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  "writing": "[center][b][t]Mouse bait[/t]\n\n12. No More Secrets[/b]\n\nby \n\n@Neosate\n\n@Cormenthor\n[/center]\n\n\n[center][b]\"-(???.???)->December 26, 2013<-(???.???)-\"[/b]\n\n\"-(???.???)->The Moose's Turn<-(???.???)-\"[/center]\n\nThe discussion between the members of the extended family had continued for a couple of hours after her girlfriend had delivered her ultimatum. Her mother had little additional information regarding her father or his disappearance. Filling Boomer and her youngest brother in on all that had happened during their absence from the house proved to be entertaining, especially after the Eagle heard about how the small mouse had turned the liger's own ultimatum around on her. In the end things had turned out much calmer than they had been when the discussion had started. The first real lul in the conversation was Daisy's que to roust her girlfriend upstairs while the rest of the family brought Paul and Alex up to speed. Once they entered their shared bedroom the small mouse had made a beeline for her sanctuary in the dollhouse. Daisy gave her some space and let her be for a while. But the longer she mulled over the information that had been piled on her the more questions she seemed to have about the things going on in her life and between herself and the mouse. There was still that nagging feeling that the small mouse was keeping things from her. She decided it was, as the girl had said herself, time to stop the lies and pretending.\n\nShe walked over to the door the mouse had retreated into and knocked on it. ``Sissy,'' she called to her girlfriend, ``I think we need to talk.''\n\n``I hear it's usually a bad thing when your girlfriend says `we need to talk','' the mouse muttered from inside her dollhouse.\n\n``Yea, I've heard that too,'' Daisy said turning and leaning against the front of the mouse's sanctuary. ``With us, I'm not so sure one way or the other, not this time.'' She paused, the silent seconds hanging heavily in the air between them. ``After your little speech earlier trail mix, I think there are still some things you need to tell me, don't you?''\n\n``Not that I can think of,'' The small mouse said as she opened the door and sat in the opening. ``I mean, what do you want to hear? It's not like I'm trying to hide anything. Like being worried about your brother, knowing your father was missing, not telling Alex what really happened when I broke my arm...'' She tilted her head as she looked up at the moose.\n\n``Really? That's how you wanna play this?'' the moose herm said scowling at the small mouse. ``You know everything that goes on, so I guess you know that Lilly told me what to tell Alex about that day, just like she told you.'' Shaking her head she continued, ``yea, you're Liliana Fargo?s girl alright, I make the rules and they apply to everyone but me. Guess I should`ve known better.''\n\nCecily sighed as she looked down to her paws, ``It's not like that. I really don't know what you want to hear. Or even what more I can tell you. I mean, Life sucked, I made stupid choices, then Lilly and you happened. It's like being in a completely different world. Like waking up from a nightmare, and the memory of all the bad things is fading. Everyone's dones so much, and All I do is  sit here and cause more problems. At least that?s what it feels like.''\n\n``How do you figure that squeaker? You're a long way from the only one causing or making problems around here, we all add to that pile of horseshit.''\n\n``Okay,'' she said, an clear sound of annoyance in her voice, ``I'll spell it out for you like I did Lilly. That's all you  guys seem to understand.'' She took a deep breath and held up her paw to count off what seemed like a well prepared list. ``I ran away from foster care instead of trying to fix things. I end up with a guy who abused me  and got me hooked on drugs because I thought that was better than where I was before. When I get out of that, I continue to dig the hole deeper doing what I thought I needed to to survive, which was some shitty stuff, I'm surprised I'm still alive. Lilly comes along, and I throw her entire life upside down.  I meet you, and flip that shit too, and While I'm at it, I rape your brother, and sinch him getting put away in the loony bin. Then because of me, things go so south with your dad you run away from everything you had. We get here, Lilly is nearly fired on her first day on the job because I have a panic attack. You feel like you can?t work because I'm going to get myself in another situation I can't get myself out of. I ask Lilly to look into what's going on with your brother, because hell why not, everything I've done for him so far has worked so well. That gets people looking at us, and Detlev killed. And now, because I can't even get the `take enough drugs to not wake up' thing right, your mornings are spent making sure I don't do it again. The only thing I've done right so far is getting this place ready to go, and the jury is still out on weather that was a mistake or not until we actually start...'' she puts up some air quotes, ```Helping furs.'''\n\nShe paused for a moment before she added, ``Sometimes I feel like I'm just bad luck. Then you, Lilly or one of the others come out. You guys are so positive about most of what?s going on, it's hard to be negative sometimes. Boomer is even up beat when she's angry.  It was hard watching everyone trying to hide things from each other. It was the only negative thing I could really see in anyone here. That change in your expression when that secret crosses your mind and you try not to tell it. I Hate it. I don't want it around anymore. I'm not trying to  keep things from you, really. but it's like `wow did I not tell you that before' sometimes. And a lot of the times I don't even remember unless I get triggered, and I'm not really into trying to trigger thing just for the hell of it.. I love you, and I don't want there to be any secrets, but I really don't know what to say.'' She stopped as a tear formed in the corner of her eye.\n\n``Well, honestly I think you covered a lot of it right there Sissy,'' the moose herm said as she let herself slide down the side of the half scale structure. ``We've talk about nearly all of that shit at one time or another between us. But honestly until now you've not really just put it out there like that. Like, until right now I don't think you told me you actually ran away from a foster home. Or flat out said that the guy you went to abused you. I kind of figured it was what was going on but you never really said it. As far as the family shit on both sides, it's family, and there will always be shit with families.'' She had made it to the floor as she was speaking, now she turned and sprawled out staring at the ceiling her head mere inches from where the small mouse. ``Granted, not many are as screwball as this one, but it is what it is. Trust me, you have no idea how much I've hated keeping secrets from you, of any kind. It's the same thing as lying to me and I hate that shit.'' Turning her head to look her girlfriend in the face she added, ``but what I really want to know, the one thing that has been bugging the shit out of me is this. When are we gonna talk about this us having kids shit? And what the fuck would a moose, mouse kid even look like?''\n\nCecily rotated around to lay down with her head next to Daisy's. ``Well, if they look anything like you... Absolutely Beautify. But, if they take after me, god help the cheek pinching and `Aw so cute'. So, hopefully somewhere in between. And I was going to say we should get serious after the new year. There's at least a month of getting the process started. Then everything else that goes along with it.'' \n\n``Alright, as long as we have a plan I can deal with this shit,'' the moose herm said rolling up onto her paws and knees to hover over the smaller girl face to face. ``That other shit, you've told me what you thought I needed to know, or what you could remember as we've went along squeaker. My main reason for wanting to know has always been to try to help you, not just protect you sweet cheeks.'' She lowered her muzzle ot her girlfriends planting a short soft kiss on the mouse's lips. ``That and to try to cover my own ass so  I wouldn?t do things that would trigger the bad memories before we had a chance to replace them with something better.''\n\n``Speaking of replacing memories,'' the mouse looked up at the herm, ``Who wants to tell Alex about the Toybox? or do we just wait until she asks?''\n\n``Honestly? I think she may have a better idea of what happened than we think. So I say we, of our own accord for once, go with Lilliana's method and just go with it until we have to. If she doesn;t ask, we don't say shit.'' Rubbing muzzle tips with her small lover Daisy giggled as she said, ``you know, I never did ask Susan what happened after she ran us out of that warehouse. Been too damned scared to to be honest.''\n\n``I think there are some things I CAN do without knowing completely.''\n\n``Agreed sweetie,'' she said using one paw to turn the mouse around before laying beside her and snuggling close. ``So, I guess maybe we should get one of those journal book things to keep track of this baby making shit. Probably a good place to write down ideas for names too huh?''\n\nCecily squirmed around to get her back against the moose's chest as she pulled her girlfriend?s arms around her. ``You know Dr. Fletcher's had me keeping a journal for the last month or so. It would be something I'd add to that anyway.''\n\n``I kind of think I know the answer already,'' she began as she hugged the girl in her arms a little tighter. ``You do know that all things considered a kid from me could end up a herm right? You're okay with us raising a kid like that here in Marblecliff?''\n\n``It's doesn't matter what they are, or where we live. They'll have you for a mother, so I'm sure they'll be fine. Besides, isn't that kinda what we're doing here? It'd be a little hypocritical if that mattered, wouldn't it?''\n\n``Yea, I guess it would. But I didn't ask if it mattered, I meant if you were okay with it knowing how things are here now. I think they'll get better with time, and I have no problem pushing people's buttons if it'll do any good. I think what my point is though is if you think you can handle the challenges that comes with a little me running around the house.''\n\nCecily snuggled in tighter as she answered, ``That's a silly question, WE can handle anything. And if it is a Herm, then we already have an advantage because I know someone who grew up their entire lives dealing with herm issues.''\n\n``True enough,'' Daisy replied. ``Okay so we put that one on the shelf for a couple of weeks, got a plan in the works so it's all good. Now let me see, the shit with Paul is in Alex's claws. I  think I feel sorry for anyone that tries to get between her and getting him out of that place.'' She kissed the top of her lovers head, ``speaking of `ol cock pocket, I'm not sure you had that much to do with him ending up where he is. Not that it really matters in the long run anyway. What matters now is getting him the hell out of that place as fast as we can. After spending these couple of days with him, there's no way those people would ever convince me of half the shit they've been spouting about his behaviour and all that shit.''\n\n",
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Her mother had little additional information regarding her father or his disappearance. Filling Boomer and her youngest brother in on all that had happened during their absence from the house proved to be entertaining, especially after the Eagle heard about how the small mouse had turned the liger&#039;s own ultimatum around on her. In the end things had turned out much calmer than they had been when the discussion had started. The first real lul in the conversation was Daisy&#039;s que to roust her girlfriend upstairs while the rest of the family brought Paul and Alex up to speed. Once they entered their shared bedroom the small mouse had made a beeline for her sanctuary in the dollhouse. Daisy gave her some space and let her be for a while. But the longer she mulled over the information that had been piled on her the more questions she seemed to have about the things going on in her life and between herself and the mouse. There was still that nagging feeling that the small mouse was keeping things from her. She decided it was, as the girl had said herself, time to stop the lies and pretending.<br /><br />She walked over to the door the mouse had retreated into and knocked on it. ``Sissy,&#039;&#039; she called to her girlfriend, ``I think we need to talk.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``I hear it&#039;s usually a bad thing when your girlfriend says `we need to talk&#039;,&#039;&#039; the mouse muttered from inside her dollhouse.<br /><br />``Yea, I&#039;ve heard that too,&#039;&#039; Daisy said turning and leaning against the front of the mouse&#039;s sanctuary. ``With us, I&#039;m not so sure one way or the other, not this time.&#039;&#039; She paused, the silent seconds hanging heavily in the air between them. ``After your little speech earlier trail mix, I think there are still some things you need to tell me, don&#039;t you?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``Not that I can think of,&#039;&#039; The small mouse said as she opened the door and sat in the opening. ``I mean, what do you want to hear? It&#039;s not like I&#039;m trying to hide anything. Like being worried about your brother, knowing your father was missing, not telling Alex what really happened when I broke my arm...&#039;&#039; She tilted her head as she looked up at the moose.<br /><br />``Really? That&#039;s how you wanna play this?&#039;&#039; the moose herm said scowling at the small mouse. ``You know everything that goes on, so I guess you know that Lilly told me what to tell Alex about that day, just like she told you.&#039;&#039; Shaking her head she continued, ``yea, you&#039;re Liliana Fargo?s girl alright, I make the rules and they apply to everyone but me. Guess I should`ve known better.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />Cecily sighed as she looked down to her paws, ``It&#039;s not like that. I really don&#039;t know what you want to hear. Or even what more I can tell you. I mean, Life sucked, I made stupid choices, then Lilly and you happened. It&#039;s like being in a completely different world. Like waking up from a nightmare, and the memory of all the bad things is fading. Everyone&#039;s dones so much, and All I do is&nbsp;&nbsp;sit here and cause more problems. At least that?s what it feels like.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``How do you figure that squeaker? You&#039;re a long way from the only one causing or making problems around here, we all add to that pile of horseshit.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``Okay,&#039;&#039; she said, an clear sound of annoyance in her voice, ``I&#039;ll spell it out for you like I did Lilly. That&#039;s all you&nbsp;&nbsp;guys seem to understand.&#039;&#039; She took a deep breath and held up her paw to count off what seemed like a well prepared list. ``I ran away from foster care instead of trying to fix things. I end up with a guy who abused me&nbsp;&nbsp;and got me hooked on drugs because I thought that was better than where I was before. When I get out of that, I continue to dig the hole deeper doing what I thought I needed to to survive, which was some shitty stuff, I&#039;m surprised I&#039;m still alive. Lilly comes along, and I throw her entire life upside down.&nbsp;&nbsp;I meet you, and flip that shit too, and While I&#039;m at it, I rape your brother, and sinch him getting put away in the loony bin. Then because of me, things go so south with your dad you run away from everything you had. We get here, Lilly is nearly fired on her first day on the job because I have a panic attack. You feel like you can?t work because I&#039;m going to get myself in another situation I can&#039;t get myself out of. I ask Lilly to look into what&#039;s going on with your brother, because hell why not, everything I&#039;ve done for him so far has worked so well. That gets people looking at us, and Detlev killed. And now, because I can&#039;t even get the `take enough drugs to not wake up&#039; thing right, your mornings are spent making sure I don&#039;t do it again. The only thing I&#039;ve done right so far is getting this place ready to go, and the jury is still out on weather that was a mistake or not until we actually start...&#039;&#039; she puts up some air quotes, ```Helping furs.&#039;&#039;&#039;<br /><br />She paused for a moment before she added, ``Sometimes I feel like I&#039;m just bad luck. Then you, Lilly or one of the others come out. You guys are so positive about most of what?s going on, it&#039;s hard to be negative sometimes. Boomer is even up beat when she&#039;s angry.&nbsp;&nbsp;It was hard watching everyone trying to hide things from each other. It was the only negative thing I could really see in anyone here. That change in your expression when that secret crosses your mind and you try not to tell it. I Hate it. I don&#039;t want it around anymore. I&#039;m not trying to&nbsp;&nbsp;keep things from you, really. but it&#039;s like `wow did I not tell you that before&#039; sometimes. And a lot of the times I don&#039;t even remember unless I get triggered, and I&#039;m not really into trying to trigger thing just for the hell of it.. I love you, and I don&#039;t want there to be any secrets, but I really don&#039;t know what to say.&#039;&#039; She stopped as a tear formed in the corner of her eye.<br /><br />``Well, honestly I think you covered a lot of it right there Sissy,&#039;&#039; the moose herm said as she let herself slide down the side of the half scale structure. ``We&#039;ve talk about nearly all of that shit at one time or another between us. But honestly until now you&#039;ve not really just put it out there like that. Like, until right now I don&#039;t think you told me you actually ran away from a foster home. Or flat out said that the guy you went to abused you. I kind of figured it was what was going on but you never really said it. As far as the family shit on both sides, it&#039;s family, and there will always be shit with families.&#039;&#039; She had made it to the floor as she was speaking, now she turned and sprawled out staring at the ceiling her head mere inches from where the small mouse. ``Granted, not many are as screwball as this one, but it is what it is. Trust me, you have no idea how much I&#039;ve hated keeping secrets from you, of any kind. It&#039;s the same thing as lying to me and I hate that shit.&#039;&#039; Turning her head to look her girlfriend in the face she added, ``but what I really want to know, the one thing that has been bugging the shit out of me is this. When are we gonna talk about this us having kids shit? And what the fuck would a moose, mouse kid even look like?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />Cecily rotated around to lay down with her head next to Daisy&#039;s. ``Well, if they look anything like you... Absolutely Beautify. But, if they take after me, god help the cheek pinching and `Aw so cute&#039;. So, hopefully somewhere in between. And I was going to say we should get serious after the new year. There&#039;s at least a month of getting the process started. Then everything else that goes along with it.&#039;&#039; <br /><br />``Alright, as long as we have a plan I can deal with this shit,&#039;&#039; the moose herm said rolling up onto her paws and knees to hover over the smaller girl face to face. ``That other shit, you&#039;ve told me what you thought I needed to know, or what you could remember as we&#039;ve went along squeaker. My main reason for wanting to know has always been to try to help you, not just protect you sweet cheeks.&#039;&#039; She lowered her muzzle ot her girlfriends planting a short soft kiss on the mouse&#039;s lips. ``That and to try to cover my own ass so&nbsp;&nbsp;I wouldn?t do things that would trigger the bad memories before we had a chance to replace them with something better.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``Speaking of replacing memories,&#039;&#039; the mouse looked up at the herm, ``Who wants to tell Alex about the Toybox? or do we just wait until she asks?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``Honestly? I think she may have a better idea of what happened than we think. So I say we, of our own accord for once, go with Lilliana&#039;s method and just go with it until we have to. If she doesn;t ask, we don&#039;t say shit.&#039;&#039; Rubbing muzzle tips with her small lover Daisy giggled as she said, ``you know, I never did ask Susan what happened after she ran us out of that warehouse. Been too damned scared to to be honest.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``I think there are some things I CAN do without knowing completely.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``Agreed sweetie,&#039;&#039; she said using one paw to turn the mouse around before laying beside her and snuggling close. ``So, I guess maybe we should get one of those journal book things to keep track of this baby making shit. Probably a good place to write down ideas for names too huh?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />Cecily squirmed around to get her back against the moose&#039;s chest as she pulled her girlfriend?s arms around her. ``You know Dr. Fletcher&#039;s had me keeping a journal for the last month or so. It would be something I&#039;d add to that anyway.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``I kind of think I know the answer already,&#039;&#039; she began as she hugged the girl in her arms a little tighter. ``You do know that all things considered a kid from me could end up a herm right? You&#039;re okay with us raising a kid like that here in Marblecliff?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``It&#039;s doesn&#039;t matter what they are, or where we live. They&#039;ll have you for a mother, so I&#039;m sure they&#039;ll be fine. Besides, isn&#039;t that kinda what we&#039;re doing here? It&#039;d be a little hypocritical if that mattered, wouldn&#039;t it?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``Yea, I guess it would. But I didn&#039;t ask if it mattered, I meant if you were okay with it knowing how things are here now. I think they&#039;ll get better with time, and I have no problem pushing people&#039;s buttons if it&#039;ll do any good. I think what my point is though is if you think you can handle the challenges that comes with a little me running around the house.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />Cecily snuggled in tighter as she answered, ``That&#039;s a silly question, WE can handle anything. And if it is a Herm, then we already have an advantage because I know someone who grew up their entire lives dealing with herm issues.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``True enough,&#039;&#039; Daisy replied. ``Okay so we put that one on the shelf for a couple of weeks, got a plan in the works so it&#039;s all good. Now let me see, the shit with Paul is in Alex&#039;s claws. I&nbsp;&nbsp;think I feel sorry for anyone that tries to get between her and getting him out of that place.&#039;&#039; She kissed the top of her lovers head, ``speaking of `ol cock pocket, I&#039;m not sure you had that much to do with him ending up where he is. Not that it really matters in the long run anyway. What matters now is getting him the hell out of that place as fast as we can. After spending these couple of days with him, there&#039;s no way those people would ever convince me of half the shit they&#039;ve been spouting about his behaviour and all that shit.&#039;&#039;<br /><br /></span>",
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