and explain why I am the way I am. And apologize for certain word usage. It's what I feel best describes me, and it's something that I'm happy to use to call myself. It just feels right. And like I said, I felt I needed to give a little explanation as to why you see him, and him going back and forth.

So, genuinely thank you to those that take a moment to read this. It's very, very appreciated.

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