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Please forgive me about writing mistakes. My English wasn't so good back then when I wrote this.", "count": "11", "submission_left_submission_id": "1019061", "submission_left_file_name": "1402382_NeiNing_out_of_his_shadow_-_chapter_1.rtf", "submission_right_submission_id": "1019823", "submission_right_file_name": "1403405_NeiNing_out_of_his_shadow_-_chapter_3.rtf" } ], "description": "", "description_bbcode_parsed": "", "writing": "When Leo managed to get back in the lair, his brothers and father were shocked of his injuries and the fact Raphael wasn't with him. He sat on the chair as Don rushed to him with first-aid-kit, checking that long cut what started at the top of Leo's head, went over his left eye and stopped just before his chin.\n\n\"Leo... I hate to say this but this will leave a scar and that I can't save your left eye. Do you see anything with it?\"\n\n\"It's okay, Donnie, don't worry. Scars never haven't bother me and what comes to my eye, I see with it but it looks like if there's mist and figures inside it.\"\n\n\"At least you see that well with it.\" Mikey smiled tapping Leo's shoulder gently, receiving warm smile from his oldest brother. Splinter sat on his chair keeping his eyes on his sons before speaking.\n\n\"I'm most relieved you managed to come back home and your injuries aren't that serious but I must ask you, what happened and where's Raphael?\"\n\nHis blue eyes met his father's before turning away. Leo kept a long pause rolling words in his head, finally telling straight true hearing Mikey gasping next to him with Don, while sensing slight shock and worry from his father.\n\n\"Raphael... What are you doing? What has got into you...?\" Splinter sighed deeply getting on his feet. \"I must go in my chamber and try to reach him via meditation. Donatello, Michelangelo, watch after your brother.\"\n\n\"We'll do, master.\"\n\nTheir father gave them one small nod slowly walking away into his room, closing the door behind him. When the door closed, he could relax and cough few times feeling something hitting his palm what he kept in front of his mouth. Blood. Fresh red blood... Splinter looked at his shaking hand, knowing his time was running out and he needed to hurry in order to try to locate Raphael. Wiping blood on a tissue he headed more deeper in his room, lighting up candles slowly sitting on lotus pose eyes closed.\n\n[i]\"Focus... Focus... Raphael, my son. Where are you?\"[/i] Soon the are in front of his mind's eyes opened and worry filled his heart since there was nothing else than darkness. Endless darkness. Despite the darkness Splinter slowly started to see emerald green skin and shell. [i]\"Raphael? Is it you? Answer me, please. Are you alright, son?\"[/i]\n\nSlowly but surely Raphael turned around a bit, looking at his father over his shoulder but he said nothing so Splinter moved little closer reaching his hand toward his son. \n\n[i]\"Come home. We all are worried and waiting.\"[/i] But he got reply what he didn't want to see. Raphael turned to face him fully, slowly shaking his head couple times.\n\n[i]\"Why not, my son?\"\n[/i]\nRaphael's eyes turned more sad as he shook his head again whispering; [i]\"I can't tell.\"[/i]\n\n[i]\"Of course you can. I'm your father, you can and must trust me. Is it because of Leonardo?\"[/i]\n\nSplinter's son's head dropped down but not for long as Raph raised his head up, having so nasty look in his shining eyes that it sting right into Splinter's heart.\n\n[i]\"I said I can't tell!\"[/i]\n\n[i]\"W-wait, Raphael...!\"[/i]\n\nBut it was too late. His son had disappear in darkness and so Splinter withdrew from his meditation state, returning back to his current state and instant worry filled him. It wasn't a good sign at all that Raphael was surrounded by darkness and disappeared in it... Something very bad was happening to his son, inside of his own body and mind.\n\n----\n\n\"So Raph really killed Shredder and took his helmet. But why?\"\n\n\"I don't know, Don. I honestly don't know. I've been thinking it so much myself and still I have no answer.\"\n\n\"Maybe he wants to become a new Shredder.\"\n\nBoth Don and Leo looked in shock their youngest brother who just happily kept munching his pizza slice, finally seeing their gazes. \"What?! It was a joke! Raph can be stupid but he's not THAT stupid. Joining forces with the Foot, our enemy... Pfff, who's butt Raph then would kick?\"\n\nLeo seemed troubled by Mike's joke so Don deciced to ease his older brother's feelings.\n\n\"You know, Leo, I wouldn't worry about Raph since I can understand Mike's joke. Raph wouldn't do anything that, Maybe he just needs some time out to cool down since you two have been fighting every day in the last whole week.\"\n\n\"I don't know, Don. I have so bad feeling about this.\"\n\n\"You always have a bad feeling, bro. Chill! Relax! Play video games, they help you to relax and get your mind out of Raph.\"\n\nMike had a good point and when Leo was about to ask if Mike would like to play with him, Splinter came to his sons shaking slightly. Leo was first to jump to his father taking gentle hold on him, escorting him to closest chair.\n\n\"Master Splinter, are you alright?\"\n\n\"Oh yes, I'm fine, Donatello. I'm just worried about your brother.\"\n\n\"So you managed to find him?\"\n\n\"Not exactly, Leonardo, but somehow yes. He's surrounded by total darkness. I'm not sure is he forced into it or is it something what's inside of him but no matter which one it is, we must hurry and find him. I fear he might won't come back from the dark side if he fells into it so I must ask you, Donatello and Michelangelo; Go find your brother. Do your everything to find him.\"\n\n\"I wanna go too, dad.\"\n\n\"Absolutely not, Leonardo. You are recovering so you stay here.\" His eyes turned back on his youngest sons with encouraging smile. \"I have all my faith in you two. Work together and never leave another behind. If the situation turns difficult, retreat.\"\n\n\"We know all that, Master. You can count on us. Come on, Mike, we shall go right away. Hopefully Raph hasn't got too far away.\"\n\nLeo watched helplessly after Don and Mike, turning his focus back on Master Splinter who didn't seem to look so good.\n\n\"Are you sure you're okay, father?\"\n\n\"Yes, yes. I'm fine. That darkness in meditation was just so strong that it made me feel a bit sick and dizzy.\"\n\n\"Then I'll help you back to your chamber and make sure you rest. I will come get to you when Don and Mike returns.\"\n\n--\n\nHours and hours had passed and there was no sign of Don and Mike. Leo had even try to call them but they didn't pick up. Maybe they had put their phones in mute so they wouldn't be discovered. Sifting his pose to be better while sitting on the chair something was twisting his stomach and he didn't like it at all. Master Splinter slowly approached his son who jumped up despite his sore body coming to his master.\n\n\"Dad, you should be resting.\"\n\n\"Thank you, but I have rest enough. Is there any sign of Donatello and Michelangelo?\"\n\nHis question got only few slow head shakes as answer which made Splinter sigh deep.\n\n\"I hope they are alright. They should had been back already...\"\n\n\"I could go look for them.\"\n\n\"No. You stay here and heal yourself.\" He suddenly started to feel dizzy again so he leaned on his walking stick excusing himself, retreating in his chamber closing the door behind him and this weird behavior had start to worry Leo. His father did like to spend time in his chamber but it was obvious something was wrong with master as well but maybe it was only stress and worry about his 3 sons.\n\n--\n\n24 hours had past since Don and Mike left the lair and they hadn't been back nor they had been heard. Splinter was still in his chamber so Leonardo took his katanas and left, coming to search his brothers on top but even after searching them a whole night, he came back empty handed but he didn't let it bring him down and fear the worst. For 3 weeks every night Leo had sneak out but no, nothing about his brothers could be found... Defeated Leonardo arrived back to lair and something told him there was something wrong and his instincts guided him behind his master's door. Little hesitation before knocking the door but no answer was heard. Maybe his father was sleeping? He decided to knock again while calling his father but no reply again. This time Leo just opened the door and what he saw made his heart drop in his stomach.\n\nHis father was laying on his stomach on the floor right next to his small tea tablet, tea pan and cup fallen on the floor with spilled tea while there was dry blood what had leak out of his father's mouth. In horror and panic Leonardo rushed to his father kneeling down, picking his father up, shaking and calling him but he got no any sign of life from him, even his chest was peacefully quiet when Leo pressed his ear against his father's chest. That silence... It was so clear sign that there was no way his father was coming back.\n\nTears gathering in his eyes he looked his father in his arms with trembling lip, escaping loud sobs filling this silent room as this broken son, a teenager, a child, pressed his face against his father's furry chest crying out loud, holding this beloved lifeless body tightly in his arms. No.... No.... No! Not this on top of everything else! First Raph went missing, then Don and Mike went missing and now his father was dead! What he would do now?! How he would survive on his own?! He was trained to be strong and work as an individual but still, at the back of his head, he had known he still had his brothers and father there to support and help him but now... When they all were gone...\n\n[i]\"What do I do?... I can't make it.... Dad, why did you do this to me? Why you left me alone? I miss you! I want you back! Please, someone... Help...\"[/i] were the only thoughts rolling in his mind as he sat down pulling his father in his lap, slowly swinging himself from side to side, looking for comfort.\n", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "When Leo managed to get back in the lair, his brothers and father were shocked of his injuries and the fact Raphael wasn't with him. He sat on the chair as Don rushed to him with first-aid-kit, checking that long cut what started at the top of Leo's head, went over his left eye and stopped just before his chin.

"Leo... I hate to say this but this will leave a scar and that I can't save your left eye. Do you see anything with it?"

"It's okay, Donnie, don't worry. Scars never haven't bother me and what comes to my eye, I see with it but it looks like if there's mist and figures inside it."

"At least you see that well with it." Mikey smiled tapping Leo's shoulder gently, receiving warm smile from his oldest brother. Splinter sat on his chair keeping his eyes on his sons before speaking.

"I'm most relieved you managed to come back home and your injuries aren't that serious but I must ask you, what happened and where's Raphael?"

His blue eyes met his father's before turning away. Leo kept a long pause rolling words in his head, finally telling straight true hearing Mikey gasping next to him with Don, while sensing slight shock and worry from his father.

"Raphael... What are you doing? What has got into you...?" Splinter sighed deeply getting on his feet. "I must go in my chamber and try to reach him via meditation. Donatello, Michelangelo, watch after your brother."

"We'll do, master."

Their father gave them one small nod slowly walking away into his room, closing the door behind him. When the door closed, he could relax and cough few times feeling something hitting his palm what he kept in front of his mouth. Blood. Fresh red blood... Splinter looked at his shaking hand, knowing his time was running out and he needed to hurry in order to try to locate Raphael. Wiping blood on a tissue he headed more deeper in his room, lighting up candles slowly sitting on lotus pose eyes closed.

"Focus... Focus... Raphael, my son. Where are you?" Soon the are in front of his mind's eyes opened and worry filled his heart since there was nothing else than darkness. Endless darkness. Despite the darkness Splinter slowly started to see emerald green skin and shell. "Raphael? Is it you? Answer me, please. Are you alright, son?"

Slowly but surely Raphael turned around a bit, looking at his father over his shoulder but he said nothing so Splinter moved little closer reaching his hand toward his son.

"Come home. We all are worried and waiting." But he got reply what he didn't want to see. Raphael turned to face him fully, slowly shaking his head couple times.

"Why not, my son?"

Raphael's eyes turned more sad as he shook his head again whispering; "I can't tell."

"Of course you can. I'm your father, you can and must trust me. Is it because of Leonardo?"

Splinter's son's head dropped down but not for long as Raph raised his head up, having so nasty look in his shining eyes that it sting right into Splinter's heart.

"I said I can't tell!"

"W-wait, Raphael...!"

But it was too late. His son had disappear in darkness and so Splinter withdrew from his meditation state, returning back to his current state and instant worry filled him. It wasn't a good sign at all that Raphael was surrounded by darkness and disappeared in it... Something very bad was happening to his son, inside of his own body and mind.

----

"So Raph really killed Shredder and took his helmet. But why?"

"I don't know, Don. I honestly don't know. I've been thinking it so much myself and still I have no answer."

"Maybe he wants to become a new Shredder."

Both Don and Leo looked in shock their youngest brother who just happily kept munching his pizza slice, finally seeing their gazes. "What?! It was a joke! Raph can be stupid but he's not THAT stupid. Joining forces with the Foot, our enemy... Pfff, who's butt Raph then would kick?"

Leo seemed troubled by Mike's joke so Don deciced to ease his older brother's feelings.

"You know, Leo, I wouldn't worry about Raph since I can understand Mike's joke. Raph wouldn't do anything that, Maybe he just needs some time out to cool down since you two have been fighting every day in the last whole week."

"I don't know, Don. I have so bad feeling about this."

"You always have a bad feeling, bro. Chill! Relax! Play video games, they help you to relax and get your mind out of Raph."

Mike had a good point and when Leo was about to ask if Mike would like to play with him, Splinter came to his sons shaking slightly. Leo was first to jump to his father taking gentle hold on him, escorting him to closest chair.

"Master Splinter, are you alright?"

"Oh yes, I'm fine, Donatello. I'm just worried about your brother."

"So you managed to find him?"

"Not exactly, Leonardo, but somehow yes. He's surrounded by total darkness. I'm not sure is he forced into it or is it something what's inside of him but no matter which one it is, we must hurry and find him. I fear he might won't come back from the dark side if he fells into it so I must ask you, Donatello and Michelangelo; Go find your brother. Do your everything to find him."

"I wanna go too, dad."

"Absolutely not, Leonardo. You are recovering so you stay here." His eyes turned back on his youngest sons with encouraging smile. "I have all my faith in you two. Work together and never leave another behind. If the situation turns difficult, retreat."

"We know all that, Master. You can count on us. Come on, Mike, we shall go right away. Hopefully Raph hasn't got too far away."

Leo watched helplessly after Don and Mike, turning his focus back on Master Splinter who didn't seem to look so good.

"Are you sure you're okay, father?"

"Yes, yes. I'm fine. That darkness in meditation was just so strong that it made me feel a bit sick and dizzy."

"Then I'll help you back to your chamber and make sure you rest. I will come get to you when Don and Mike returns."

--

Hours and hours had passed and there was no sign of Don and Mike. Leo had even try to call them but they didn't pick up. Maybe they had put their phones in mute so they wouldn't be discovered. Sifting his pose to be better while sitting on the chair something was twisting his stomach and he didn't like it at all. Master Splinter slowly approached his son who jumped up despite his sore body coming to his master.

"Dad, you should be resting."

"Thank you, but I have rest enough. Is there any sign of Donatello and Michelangelo?"

His question got only few slow head shakes as answer which made Splinter sigh deep.

"I hope they are alright. They should had been back already..."

"I could go look for them."

"No. You stay here and heal yourself." He suddenly started to feel dizzy again so he leaned on his walking stick excusing himself, retreating in his chamber closing the door behind him and this weird behavior had start to worry Leo. His father did like to spend time in his chamber but it was obvious something was wrong with master as well but maybe it was only stress and worry about his 3 sons.

--

24 hours had past since Don and Mike left the lair and they hadn't been back nor they had been heard. Splinter was still in his chamber so Leonardo took his katanas and left, coming to search his brothers on top but even after searching them a whole night, he came back empty handed but he didn't let it bring him down and fear the worst. For 3 weeks every night Leo had sneak out but no, nothing about his brothers could be found... Defeated Leonardo arrived back to lair and something told him there was something wrong and his instincts guided him behind his master's door. Little hesitation before knocking the door but no answer was heard. Maybe his father was sleeping? He decided to knock again while calling his father but no reply again. This time Leo just opened the door and what he saw made his heart drop in his stomach.

His father was laying on his stomach on the floor right next to his small tea tablet, tea pan and cup fallen on the floor with spilled tea while there was dry blood what had leak out of his father's mouth. In horror and panic Leonardo rushed to his father kneeling down, picking his father up, shaking and calling him but he got no any sign of life from him, even his chest was peacefully quiet when Leo pressed his ear against his father's chest. That silence... It was so clear sign that there was no way his father was coming back.

Tears gathering in his eyes he looked his father in his arms with trembling lip, escaping loud sobs filling this silent room as this broken son, a teenager, a child, pressed his face against his father's furry chest crying out loud, holding this beloved lifeless body tightly in his arms. No.... No.... No! Not this on top of everything else! First Raph went missing, then Don and Mike went missing and now his father was dead! What he would do now?! How he would survive on his own?! He was trained to be strong and work as an individual but still, at the back of his head, he had known he still had his brothers and father there to support and help him but now... When they all were gone...

"What do I do?... I can't make it.... Dad, why did you do this to me? Why you left me alone? I miss you! I want you back! Please, someone... Help..." were the only thoughts rolling in his mind as he sat down pulling his father in his lap, slowly swinging himself from side to side, looking for comfort.
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