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I bottle up this frustration, and it blinds me from the issues, and it lends to me becoming seen as the problem in situations related to things like work instead, and I end up believing all the shit they throw at me.\n\nI drown myself in music and masturbation, video games and food and friends, but sometimes I have remind myself that I need to do something about it all. Its hard to have a strong voice though when your default manner is to submit.","description_bbcode_parsed":"Despite my demeanor and overall sparkling attitude I show online, my gawd I get soooooo irritated some times. I bottle up this frustration, and it blinds me from the issues, and it lends to me becoming seen as the problem in situations related to things like work instead, and I end up believing all the shit they throw at me.
I drown myself in music and masturbation, video games and food and friends, but sometimes I have remind myself that I need to do something about it all. Its hard to have a strong voice though when your default manner is to submit.","writing":"Service with a Smile\nBy: Neo\n\nThat same itch that bothers my brain\nthe wrinkle in my nerves when you come in\nAll the same I wear that smile\nhoping to get what I have to over with\n\nI just know I'll be stuck with a fair share\nand more, way more, than I planned to put in\nRegardless I'll play your game\nbecause maybe someday, I'll grow the balls to get away\n\nIts all a plastic sensation\nmy brain's numbness of serving it\ndishing out the same script\nall to please that dumb dick\nbut without the support, I'd be lacking\nand then end up having to go packing.\n\nHow convenient that I cover for you\nwhen I can't get two seconds to myself in return\nYet I do it all the same\nWELCOME imprinted on my forehead\n\nI'm so wrapped up in how busy I become\nto realize you screw me everyday\nBut here I am grateful that we're still here\nyour smile makes me want to puke\n\nIts all a plastic sensation\nmy heart's numbness in its apathy\nbending over for the same tricks\nall to please the same pricks\nthough if I were to stop, I'd have to move on\nand I don't know if I'm ready.\n\nDon't step on me\nits the least you could\nI know you don't notice\nafter all, this is America\n\nDon't step on me\nits a simple wish\nYou couldn't be that blind\nbut it doesn't matter, all the same.","writing_bbcode_parsed":"Service with a Smile
By: Neo
That same itch that bothers my brain
the wrinkle in my nerves when you come in
All the same I wear that smile
hoping to get what I have to over with
I just know I'll be stuck with a fair share
and more, way more, than I planned to put in
Regardless I'll play your game
because maybe someday, I'll grow the balls to get away
Its all a plastic sensation
my brain's numbness of serving it
dishing out the same script
all to please that dumb dick
but without the support, I'd be lacking
and then end up having to go packing.
How convenient that I cover for you
when I can't get two seconds to myself in return
Yet I do it all the same
WELCOME imprinted on my forehead
I'm so wrapped up in how busy I become
to realize you screw me everyday
But here I am grateful that we're still here
your smile makes me want to puke
Its all a plastic sensation
my heart's numbness in its apathy
bending over for the same tricks
all to please the same pricks
though if I were to stop, I'd have to move on
and I don't know if I'm ready.
Don't step on me
its the least you could
I know you don't notice
after all, this is America
Don't step on me
its a simple wish
You couldn't be that blind
but it doesn't matter, all the same.","pools_count":1,"title":"[22] NaPoeWriMo'12 - Service with a Smile","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"application/msword","pagecount":"1","rating_id":"0","rating_name":"General","ratings":[],"submission_type_id":"12","type_name":"Writing - Document","guest_block":"f","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"0","views":"28","sales_description":null,"forsale":"f","digitalsales":"f","printsales":"f","digital_price":""}