Raphael stood outside later the same day, watching the new car which was out of garage. His heart was hammering as he took trembling steps towards it. It wasn’t he didn’t wanted to go out and be with Leo. He wanted to go with him, take him out for dates. Besides there also was a reality thought about Alfred. He was old man already and he could die at any moment. There would be no driver for Leonardo then so Raphael would need to step in and take the wheel. “She’s a beauty.” Donatello said as he stopped next to Raphael who jumped a bit. He hadn’t heard the other turtle approaching him from behind inside the house. Looking up at Raphael next to him Donatello smiled. “Do you want to go see her from closer?” “I… I really would like to, but...” Putting his hand on Raphael’s shoulder Donatello kept smiling. His smile was soothing alone enough. “I will come there with you.” Don took a step, second, third – walking down the stairs from the porch, then stopping to look and wait for Raphael. Big turtle hesitated, forcing himself on the move. “You’re doing great.” Donatello said using his soft tone. Having Don there calmed Raphael’s racing heart. How someone had, naturally, so steady and calming energy? And that calm voice too. Raphael didn’t say it out loud, but he was so grateful and thankful for having Donatello there who had come to visit them with Mikey. Donatello stopped next to the car, placing his hand on it. “You’re doing great, Raphael.” His eyes followed as Raphael stopped near him, keeping a short distance to the car. It was big and beautiful – and brand new. Raphael could smell the scent of a new car from it. He loved that smell. “Do you want to look inside?” Donatello asked, getting Raphael to look at him suspiciously. “You can look through the side window if you like. There’s no need for opening the door and getting it. But remember you don’t need to do anything what makes you feel uncomfortable in any way. The fact you are this close to the car so quick is huge improvement already.” “Hm.” Raph stood still a moment, his fists swinging by his sides slightly back and forth. It was a sign for Donatello that Raphael wanted to proceed further, but was scared to do so. A shock wave went through Donatello as Raphael pressed his palm against the door suddenly, pressing his face right in front of the side window looking inside. His heart was hammering since he feared to see blood inside, but instead there was nice and new leather seats, shining gear shift, untouched wheel and everything else was just… so pretty and breath taking. Donatello stood still and silently as he watched in awe how Raphael’s hand went for car’s door handle, held it for a while as Raphael steadied his breathing. He was slightly trembling but slowly he pulled from the handle, small click reaching both of their ears. Raphael was still with the door before so, so slowly pulling it open, stepping further away from the car. “It’s okay, Breathe.” Donatello said as he came to the turtle, rubbing his shoulder. “You are amazing. You are doing so good! I’m amazed and so happily surprised.” For the first time Raphael grinned a bit. “I can’t be afraid. I can’t afford that.” Looking down his grin faded, sadness taking over his face. “I fear I lose Leo if I can’t get over my fear of cars.” “Leonardo would never leave you for such reason.” “I don’t want to take a risk about that.” Raphael softly mumbled. “Besides, if that would happen, he would throw me out – and then where would I go?” Turning to look at Don Raphael sighed. “I have no other place.” Donatello smiled as he tapped Raphael on top of the head. “Don’t you worry anything about that since that’s honestly absurd. Leo isn’t that cold or horrible. But, very big BUT, if that would happen you would be most welcome to stay with me and Mikey.” Raphael was not looking impressed and it made Don laugh a bit as Raphael spoke. “I don’t think I could handle Mikey.” Looking at the car and the open door Raphael stood tall, taking slow and deep inhale. “Care to keep helping me?” “I’m right beside you.” Donatello followed Raphael like a shadow as Raphael marched back to the car, stopping to stand at the open door. That leather seat was so inviting and for a moment Raphael’s head went completely empty. Then, slowly, he reached his hand towards the seat, his fingertips touching the leather. Brand new leather under his fingers made him smile slightly, Donatello smiling right next to him. Amazement overtook Donatello as he watched Raphael turn sideways, lifting his leg inside the car, letting the backside of his leg touch the seat. “There’s no need to rush, Raphael.” Donatello calmly reminded him. Giving stern look to other turtle Raphael almost growled with low voice. “I want to get inside and sit.” Looking at the wheel Raphael released small exhale. “I have no any intentions to drive yet. When I can approach and sit in the car without any fears, then I will go on driving slowly.” “That sounds like a good plan.” Donatello said as he nodded with a smile. “Will you be okay if I go around the car and come to sit on the front seat?” Raphael’s hands were now on the wheel, as he had gone more deeper in the car, and Donatello noticed how his fists tightened around it. “Go.” Raphael finally said and Donatello obey instantly. Staring the wheel Raphael heard Don’s steps go around the car, door opening and Don sitting inside. He now was smiling and looking at Raphael. “You good?” “Yeah.” “Good.” Donatello turned towards his door which was still open, starting to pull it shut. “DON’T CLOSE THE DOOR!” Raphael suddenly yelled as he reached over Don’s body to the door, stopping it with his hand. His eye was wide as there was small sweat drops on his face. After a few seconds Donatello realized he, himself, had froze completely even forgetting to breathe. “It’s okay, Raphael. I won’t close the door.” Don said as he slowly pushed the door wide open. “See?” Now panting heavily Raphael pulled himself back on his own seat looking at the wheel, taking tight hold on it. “G-good… K-keep it open. F-for s-safety reasons.” “A quick escape if something happens?” Raphael only nodded few times. It was understandable and Donatello respected it. They sat long time in silence before Don saw Raphael relax more, sinking deeper in the seat. “You’re good?” “Yeah.” “Good. Just keep breathing. I’m right here with you. All is good.” Donatello watched how Raphael’s hand slowly started to rise, moving to have a hold on the keys which were in ignition. His hold on the keys stayed, but his fingers and hand were shaking like leaves, making keys clink over and over again. Placing his hand on Raphael’s thigh Donatello said nothing, but waited Raphael to look at him. Raphael never did, but the message behind Don’s touch was clear; ‘There’s no rush or need for that yet. Leave the keys.’ Pulling his hand in his lap Raphael dropped his head down. “I can’t...” He mumbled, receiving few pats on his thigh. “And there’s no reason to. Don’t push yourself too hard. I know you have pressures of getting back behind the wheel as quick as possible, but I still advice you to go slow. You get best results that way.” Now looking at Don Raphael sighed, nodding as a sign he understood. Two old turtles just ended up sitting in a car, chatting and touching the car all around inside while keeping the doors open. ** In the night Raphael was laying on his bed on his shell, feeling more exhausted than he realized he’d been. After all working on the car fear had taken a lot, but he also had cleaned the yard from snow, fixed a part of shed which had damaged during winter. He also had helped Alfred inside the house, doing laundry for example. Closing his eye he sighed, allowing his body to relax. The door opened and closed, steps approaching him, then weight settling in his arms. Being softly kissed on the lips Raphael opened his eye, seeing beautiful blue eyes looking at him in the most loving way. “I’m so proud of you.” Leonardo whispered, kissing Raphael again. “Donatello told me how brave you’d been today with the car, but please, don’t push yourself too hard.” “You’re the one who told me to get rid of my fear and take you out.” “I know and I apologize that. I expressed myself too aggressive and not clear enough. It’s true I want to go out with you and I wish you get over your fear, but I didn’t mean anything bad with what I said. I’m sorry.” “Don’t be. Your words were needed. They were good kick to my ass on starting to work with my fear. Without you and what you said I still would be under the thumb of my fear, doing nothing to it.” Leonardo only smiled slightly, resting his head on Raphael’s chest. That heart beneath the scute was beating so calmly and strongly. Leonardo loved that sound. “I love you.” He said, instantly receiving a kiss on top of his head. “I love ya too.” Now looking up at the turtle beneath him Leonardo smiled. “Hey, Raph. It’s been a while since we had sex last time. Actually we had sex last time when I was still blind... Would you be in a mood?” Both turtles stared each other blush covering their cheeks. That… definitely wasn’t the question what Raphael had waited or expected. “Sorry, Leo. Not tonight. I’m dead tired and want to sleep.” “It will be no even if I would do all the work?” Raphael laughed softly, looking down at Leo. “You really want it that bad?” “I would ride you.” Such thought and vision in his mind really warmed Raphael greatly. Perhaps he should… “Okay, but you do everything. I just lay down and enjoy myself.” Leonardo laughed at Raphael’s grin and reply. “It’s a deal. However…” Leonardo rose slightly to be able to reach his lips right next to Raphael’s ear hole, whispering; “I want to try those toys what I got you for Christmas.” Raphael’s face was red as he screamed; “What!?” while looking at his chuckling male. “Come on, it could be fun. New and exciting.” “I’m… not so sure about that...” Raphael mumbled as Leonardo got off of him, pulling a suitcase under the bed. ** Now than ever Raphael regretted for giving in to Leonardo. That damn turtle had managed to convince him to wear blindfold and allow his hands being chained at the end of the bed with handcuffs. “You okay?” Leonardo softly asked as he was sitting next to Raphael, gently stroking his naked side. “Been better.” Leonardo chuckled. “You are in good hands. Trust me.” “I fear Alfred or one of your bros will walk in on us.” Leonardo laughed again as he got on his knees. “There’s no reason for that fear. I locked the door.” Raphael licked his lips as he listened Leonardo opening the lube. Slick fingers played with a dildo as they spread the lube better all around it. When lube was on its place Leonardo moved dildo between his legs as he stood better on his knees, slowly landing down on it, soft moan leaving him. Raphael listened the slippery sounds mixed with Leo’s soft moans as the turtle beside him was riding. Damn. Raphael’s nostrils were hot as he inhaled Leonardo’s scent. It was obvious Leonardo was hard already, playing with himself. “Damn, I look so gorgeous...” Leonardo moaned. “You’re saying you haven’t had a boner yet after you got your sight back?” “N-No~h!” Leonardo moaned louder as he threw his head back, letting himself fall on his shell spreading his legs wide open in the air, moving dildo faster in and out with his hand. “Ah…! Ah! Ahh! Raph!” “Shit, Leo, stop that! You wake everyone!” Raphael hissed, his own bulge turning painful. Leonardo’s hand found his bulge soon enough, starting to stroke it until erection was out. Taking firm hold of it Leonardo started to pump it with the same rhythm as he fucked himself with the toy. “R-Raph, so good!” Leonardo whimpered as Raphael grunted next to him. “You b-better stop toying a-around, Leo. You said y-you would r-ride me.” Remembering he had promised such thing Leonardo stopped, pulling dildo out and tossing it on the floor. With hurry he settled to sit on Raphael, taking his erection in. Both males moaned and Leo didn’t waste any more time, instantly starting to ride Raphael with speed. Fuck, it felt good. Biting his lower lip Raphael cursed in pleasure in his head. Leonardo knew how to work those darn hips of his. Then the way how Leonardo was moaning, gasping, panting and whimpering… He really seemed to enjoy riding bigger turtle. However this position started to become too much for Leonardo’s legs and he needed to stop to rest his legs. “Release me.” Raphael growled and Leonardo did obey. When his hands were free Raphael sat up wrapping his other hand around Leo while other rose to his eye, throwing blindfold hell away from him. Moving his legs past Raphael’s sides Leonardo wrapped them around other turtle’s shell. Leonardo dropped his head down moaning towards the ceiling as Raphael took the lead, slapping his hips against Leo’s ass with force and speed. “Ah! Yes, yes, yes, yes yyeess!! Raphael, good God, yes!” Raphael grinned. Fuck, he loved to hear Leo scream. Getting on his knees, holding Leo tightly against himself, Raphael turned them sideways on the bed, heads towards the mirror which stood near the wall. Pressing Leo heavily against the mattress Raphael started to move again, slapping eagerly against other turtle while licking and biting his collarbone. Leonardo closed his eyes as he dropped his head back down again, slowly opening his eyes. Realizing he was staring their reflection from the mirror made him blush. D-damn… That looked so… so hot… Being beneath Raphael, being dominated by him… Leonardo closed his eyes letting out long pleasant moan. “Enjoying yourself?” Opening his eyes and lifting his head Leonardo came face to face with Raphael’s face, that light green eye glowing in slightly dark room, staring deep in his eyes with warmth. “Yes. Y-yes, I am. You make me feel so good...” Leonardo panted, tightening his legs hold around Raphael who grinned at him now. “Just the words, uh, I wanted to hear.” Looking up Raphael also took a look of their reflection, grinning more as he saw Leonardo looking at him via mirror now too. “Gotta admit… This is darn exciting sight. You look so good under me.” “I love... being under you.” Leonardo whispered between moans. Rest of their sex activity was filled with moans – some even louder than they should had been, whispers and naughty talking. “R-Raph…!” Leonardo muffed against Raphael’s shoulder while clawing the back of Raph’s arms, his whole body tensing as his penis pulsated. A trail of white semen flied out, splashing on his stomach between he and Raphael. Bigger turtle kept groaning as he slammed himself deep and hard inside Leo few more times, finally reaching his own climax. Leonardo grinned with strong blush as Raphael’s semen filled him. God, so good! Being exhausted after whole day’s work Raphael simply collapsed on Leonardo, pretty quick falling a sleep. Leonardo watched in slight surprise this big turtle on top of him, but his expression soon softened. He had never seen Raphael so exhausted. His face was so relaxed that it almost looked like if it has melted some, his mouth slightly open as he kept snoring silently. Luckily Leonardo had muscles enough so that he could turn them around a bit so that his own head didn’t need to hand over the edge of the bed when he, too, would fall asleep. However he fought the sleep – like he had done for few nights now already. Leonardo had started to think, worry and fear too much of the chance what if his sight was back only temporarily and one morning, when he would wake up, he would be blind again. Petting Raphael’s head Leonardo forced his eyes to stay open, to look at his mate and memorize his every wrinkle, scar, feature… Just in case. ** Waking up on the sound of the car starting Leonardo jerked a bit, opening his tired eyes. He had no idea how long he’d stayed awake last night fighting sleep – or how long he had been sleeping. Getting out of the bed Leonardo wrapped his bathrobe on, walking to stand in front of huge window. Their car was on the yard and the power was on. However both front doors were open, Donatello and Raphael sitting inside. Smiling Leonardo gently hugged himself. Raphael was taking so big steps despite the fact he feared to take them. He felt so proud of his mate. But he also worried Raphael was pushing himself too hard, too fast… But then again he was with Don and Leonardo had all faith on Donatello to put an end of Raphael’s “training” if he saw anything which could cause any kind of harm to Raphael and his progress. Going downstairs Leonardo greeted both Alfred and Michelangelo who were in the kitchen. Sitting on his own spot around small table at the corner he smiled at Alfred who brought him a mug and tea while Mikey brought him fruit bowl. “Thank you.” Leonardo said to them both before starting to fuel his body. Michelangelo announced pretty quick he needed to go home since Don had ordered some stuff to the lab but since he was here training Raphael, someone needed to be at home to accept the package. It was understandable reason so Leonardo and Alfred both bid Mikey farewell, for now, asking him to come back to visit them as soon as possible – which Mikey promised. In silence Leonardo enjoyed his breakfast… Well, breakfast was perhaps not the right word since it was 10am already, before he noticed car moving super slow on the yard. “It seems our brute is really determinated of getting himself free from his fear.” “Hmm, it seems so. I just hope he won’t overdo it.” “There’s a chance he will.” Now stopping to look at Alfred, the old man continued. “Raphael stated very clearly early this morning that he will be driving to the near by town by the end of today.” Leonardo froze in the middle of taking a sip of his tea. Slowly lowering the cup back down seconds later he kept eyeing Alfred. “He what?” Alfred smiled. “You know our brute. He’s stubborn.” Turning to look through the window at the car, which still was going on around the front yard with snail’s speed front doors open, Alfred smiled. “But he has Donatello there by his side. That turtle has done little miracles with Raphael in these two days.” “… I want to go with him.” Leonardo said as he stood up. “I don’t think that’s a good idea, sir.” Looking down at Alfred Leonardo gave him strict look. “I want to go with him and Don. I want to be there to support him.” “Your intentions are good, master, but have you stop to think that perhaps your presence will only do more harm than good? After all he fears accidents and cars because they almost took you away from him. Your presence would add extra stress on him, making him be on alarm every second seeking for anything which could harm you.” “That’s not my intention, Alfred. I just -” “I know perfectly well you mean good, but if I can be dead honest with you, I say no. You won’t go with him.” “That’s not your decision to make, Alfred.” It became clear that Leonardo was getting slightly angry so Alfred placed his cup down, giving his own strict look to Leonardo who had never seen it before – but he recognized the tone what Alfred had used on him few times, especially then when he had been young. “Master. Just shut up, sit down on your arse and finish your drink.” Leonardo was more or less shocked but he instantly, and quickly, sat back on his chair keeping his eyes on Alfred who now nodded with a smile. “Much better.” Leonardo sat quiet as he finished his tea, looking out through the window. Raphael had become a bit more confident while driving big circle on the yard. He was talking with Donatello constantly, probably it was stopping his fear and mind from escalating into alarm state. At this moment Leonardo envied Donatello. He was there with Raphael, helping him instead of Leo – Leo, who was Raphael’s partner. Looking down on the ring around his left little finger Leonardo rolled it around his finger, sighing sad. “I understand you feel bad but rest assured, Raphael loves you and Donatello is there to help him only. Your place in Raphael’s heart is not challenged or in danger.” “I know. I just feel bad he finds help and comfort from my brother instead of from me.” Alfred understood Leonardo’s feelings so the two spend a long time sitting, drinking tea and chatting. It was important that Leonardo get to express his thoughts and feelings as well. The sound of front door interrupter duo as Donatello and Raphael stepped in, heading to kitchen to get something to drink. “How is it going?” Leonardo asked with a smile as Raphael walked past him, heading to get some cold water while Don stopped next to his sitting brother, smiling. “He’s doing amazingly good. He takes a little rest and then we will be heading for the road.” “Road? To main road?” “Yes. He wants to drive to near by city today.” “I will drive there.” Raphael groaned between heavy panting as he kept drinking. “That sounds great. You sure you’re ready for that?” Alfred asked as he eyed big turtle who gave him a glare. “You saying I’m not?” “No, since I don’t know your limits. Only you do. But I think it’s important for someone outside of your head to ask that, getting you think it and give honest answer. Are you ready for it?” Raphael swallowed the remains of cool liquid, wiping his mouth on the backside of his hand. “Yeah. I’m ready.” “I will be escorting him, just in case.” “Could I come too?” Leonardo finally asked, looking at his brother and Raph in turns. Raphael obviously tensed and looked troubled so Donatello tapped his brother’s shoulder, giving him apologizing smile. “Sorry. Maybe next time.” “I won’t be in a way!” Leonardo almost yelled as he turned to look Raphael, his eyes clearly turning more moist. “I just want to be there for you. Like you’ve been there for me in so many times.” Looking down on his ring Leonardo started to roll it around his finger. “I don’t want you to think that if I’m around you something bad happens to me, or you, or us.” Room was filled with uncomfortable silence before Raphael started to approach Leonardo, only to stop by his side. He, however, didn’t turn his head to look at his mate. “Sorry.” That was all what Raphael whispered, then asking Don to join him. Donatello, once again, tapped Leo’s shoulder. “Next time then, I promise.” And then he went and followed Raphael in the hall, starting to dress up. In the meantime Alfred eyed sobbing turtle in front of him, feeling slightly bad. “Master Leonardo...” Alfred softly said reaching his hand on Leo’s who, however, pulled his hand away standing up. “Excuse me.” Hearing rushed footsteps made Raph and Don look towards the kitchen entry and they both saw Leonardo rushing towards the stairs, heading in his room. Raphael sighed deep with low throat voice. “I screwed up even more now, didn’t I?” “No. You did the right thing by not taking him with us. As you can see Leonardo himself, too, is in sensitive state – or unbalanced as he would say. You are still unbalanced as well so it’s important to keep two unbalanced persons away from each other.” When Don received asking glare from Raphael, he corrected himself. “What I mean is that if you and Leo would had been placed in the same car, while both of you clearly are unbalanced and upset still about the accident, what good it would had done to you guys? Nothing. In fact I think it would had caused more damage to both of you.” “I get it. But I can’t help but to feel I was too hard on him.” “Leo can handle it. And you weren’t all that hard on him. Now, let’s go. If you want to go to that specific shop we should get going so that you can drive slowly and still be on time.” ** Drive to the town had been one of the most difficult things what Raphael had ever done. He drove so slow, his palms sweating. Many times they also had stopped so that Raphael had been able to go out for little walk and get some fresh air, but finally – FINALLY – they now were at the town. Walking on small busy streets Raphael was taking deep inhales, so relieved the drive here was over, but he already was worried about the drive back. Don took his hand and tapped it few times, smiling at him. “You did great. Now try to stop worrying about the driving and focus on shopping. You came here for a reason, yes?” “Yeah. Yeah, I did. I need to get something.” Releasing Raphael’s hand Donatello smiled, tapping him once on the shoulder. “Then go get it, tiger.” Raphael snorted playfully as he walked away from Don, heading in small store. ** After hours and hours Alfred grew restless at home. He knew brute was in good hands with Don, but it shouldn’t had taken this long to drive to the town and do shopping. Soon car’s headlights were shining towards the yard and Alfred sighed in relief. Raphael drove slowly, parking car in the garage. Taking bag from the backseat he sighed deep, happily slamming the door shut. Donatello walked next to him, tapping his shoulder with wide smile on his face, talking to him. Alfred was certain he was praising Raphael since he had survived from his first driving test after the accident. It was huge, huge, thing. Coming to open the door for them Alfred greet the turtles with warm smile, holding the door open. Both males thanked him heading to kitchen after dropping shoes off and placing jackets away. From the bag Raphael pulled out new, limited edition, tea for Alfred who was extremely happy. He liked limited edition items and he was always happy to get tea. Besides it seemed to be the only thing what Raphael was sure to be okay to get for butler. He also got small apricot pastry which looked and smelled extremely delicious. Alfred said he would eat it with evening tea before going to bed. “Is Leo where?” “I assume he’s still in his room.” “He’s been there all this time?” “Yes.” Raphael felt a sting in his heart. That wasn’t good… Taking small box and teaspoon Raphael headed upstairs, knocking on Leo’s door. Entering Raphael saw Leonardo sit on the bed wearing his red shirt what Leo had got for him for Christmas, hugging a pillow. “You been sitting here the whole time?” He asked carefully, approaching the bed. “Yes.” Sitting on the bed Raphael sighed. “Look, babe. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings, but… I simply thought it’s the best if I won’t have you around – not yet.” “I understand that.” Leonardo sighed. “I just felt… kind of jealous that you went with Don instead of me.” Raphael read Leonardo easily between the lines, softly chuckling a bit before kissing Leo’s cheek. “You have no reasons to be jealous or fear there’s something between me and him. He’s just my personal therapist so to say. But you - “ Raphael lifted small box to hang in front of Leo’s eyes. “- are my only one. My own strawberry mouse pastry.” Leonardo chuckled now too as he turned to look Raphael who smiled at him, swinging the box slightly. “I will eat it if you won’t.” Raph teased. Snatching the box gently Leonardo grinned slightly. “Don’t you even dare.” Raphael sat quiet with a smile on his face as he watched Leonardo open the box, revealing half ball shaped pastry. It was covered with white chocolate half cocoon and inside was slightly bitter strawberry mouse. It fitted so well with that sweet white chocolate. When Leonardo only hand managed to take 2 teaspoons from the small pastry Raphael rested his chin on smaller shoulder, looking at Leo with puppy eye and begging smile. Leonardo chuckled silently as he shook his head a bit digging the spoon in the pastry, lifting it towards Raphael’s mouth – which opened enough for Leo to put the piece in Raphael’s mouth. Humming happily Raphael enjoyed the flavors in his mouth, eyeing Leonardo who had returned on eating the pastry. “Am I forgiven?” Raphael finally dared to ask. He felt a bit nervous since Leonardo had all reasons to say no, but when other turtle’s beautiful blue eyes turned to look at him – he just knew he was forgiven. Now with joy Raphael sat behind Leo, wrapping his arms around the smaller male, kissing the backside of his head. “You will take me with you next time? Even if you only would drive on the yard?” “I promise I will.” After the pastry plate was empty both males laid on the bed cuddling and holding each other close.