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Hi, thats me, and that's my life.

If you're wondering why im not drawing much anymore, and why i take months.. this is why.
am i ok? no. is there hope for change? no. do i want to grow old, living like i have so far up to this point? no.

isn't every artist here mentally broken anyway? isn't that why we became artists in the first place? because we can't fit into the world? why instead of living a normal life, we are stuck drawing talking animals that fuck each other senseless in the most deprived and perverted ways possible? Only to hide the truth that all we really want is for someone to love and hug us and tell us that we're going to be ok?

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