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**Preview image isn’t mine! It's done by amazing Innerman-k on Tumblr -> https://innerman-k.tumblr.com/post/147445186134/sharp-t...

About Leo in this chapter; He had huge fear towards his brother and still have but in this chapter he's bravely forcing himself to face Raph and see past his mutated form, to see his own and original brother there. It brings him some encouragement when he does and he's slowly recovering, still constantly reminding himself there really isn't any reason for him to fear Raphael.", "writing": "This day had been long and Raphael had slept all the way to midnight and when he woke up, lair was dead silent. Everyone had gone to bed except Leo. His door was slightly open and candles light escaped between the opening into darker side of the lair. Hissing silently to himself Raphael started to head towards his brother’s room, deep inside knowing his presence wouldn’t be welcomed.\n\nPushing the door slowly more open he saw Leo sitting on the floor leaning against his bed while holding his dear katana in his hands, cleaning it slow and carefully. Lifting his eyes to meet Raphael’s made Leo halt and he watched how his mutated brother walked in the corner next to the door, sitting down. It kept Leo slightly alarmed but he kept cleaning his sword and he kept going on even then when Raphael started to talk as good as he could in this form. Long sharp teeth didn’t make it easy and he had issues overall talking in this form.\n\n“I… understand… fear.”\n\nThose silent whispered words made Leo stop and lift his head up, locking his gaze on his brother who carefully lifted his head enough to being able to have eye contact with him.\n\n“I… fear too.” Licking his lips and gently rubbing his fangs against each others his eyes turned more moist as he lowered his gaze on his palms. “This… Not… Me.”\n\nThose words made Leo turn a bit relaxed but he still was filled with worry and empathy towards his brother. He had tried to imagine it at times how Raph felt but he instantly had push those thoughts away, replacing them with thoughts that Raph didn’t understand a thing in his monster form but now he realized he had been, oh, so very wrong. Moving his katana to safety on his bed Leo stood up, walked in front of his brother and sat down. Hesitating a moment he reached towards him, gently laying his hands on Raphael’s taking firm hold on them.\n\n“Don’t worry. We will get you back to normal.”\n\n“Want… That. Not… scare… ya.”\n\nForcing a small smile on his face, Leonardo gently tapped his brother’s hands in loving way.\n\n“It’s okay. You and this mutated form of yours have been one of my most difficult life lessons to learn. I still fear you in some way but I try to think that… as long as you don’t see me bleed, I’m safe from you. I… I don’t want to get eaten by you, Raphael.” With his last sentence Leonardo dropped his head down, hiding his fear from his brother.\n\nFeeling Raphael’s hold tightening gently around his hands in comforting way Leo dared to look back in those red glowing eyes in candle light.\n\n“I so… so sorry. Never… eat… ya. … Care ya… Love ya...”\n\nGently freeing his other hand from Leo’s hold Raphael lifted it slowly, placing it on Leo’s big cheek. “Miss ya.” He hissed so silently, in a way what sounded like he wanted to let Leo know about his feelings and yet he wanted to hide them. Seeing silent tears pouring down on Raphael’s cheeks Leonardo pulled his own hands free from Raph’s hold, moving as close to him as possible while bracing himself. Eventually he came so close he could pull his brother in a warm hug, resting his chin on Raph’s shoulder. His heart tried to start to hammer his chest in fear but Leonardo silenced it quickly since he now understood how much pain on top of everything he had bring and cause to his lonely brother because of his stupid fear.\n\nHe had live with Raphael his whole life and never Raph hadn’t try to hurt him or attack on him. That was the reason as well why Leonardo had got so scared of Raphael to begin with after his first mutation and attack on the roof. No more. He didn’t want to be afraid of his brother anymore and cause more pain in his broken brother’s heart and soul. Gently kissing Raphael’s shoulder Leo rested his chin back on it, whispering; “I love you too. And I have been missing you too.”\n\n“No fear?”\n\n“A little still but I also have hope now that we will get you better. Raphael, I will make it all up to you once you’re recovered, I promise.”\n\nPulling away Raph rubbed his eyes, sniffing few times. His eyes once more met those worried blue ones.\n\n“I… understand.. fear.”\n\n“Yes, I know. You said about it already.”\n\n“We kids... I go sleep... Bed full bugs… Scream, cry and run… Toys. Mikey laugh… Splinter angry… Me cry.. fear. No sleep… in hammock or room.” Raising his wondering gaze back to Leo’s eyes, he continued. “Leo nice. Protect… Let sleep… in bed.”\n\nUnderstanding what Raphael was saying, Leonardo couldn’t help but to smile lovingly while nodding. “Yes, I remember that night. We were heading to sleep and soon you ran out of your room screaming and crying in fear that your hammock was full of bugs. Splinter went to investigate it and they all were toys. Mikey playing nasty prank on you since he knew you were afraid of bugs. Splinter lectured him good and you… You refused to sleep in your room even if Splinter always checked your room at nights. You got bad fear from it what Mikey did and it took months before you finally started to dare to sleep in your room again. Before that, however, you slept with me in my bed.”\n\nNow Raphael was smiling and he nodded once. “Me… happy.”\n\n“Yeah, I was happy too. I still am. I mean I’m your big brother. It’s my job to protect and help you. Be there when you need me. …. … I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you now, Raphael. Not then when you once again really would had need me. I’m so sorry I turned my back to you.”\n\n“Leo will… help?”\n\n“Of course! I will help you get back to normal even if it means I have to kill Bishop to do so.”\n\nThere was strong hint of that old Fearless Leonardo in his eyes what burned so bright with his determination to save his brother and it brought certain calmness to Raphael’s spirit and soul.\n\n“Raphael, I need your help too. Would you… sleep here with me in my bed like we did as kids?”\n\nLooking a bit confused Leo continued. “I told you I still fear you but I need to face you, teach myself I have no reasons to be afraid of you. Letting you sleep here with me would be a good star, right?”\n\n“Sleeping… with Leo?”\n\n“Yes. But before that – Can I ask about those homeless people?”\n\nThis made Raphael deadly silent and it worried Leonardo greatly. Was he losing his brother into those memories of him killing innocent people again?\n\n“Remember… Group. Beat homeless… Lots of blood… I-- I try ta control… Lose it. I… I attack… Kill and eat homeless… Poor people.” Now shaking badly Raph pressed his head down between his shoulders. “I sorry..! Not wanting… ta harm! Regret and sad.”\n\n“I understand but you too should understand you couldn’t help yourself. Do you remember when you told me about your training progress? How you and Don thought about the among of blood effecting you?” Raphael only nodded.\n\n“You didn’t try to attack me or eat me when my finger was bleeding. You just licked it because there wasn’t all that much blood but those homeless people getting a beating and bleeding a lot caused you to lose your control. Right?” Once again Raphael nodded and Leo offered him small supporting smile.\n\n“See now? It’s the among of blood what now and still controls you but you know… I’m very proud of you. You have train so much and come a long way. I think… I wouldn’t had been able to do it.”\n\nRaphael’s eyes were shining with happiness like a child’s eyes after getting a candy and it made Leo’s heart turn more warmer to his brother. He really started to see and believe it that Raphael wasn’t all bad in his mutated form. Only thing what in all this was bad was blood. Getting on his feet Leo helped Raphael on his feet, guiding him to his bed. Removing his katana away, Leonardo started to strip his gears off and since Raph didn’t had them, he just stood there watching. When Leo was ready he crawled on the bed, Raph following him after small encouragement from his smiling brother. Feeling a bit nervous Raphael laid on his side looking nervously all around.\n\n“It’s okay. I’m nervous too.” Leo admitted and Raphael understood it was all because he was there. He kind of wanted to run away and not force Leo to face his fear about him, but at the same time he wanted it. Wanted Leo to face the fear and become his big brother again. Trying his best to stay hopeful Raph rested his head on Leo’s pillow, taking a deep inhale of Leo’s scent from it. Despite the fact Raphael had slept whole day and had woke up like 10 minutes ago, Leo’s scent turned his whole body rock heavy and mind tired and calm.\n\nYawning widely next to Leo made his brother stare those unnaturally long fangs until Raph’s mouth closed. Now turning his eyes on Raphael’s eyes Leo noticed they were already closed and Raph seemed to be sleeping. It seemed his mutated form didn’t have any issues of falling a sleep. How lucky he was. Laying on his back after covering them both with blanket Leonardo kept his gaze up at the ceiling, candles light fading away with each dying candle. Listening Raphael steady breathing brought some sort of peace to him and clear memories from their childhood overtook his mind and Leo couldn’t stop smiling. This reminded him so much of that time when he indeed had been sharing his bed with Raphael who refused to sleep in his own room. With silent chuckle Leonardo sighed and pulled blanket more closer to his chin, allowing those sweet memories to lull him to sleep.\n\nLater at some point of the night he was tossing and turning while being hunted by another nightmare. Suddenly jumping up sweat running down on his skin Leo held tightly on his blanket with almost white fists. Hearing a hiss next to him made his heart jump but when he turned around he saw sleeping Raph there. Keeping his eyes on him and steadying his breathing Leo sighed in some sort of relief, relaxing a bit. Just a dream, thank God. But this time it wasn’t only about his brother… But about himself.\n\nIn his dream Bishop had made an offer. He could and would cure Raphael but he wanted one of the turtles as his test subject to his new serum. Leo couldn’t let it happen and since they were there to cure Raphael, he had stepped forward and promised to be Bishop’s lab rat for the rest of his life. After getting the injection his body had turn extremely painful. Burning all around and feeling muscles being eaten from inside. Screaming in pain his body had mutated 5 times bigger than it normally was, his left arm staying normal but right arm had grew 3 times bigger with sharp claws, flesh tearing off from some parts. His shell had twisted and grew and his legs were different sized as well. His teeth were sharp like Raph’s and he just… He just felt the pain inside his body all the time, tasting blood in his mouth. The mutagen in his body was fighting against this new serum and it was tearing his organs and body apart, finally making him collapse on the ground, dying slow and extremely painfully while his brothers kept calling his name while being dragged away by Bishop’s men and Bishop himself stood there laughing at him.\n\nNo, he wouldn’t let that or anything happen. He would rather fight and die than ever agree to anything like that and he would stand and protect his brothers too. Blue eyes scanned sleeping Raphael again and Leo suddenly felt like a light bulb would had turn on in his head. Maybe it was a sign! His dream! Perhaps Bishop did have a cure and if that was the case, they would go and pay Bishop a visit tomorrow. ", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "This day had been long and Raphael had slept all the way to midnight and when he woke up, lair was dead silent. Everyone had gone to bed except Leo. His door was slightly open and candles light escaped between the opening into darker side of the lair. Hissing silently to himself Raphael started to head towards his brother’s room, deep inside knowing his presence wouldn’t be welcomed.

Pushing the door slowly more open he saw Leo sitting on the floor leaning against his bed while holding his dear katana in his hands, cleaning it slow and carefully. Lifting his eyes to meet Raphael’s made Leo halt and he watched how his mutated brother walked in the corner next to the door, sitting down. It kept Leo slightly alarmed but he kept cleaning his sword and he kept going on even then when Raphael started to talk as good as he could in this form. Long sharp teeth didn’t make it easy and he had issues overall talking in this form.

“I… understand… fear.”

Those silent whispered words made Leo stop and lift his head up, locking his gaze on his brother who carefully lifted his head enough to being able to have eye contact with him.

“I… fear too.” Licking his lips and gently rubbing his fangs against each others his eyes turned more moist as he lowered his gaze on his palms. “This… Not… Me.”

Those words made Leo turn a bit relaxed but he still was filled with worry and empathy towards his brother. He had tried to imagine it at times how Raph felt but he instantly had push those thoughts away, replacing them with thoughts that Raph didn’t understand a thing in his monster form but now he realized he had been, oh, so very wrong. Moving his katana to safety on his bed Leo stood up, walked in front of his brother and sat down. Hesitating a moment he reached towards him, gently laying his hands on Raphael’s taking firm hold on them.

“Don’t worry. We will get you back to normal.”

“Want… That. Not… scare… ya.”

Forcing a small smile on his face, Leonardo gently tapped his brother’s hands in loving way.

“It’s okay. You and this mutated form of yours have been one of my most difficult life lessons to learn. I still fear you in some way but I try to think that… as long as you don’t see me bleed, I’m safe from you. I… I don’t want to get eaten by you, Raphael.” With his last sentence Leonardo dropped his head down, hiding his fear from his brother.

Feeling Raphael’s hold tightening gently around his hands in comforting way Leo dared to look back in those red glowing eyes in candle light.

“I so… so sorry. Never… eat… ya. … Care ya… Love ya...”

Gently freeing his other hand from Leo’s hold Raphael lifted it slowly, placing it on Leo’s big cheek. “Miss ya.” He hissed so silently, in a way what sounded like he wanted to let Leo know about his feelings and yet he wanted to hide them. Seeing silent tears pouring down on Raphael’s cheeks Leonardo pulled his own hands free from Raph’s hold, moving as close to him as possible while bracing himself. Eventually he came so close he could pull his brother in a warm hug, resting his chin on Raph’s shoulder. His heart tried to start to hammer his chest in fear but Leonardo silenced it quickly since he now understood how much pain on top of everything he had bring and cause to his lonely brother because of his stupid fear.

He had live with Raphael his whole life and never Raph hadn’t try to hurt him or attack on him. That was the reason as well why Leonardo had got so scared of Raphael to begin with after his first mutation and attack on the roof. No more. He didn’t want to be afraid of his brother anymore and cause more pain in his broken brother’s heart and soul. Gently kissing Raphael’s shoulder Leo rested his chin back on it, whispering; “I love you too. And I have been missing you too.”

“No fear?”

“A little still but I also have hope now that we will get you better. Raphael, I will make it all up to you once you’re recovered, I promise.”

Pulling away Raph rubbed his eyes, sniffing few times. His eyes once more met those worried blue ones.

“I… understand.. fear.”

“Yes, I know. You said about it already.”

“We kids... I go sleep... Bed full bugs… Scream, cry and run… Toys. Mikey laugh… Splinter angry… Me cry.. fear. No sleep… in hammock or room.” Raising his wondering gaze back to Leo’s eyes, he continued. “Leo nice. Protect… Let sleep… in bed.”

Understanding what Raphael was saying, Leonardo couldn’t help but to smile lovingly while nodding. “Yes, I remember that night. We were heading to sleep and soon you ran out of your room screaming and crying in fear that your hammock was full of bugs. Splinter went to investigate it and they all were toys. Mikey playing nasty prank on you since he knew you were afraid of bugs. Splinter lectured him good and you… You refused to sleep in your room even if Splinter always checked your room at nights. You got bad fear from it what Mikey did and it took months before you finally started to dare to sleep in your room again. Before that, however, you slept with me in my bed.”

Now Raphael was smiling and he nodded once. “Me… happy.”

“Yeah, I was happy too. I still am. I mean I’m your big brother. It’s my job to protect and help you. Be there when you need me. …. … I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you now, Raphael. Not then when you once again really would had need me. I’m so sorry I turned my back to you.”

“Leo will… help?”

“Of course! I will help you get back to normal even if it means I have to kill Bishop to do so.”

There was strong hint of that old Fearless Leonardo in his eyes what burned so bright with his determination to save his brother and it brought certain calmness to Raphael’s spirit and soul.

“Raphael, I need your help too. Would you… sleep here with me in my bed like we did as kids?”

Looking a bit confused Leo continued. “I told you I still fear you but I need to face you, teach myself I have no reasons to be afraid of you. Letting you sleep here with me would be a good star, right?”

“Sleeping… with Leo?”

“Yes. But before that – Can I ask about those homeless people?”

This made Raphael deadly silent and it worried Leonardo greatly. Was he losing his brother into those memories of him killing innocent people again?

“Remember… Group. Beat homeless… Lots of blood… I-- I try ta control… Lose it. I… I attack… Kill and eat homeless… Poor people.” Now shaking badly Raph pressed his head down between his shoulders. “I sorry..! Not wanting… ta harm! Regret and sad.”

“I understand but you too should understand you couldn’t help yourself. Do you remember when you told me about your training progress? How you and Don thought about the among of blood effecting you?” Raphael only nodded.

“You didn’t try to attack me or eat me when my finger was bleeding. You just licked it because there wasn’t all that much blood but those homeless people getting a beating and bleeding a lot caused you to lose your control. Right?” Once again Raphael nodded and Leo offered him small supporting smile.

“See now? It’s the among of blood what now and still controls you but you know… I’m very proud of you. You have train so much and come a long way. I think… I wouldn’t had been able to do it.”

Raphael’s eyes were shining with happiness like a child’s eyes after getting a candy and it made Leo’s heart turn more warmer to his brother. He really started to see and believe it that Raphael wasn’t all bad in his mutated form. Only thing what in all this was bad was blood. Getting on his feet Leo helped Raphael on his feet, guiding him to his bed. Removing his katana away, Leonardo started to strip his gears off and since Raph didn’t had them, he just stood there watching. When Leo was ready he crawled on the bed, Raph following him after small encouragement from his smiling brother. Feeling a bit nervous Raphael laid on his side looking nervously all around.

“It’s okay. I’m nervous too.” Leo admitted and Raphael understood it was all because he was there. He kind of wanted to run away and not force Leo to face his fear about him, but at the same time he wanted it. Wanted Leo to face the fear and become his big brother again. Trying his best to stay hopeful Raph rested his head on Leo’s pillow, taking a deep inhale of Leo’s scent from it. Despite the fact Raphael had slept whole day and had woke up like 10 minutes ago, Leo’s scent turned his whole body rock heavy and mind tired and calm.

Yawning widely next to Leo made his brother stare those unnaturally long fangs until Raph’s mouth closed. Now turning his eyes on Raphael’s eyes Leo noticed they were already closed and Raph seemed to be sleeping. It seemed his mutated form didn’t have any issues of falling a sleep. How lucky he was. Laying on his back after covering them both with blanket Leonardo kept his gaze up at the ceiling, candles light fading away with each dying candle. Listening Raphael steady breathing brought some sort of peace to him and clear memories from their childhood overtook his mind and Leo couldn’t stop smiling. This reminded him so much of that time when he indeed had been sharing his bed with Raphael who refused to sleep in his own room. With silent chuckle Leonardo sighed and pulled blanket more closer to his chin, allowing those sweet memories to lull him to sleep.

Later at some point of the night he was tossing and turning while being hunted by another nightmare. Suddenly jumping up sweat running down on his skin Leo held tightly on his blanket with almost white fists. Hearing a hiss next to him made his heart jump but when he turned around he saw sleeping Raph there. Keeping his eyes on him and steadying his breathing Leo sighed in some sort of relief, relaxing a bit. Just a dream, thank God. But this time it wasn’t only about his brother… But about himself.

In his dream Bishop had made an offer. He could and would cure Raphael but he wanted one of the turtles as his test subject to his new serum. Leo couldn’t let it happen and since they were there to cure Raphael, he had stepped forward and promised to be Bishop’s lab rat for the rest of his life. After getting the injection his body had turn extremely painful. Burning all around and feeling muscles being eaten from inside. Screaming in pain his body had mutated 5 times bigger than it normally was, his left arm staying normal but right arm had grew 3 times bigger with sharp claws, flesh tearing off from some parts. His shell had twisted and grew and his legs were different sized as well. His teeth were sharp like Raph’s and he just… He just felt the pain inside his body all the time, tasting blood in his mouth. The mutagen in his body was fighting against this new serum and it was tearing his organs and body apart, finally making him collapse on the ground, dying slow and extremely painfully while his brothers kept calling his name while being dragged away by Bishop’s men and Bishop himself stood there laughing at him.

No, he wouldn’t let that or anything happen. He would rather fight and die than ever agree to anything like that and he would stand and protect his brothers too. Blue eyes scanned sleeping Raphael again and Leo suddenly felt like a light bulb would had turn on in his head. Maybe it was a sign! His dream! Perhaps Bishop did have a cure and if that was the case, they would go and pay Bishop a visit tomorrow. ", "pools_count": 1, "title": "Secret Serum Ch9", "deleted": "f", "public": "t", "mimetype": "image/png", "pagecount": "1", "rating_id": "2", "rating_name": "Adult", "ratings": [ { "content_tag_id": "5", "name": "Strong Violence", "description": "Strong violence, blood, serious injury or death", "rating_id": "2" } ], "submission_type_id": "12", "type_name": "Writing - Document", "guest_block": "f", "friends_only": "f", "comments_count": "2", "views": "78" }