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I would gladly help you.”\n\nTaking a seat Don smiled at his human friend who’s help had been very important and needed in the past but in this case Don didn’t want to involve April in it.\n\n“I thank you for your offer, April, but I can handle this on my own.”\n\n“So you have a plan?” Mikey asked hopefully and his brother nodded once.\n\n“I have a theory what I would like to try but before that I need to build a cage.”\n\n“Cage?”\n\n“For Raphael. It will be for his own and our safety.”\n\nEveryone seemed to be at lost for a moment but they trusted Don and instead of saying a thing, they all agreed with nod. Casey and April offered to bring Don supplies if he needed any and Don gladly accepted that offer while wishing byes to their friends who had decide it was best for them to leave. In the infirmary Raph had woke up and Leo, who had decided to stay by him, released him. Sitting on the bed Raph sighed in defeat after hearing what he had tried to do.\n\nLeonardo kept staying still and silent watching his once so strong brother being all devastated because of this… and it was all because Leo had give Don an order to give that serum to him. He regretted it but he also had hopes Raph could be cured. He just didn’t know how or how long it would take. Sudden loud sounds from the lab draw their attention and both of them headed in there finding genius collecting stuffs in his hands.\n\n“What are you doing? Did you figured something out?”\n\n“I hope so.” Turning around he saw Raph there too and Don instantly stopped, hurtful look in his eyes as he scanned his brother. “Raph… I –“\n\n“Don’t bother, Donnie. Just… Don’t.”\n\nLeo and Don looked at each other and then Raph, both of them wanting nothing more than help him as soon as possible. Emptying his hands from all the stuff Don silently and steady made his way to Raph, pulling him in tight hug.\n\n“I will keep my promise to you.”\n\n“I know ya will. Just hurry, okay?”\n\nPulling away from the warmth of Raph’s big body, Don rested his hands on those collapsed shoulders giving them assuring squeeze. “I promise I will.” Without saying anything more Don filled his arms once more with stuff and ran to the elevator and went in garage.\n\nFew days passed and much for everyone’s relief nothing bad hadn’t happen and Raph’s mood had lifted because of it. Now happily training alone in the dojo Raph focused on keeping himself in good shape. Mutated monster or not, he needed and wanted to stay in shape and keep his muscles and strength.\n\nElevator’s doors opened revealing widely smiling olive green turtle who was pulling something on wheels behind him. 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Slamming once again and reaching his hand towards Don, Raphael let out strongest howl growl mix what he could let out of himself. Stopping Don kept his eyes on Raphael who seemed not to have any signs of getting tired.\n\nTaking a stool Don placed the piece of bloody meat on it and left it away from Raphael’s reach. Since the cage, for now, was in open area of the lair Don didn’t put any cameras there to film his brother. He could have give Raphael a shot to put him to sleep but he didn’t want to do it since their lives weren’t in danger. Leaving Raph in the cage to exhaust himself was the best option. Walking back to his brother and father they all eyed their mad brother who desperately tried to reach that meat.\n\n“Gosh, this is kinda heart breaking to watch.” Mikey was feeling bad for his brother but he knew this was for the best because Don had said so. With heavy hearts they left rampaging Raph in the cage, hoping he would get tired eventually. It took 5 hours before Raph finally had start to get exhausted enough, finally giving in trying to reach his target. Now sitting on the cage’s floor keeping his tired gaze on the meat, his senses sharpened when foot steps took Don to his food. Instincts told him to reach and fight which he did and it in return made Don jump a bit. Hiding the meat back in the fridge Don made his way towards Raph who packed away from the door, eyeing his brother.\n\n“I’m not going to hurt you, Raph.” Hoping his calm voice would reach his brother’s soul Don opened the door, standing by it. “You can come out if you want.” Having suspicious but curious look on his face Raph slowly made it to the entrance, his gaze locking on the fridge where he now knew his food was held. Seeing this Don suddenly kicked Raph back in the cage, locking the door. Growling in fury Raphael tried to reach his brother who flipped backward easily, avoiding being cut with those long claws.\n\nSo Raph’s memory in his current state was becoming better. It also could mean he could learn to control himself better with time. Leaving Raph raging in cage once more, Don came to check him after 30 minute, finding his brother back in his normal state, sleeping.\n\n–\n\nIt had been 3 weeks now and Don and Mikey had trained Raphael as much as possible but because Raphael was stubborn even in his mutated form, it took hours and hours before he gave in and for that reason in the next day he was extremely exhausted and tired so he usually spent those days mostly sleeping. That had made Don and Mikey agree they would train Raphael every second day to let their brother have much needed rest and this day was one of those days when Raph could rest.\n\nHowever he had something in his mind. Leonardo hadn’t been having much contacts with him and Raphael wanted to change that. He wanted and needed his big brother’s support as well but he just hadn’t had any luck of getting it. Usually Leo did his best to avoid him so Raph did what he knew to be the best way to get Leo’s attention. Just like he had assumed Leonardo’s voice stopped him when he was heading out.\n\n“Have you forgot I grounded you for not going topside?”\n\n“No, I haven’t forgot but I need fresh air.”\n\n“We all could use some fresh air but you are off limits, Raphael. What if you come to an emergency scene, someone’s badly hurt and bleeding? You would go and attack on them and if police would be there, they would shoot you.”\n\n“Shoot me? Njah, I’m still a ninja.”\n\n“Brainless bloodthirsty one.”\n\nGrowling in anger Raph’s body tensed but he held himself back.\n\n“Good for ya ta say that and fucking judge me!”\n\n“I’m simply stating out the truth.”\n\n“In most painful way. Ya just love ta piss me off, don’t ya?”\n\n“And you just love to disobey my every rule and crawl under my skin!”\n\n“If ya wouldn’t be such a dick like ya are I wouldn’t have ta do any of that!”\n\n“And if you wouldn’t be such an immature hot-head I wouldn’t have to! You should listen to me more instead of always fighting against me!”\n\n“I would listen if ya wouldn’t be so fucking bossy, always yelling at me and ordering me around without a damn respect or a thought I’m a moron who can’t do anything right! For once ya could shut the fuck up or next time I mutate I’ll eat ya ta shut ya up just like I ate Klunk!”\n\nLair instantly became deadly silent and the atmosphere in it suddenly changed while Raph stared in Leo’s frozen shocked face, eyes full of fear. Sudden desperate gasps snapped Raph out of his empty head and he saw Leo holding his neck backing away, swinging air towards his face. Reaching towards his brother Raph made it all just worse. With faster speed Leo started to walk back and forth gasping for air, trembling and fanning air towards his face.\n\n“What’s going on?! Leo, talk ta me!” But whenever he tried to approach his brother, Leo stopped him with a hand sign. Since he couldn’t do anything or knew what was going on, Raph called his brother.\n\n“Donnie! DONNIE! Come here! Something’s wrong with Leo!”\n\nHeavy door of Don’s lab swung open, Don running towards them and it came clear what was wrong with his older brother. Holding on Leo’s shoulders Don forced Leo to sit down, kneeling next to him and stroking his carapace.\n\n“It’s okay, calm down. Relax and breath. Everything is okay. That’s good, keep calming down, I’m right here with you.”\n\n“What’s wrong with him?” Raph’s voice was low, silent and full of worry.\n\n“Panic attack.”\n\nDonatello’s calm reply froze Raph and the reality started to hit his mind. Of course. He had seen few times how Leonardo had looked at him in a bit weird way and sometimes Raph had been sure he saw fear in Leo’s eyes but he had told himself it was only his imagination. There was no way their Fearless leader would be afraid of him… But then again all what had happened to them, to him, could have leave its mark in Leo’s spirit. And now he had threaten to eat him next time he would mutate… Also adding the fact that he had eat Klunk on top of it.\n\nSwallowing repeatedly in desperate try of getting lump out of his throat Raph took one shaking step closer but Don held his hand up, looking at his brother over his shoulder.\n\n“I know you want to apologize and be here for Leo but please, leave him to me. Your presence only keep his panic attack on so could you, please, go somewhere? Take a bath or something.”\n\nRaph knew his brother didn’t mean any harm but still his words were like a stab straight in his heart but if it would help Leo to recover, Raph would leave them alone. Whispering ‘Sure’ Raph walked past them from behind so Leo wouldn’t see him, climbing up the stairs to second floor. He stopped to look over the railing to see Mikey now had joined Don and was sitting on Leo’s legs, hugging and rocking him slowly and tight. It seemed Mikey had become Leonardo’s best comforter and support since Mikey owned so clear and pure positive mind.\n\nSealing himself in the darkness of his own room Raphael slid down against the wall on the floor, hugging his legs, head pressed on his knees. Silent tears wet his bandanna and burned his eyes, it was hard to swallow and his chest felt so painful and tight. What the hell he had start to become? A huge mess who was taking his big brother with him. A brother who meant the most to him, a brother who he always had and always would look up to, a brother who he loved and respected greatly despite all the nasty words and actions what he had shown towards him, a brother who was his everything. In this moment Raph really wished his brothers would had let him die. This wasn’t life since he was ruining the lives of his loved ones. ",
"writing_bbcode_parsed": " “So… Ya all are saying my best buddy turns into insane bloodthirsty monster when he sees blood?!” Casey yelled in shock, April and Mikey holding him down sitting on the couch while Splinter was taking care of his cut.
“It seems that’s the situation, Mister Jones, but rest assured we will do whatever it takes to make my son return back to normal.”
April sat there silently for a moment, then slowly turning to look Donatello who was approaching them from the infirmary.
“Donatello, Splinter told us everything just now. Do you need help with anything? I would gladly help you.”
Taking a seat Don smiled at his human friend who’s help had been very important and needed in the past but in this case Don didn’t want to involve April in it.
“I thank you for your offer, April, but I can handle this on my own.”
“So you have a plan?” Mikey asked hopefully and his brother nodded once.
“I have a theory what I would like to try but before that I need to build a cage.”
“Cage?”
“For Raphael. It will be for his own and our safety.”
Everyone seemed to be at lost for a moment but they trusted Don and instead of saying a thing, they all agreed with nod. Casey and April offered to bring Don supplies if he needed any and Don gladly accepted that offer while wishing byes to their friends who had decide it was best for them to leave. In the infirmary Raph had woke up and Leo, who had decided to stay by him, released him. Sitting on the bed Raph sighed in defeat after hearing what he had tried to do.
Leonardo kept staying still and silent watching his once so strong brother being all devastated because of this… and it was all because Leo had give Don an order to give that serum to him. He regretted it but he also had hopes Raph could be cured. He just didn’t know how or how long it would take. Sudden loud sounds from the lab draw their attention and both of them headed in there finding genius collecting stuffs in his hands.
“What are you doing? Did you figured something out?”
“I hope so.” Turning around he saw Raph there too and Don instantly stopped, hurtful look in his eyes as he scanned his brother. “Raph… I –“
“Don’t bother, Donnie. Just… Don’t.”
Leo and Don looked at each other and then Raph, both of them wanting nothing more than help him as soon as possible. Emptying his hands from all the stuff Don silently and steady made his way to Raph, pulling him in tight hug.
“I will keep my promise to you.”
“I know ya will. Just hurry, okay?”
Pulling away from the warmth of Raph’s big body, Don rested his hands on those collapsed shoulders giving them assuring squeeze. “I promise I will.” Without saying anything more Don filled his arms once more with stuff and ran to the elevator and went in garage.
Few days passed and much for everyone’s relief nothing bad hadn’t happen and Raph’s mood had lifted because of it. Now happily training alone in the dojo Raph focused on keeping himself in good shape. Mutated monster or not, he needed and wanted to stay in shape and keep his muscles and strength.
Elevator’s doors opened revealing widely smiling olive green turtle who was pulling something on wheels behind him. Getting everyone’s attention with his entrance Don stopped at the end of the lair waiting his family to gather around.
“I know this might won’t be much and it most surely won’t solve the whole problem what we have with Raph but this most surely will be our best step for now.” Pulling huge piece of cloth off the box shaped item, Don revealed very strong looking iron cage. Everyone eyed it in confusion however.
“Um, Donnie, it’s a cage. Are you planning to lock Raphael in there?”
“Kind of.” Don turned his eyes on Raph who didn’t seem to be too happy about the idea of being locked in that big cage. It seemed to be big enough for him to stand there almost straight but there wasn’t much of space to move around nor sleep… if he didn’t curl on the floor that is. “We will use this when we are training him to get used of seeing and smelling blood.”
“What does that mean in practice?” Leonardo asked arms crossed on his plastron.
“It means Raph goes in there and we lock the door. We then will show him raw meat with blood and see how he will react, how long it will take for him to calm down when and if he realized he can’t get what he wants and I hope, in and with time, he will learn to get over of his obsession for blood and raw meat.”
“What do you mean by raw meat, Donatello?”
“That’s what I too would like to know, my son.” Both Mikey and Splinter seemed to be interested and confused about this since anyone never hadn’t mention Raph had eat meat but Don knew he had – thanks to Raphael’s confession about eating Klunk. Of course Don had and would keep his promise for not telling about it so he told what he knew to be truth.
“When Raphael attacked those Foot ninjas, he did bite off a big piece of their necks but I never saw him dropping or spitting those pieces out so he must had eat them.”
Hearing loud ‘urb’ sound everyone’s eyes turned on Raphael who was running towards the bathroom as fast as he could, hand covering his mouth. Door slammed shut hard behind him and soon they all could hear subdued sounds of vomiting. All 3 of them turned to look Don who obviously was now feeling bad since he had forgot Raph didn’t had clear memories about the happenings but he had to be straight and deadly honest. It would be painful but it was important step towards recovering. After 10 minutes or so Raphael decided to join his family and his good mood was once again gone.
Donatello explained his plan again asking would Raphael agree with it. Since Raph didn’t really have much choices and he wanted to recover he agreed and so the first test or rather training, like Don liked to call it, was executed. Splinter, Leo and Mikey stood a bit further away as Don locked the cage asking and making sure his brother inside was alright. Nodding Raph told he was ready and he received nod back. Donatello had found small working refrigerator day before from junkyard and it instantly had found important purpose in Don’s mind. Opening it Don took piece of bloody meat on plate in his hand hearing the familiar hiss behind him. Turning around and kicking the door gently shut Don scanned his brother who had transform and his eyes were locked on the meat. Keeping his distance Don started to walk back and forth sideways studying Raphael’s body language. So far he seemed calm and he was waiting. Stopping for a moment Don wanted to see would his brother behavior change but it didn’t, but when Don took one big step towards him Raphael launched himself with all his strength against the cage’s bars, trying to reach his hand at the meat.
Growling and hissing as fast and loud as Raph could, he seemed to be extremely obsessed about the piece in Don’s hands. Keeping his space Don started to walk once again back and forth, Raphael following him as much as he could inside his cage. He was becoming frustrated; He was so close of food and yet so far. Slamming once again and reaching his hand towards Don, Raphael let out strongest howl growl mix what he could let out of himself. Stopping Don kept his eyes on Raphael who seemed not to have any signs of getting tired.
Taking a stool Don placed the piece of bloody meat on it and left it away from Raphael’s reach. Since the cage, for now, was in open area of the lair Don didn’t put any cameras there to film his brother. He could have give Raphael a shot to put him to sleep but he didn’t want to do it since their lives weren’t in danger. Leaving Raph in the cage to exhaust himself was the best option. Walking back to his brother and father they all eyed their mad brother who desperately tried to reach that meat.
“Gosh, this is kinda heart breaking to watch.” Mikey was feeling bad for his brother but he knew this was for the best because Don had said so. With heavy hearts they left rampaging Raph in the cage, hoping he would get tired eventually. It took 5 hours before Raph finally had start to get exhausted enough, finally giving in trying to reach his target. Now sitting on the cage’s floor keeping his tired gaze on the meat, his senses sharpened when foot steps took Don to his food. Instincts told him to reach and fight which he did and it in return made Don jump a bit. Hiding the meat back in the fridge Don made his way towards Raph who packed away from the door, eyeing his brother.
“I’m not going to hurt you, Raph.” Hoping his calm voice would reach his brother’s soul Don opened the door, standing by it. “You can come out if you want.” Having suspicious but curious look on his face Raph slowly made it to the entrance, his gaze locking on the fridge where he now knew his food was held. Seeing this Don suddenly kicked Raph back in the cage, locking the door. Growling in fury Raphael tried to reach his brother who flipped backward easily, avoiding being cut with those long claws.
So Raph’s memory in his current state was becoming better. It also could mean he could learn to control himself better with time. Leaving Raph raging in cage once more, Don came to check him after 30 minute, finding his brother back in his normal state, sleeping.
–
It had been 3 weeks now and Don and Mikey had trained Raphael as much as possible but because Raphael was stubborn even in his mutated form, it took hours and hours before he gave in and for that reason in the next day he was extremely exhausted and tired so he usually spent those days mostly sleeping. That had made Don and Mikey agree they would train Raphael every second day to let their brother have much needed rest and this day was one of those days when Raph could rest.
However he had something in his mind. Leonardo hadn’t been having much contacts with him and Raphael wanted to change that. He wanted and needed his big brother’s support as well but he just hadn’t had any luck of getting it. Usually Leo did his best to avoid him so Raph did what he knew to be the best way to get Leo’s attention. Just like he had assumed Leonardo’s voice stopped him when he was heading out.
“Have you forgot I grounded you for not going topside?”
“No, I haven’t forgot but I need fresh air.”
“We all could use some fresh air but you are off limits, Raphael. What if you come to an emergency scene, someone’s badly hurt and bleeding? You would go and attack on them and if police would be there, they would shoot you.”
“Shoot me? Njah, I’m still a ninja.”
“Brainless bloodthirsty one.”
Growling in anger Raph’s body tensed but he held himself back.
“Good for ya ta say that and fucking judge me!”
“I’m simply stating out the truth.”
“In most painful way. Ya just love ta piss me off, don’t ya?”
“And you just love to disobey my every rule and crawl under my skin!”
“If ya wouldn’t be such a dick like ya are I wouldn’t have ta do any of that!”
“And if you wouldn’t be such an immature hot-head I wouldn’t have to! You should listen to me more instead of always fighting against me!”
“I would listen if ya wouldn’t be so fucking bossy, always yelling at me and ordering me around without a damn respect or a thought I’m a moron who can’t do anything right! For once ya could shut the fuck up or next time I mutate I’ll eat ya ta shut ya up just like I ate Klunk!”
Lair instantly became deadly silent and the atmosphere in it suddenly changed while Raph stared in Leo’s frozen shocked face, eyes full of fear. Sudden desperate gasps snapped Raph out of his empty head and he saw Leo holding his neck backing away, swinging air towards his face. Reaching towards his brother Raph made it all just worse. With faster speed Leo started to walk back and forth gasping for air, trembling and fanning air towards his face.
“What’s going on?! Leo, talk ta me!” But whenever he tried to approach his brother, Leo stopped him with a hand sign. Since he couldn’t do anything or knew what was going on, Raph called his brother.
“Donnie! DONNIE! Come here! Something’s wrong with Leo!”
Heavy door of Don’s lab swung open, Don running towards them and it came clear what was wrong with his older brother. Holding on Leo’s shoulders Don forced Leo to sit down, kneeling next to him and stroking his carapace.
“It’s okay, calm down. Relax and breath. Everything is okay. That’s good, keep calming down, I’m right here with you.”
“What’s wrong with him?” Raph’s voice was low, silent and full of worry.
“Panic attack.”
Donatello’s calm reply froze Raph and the reality started to hit his mind. Of course. He had seen few times how Leonardo had looked at him in a bit weird way and sometimes Raph had been sure he saw fear in Leo’s eyes but he had told himself it was only his imagination. There was no way their Fearless leader would be afraid of him… But then again all what had happened to them, to him, could have leave its mark in Leo’s spirit. And now he had threaten to eat him next time he would mutate… Also adding the fact that he had eat Klunk on top of it.
Swallowing repeatedly in desperate try of getting lump out of his throat Raph took one shaking step closer but Don held his hand up, looking at his brother over his shoulder.
“I know you want to apologize and be here for Leo but please, leave him to me. Your presence only keep his panic attack on so could you, please, go somewhere? Take a bath or something.”
Raph knew his brother didn’t mean any harm but still his words were like a stab straight in his heart but if it would help Leo to recover, Raph would leave them alone. Whispering ‘Sure’ Raph walked past them from behind so Leo wouldn’t see him, climbing up the stairs to second floor. He stopped to look over the railing to see Mikey now had joined Don and was sitting on Leo’s legs, hugging and rocking him slowly and tight. It seemed Mikey had become Leonardo’s best comforter and support since Mikey owned so clear and pure positive mind.
Sealing himself in the darkness of his own room Raphael slid down against the wall on the floor, hugging his legs, head pressed on his knees. Silent tears wet his bandanna and burned his eyes, it was hard to swallow and his chest felt so painful and tight. What the hell he had start to become? A huge mess who was taking his big brother with him. A brother who meant the most to him, a brother who he always had and always would look up to, a brother who he loved and respected greatly despite all the nasty words and actions what he had shown towards him, a brother who was his everything. In this moment Raph really wished his brothers would had let him die. This wasn’t life since he was ruining the lives of his loved ones. ",
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