TMNT-Something has been never changed Chapter 4: Lost The mistress picked up her cell phone. "Hello?" "At last!" Said the harsh voice. "I am so sorry I couldn't answer for the first call. However, Chaplin does not need to know anything about our plan..." She apologised. The harsh voiced caller interrupted her. "I don't care! I've done my part! I want my reward, I want him now!" He demanded. "Please, just be a bit patient, sir. He is going to be yours soon, very soon." The woman tried to calm him down. "Good, good!" He said then put down the phone, laughing. ... At the morning Leo's POV 'Why? Why me? I shouldn't have... You-you monster..!' I couldn't sleep at night. 'I don't understand. Have I done something really wrong before I got here? Do you want revenge..? Why the wrost type..? Why can't you just leave me alone..?' My thoughts were in a whirl. I dind't want to do anything all day but lay in my bed. 'Why does everyone hate me..? Why does even Raph... Well I'm not sure about this... He's the most kind to me...but lately... Damn it! I've got bigger problems than this... That nightmare...That mo-monster...' *Sob* '...How could he..? Why did that happen to me..?' *Sob* I couldn't help but shaking and crying. ... At school, actually, I was surprised. The head-bully was absent and maybe that's why everything was peaceful and calm. Moreover, for my luck Don didn't mother me. Seriously, it can be so embarrassing! ... The afternoon passed peacefully too. Especially, sensei's short lesson which stood me in good stead. I know these all sounds good but my memories were chasing me at the livelong day. It was hard to hide my sadness and fear. That's why I left after the guys and headed the opposite direction... I just wanted to calm down, think over many things then find some kind of solution. I couldn't help but run after I turned left because I wanted to get somewhere safe where I could be alone. Unfortunately, when I got near the forest, every memory turned into worse. I just fell down and started crying. Suddenly, I felt the world around me being vertiginous then I fainted. ... I woke up on sensei's couch. After a short conversation he comforted me, huged me then offered me some food he would make. I accepted it. To be honest, I told him nothing more than 'Everyone hates me' and stuff but he showed me it's half true, there's some one whom I'm important. Anyway, I just couldn't say more... If I had told him those things wich happend to me... Maybe he would have dispise me because of that... However, nothing can't be good in my life. I should have known that... When I read his letter, that was about him, resigning from the dojo, I-I...I just...It made me angry and run away in disbelief... Maybe, that wasn't a good idea... ... Next day morning Raph's POV 'Gosh..! Why is this happening all the time..? Wathever...I just hope he's fine... There's no use in yammering anymore...but how can I be this stupid..? That poor boy...' I was thinking still in my livingroom. It was my umpteenth sleepless night... I just couldn't put him out of my head...'Fuck..! I shouldn't have left that letter in the livingroom... I didn't want him to know before Monday, especially not like this... I just can hope that he won't do something stupid... I really hope...' Luckily, during the weekend I could think over everything so I made a serious decision... ... Monday Raph's POV I was in the dojo, waiting for the boys and thinking about how to tell that I want to resign... and why... However, I was sure the hardest part would be explain it to Leo...Gosh, he must have been so mad at me..! Tap. Tap. Tap. Suddenly, some kind of footfall caught my ears, something that seemed to be getting closer and louder. It didn't took so long till Mikey burst into the dojo, frightening me out of my wits! I couldn't help but jump and fell back! Gosh, it really hurt my butt..! "Se...sen...sei..!" He almost choked on his words. He needed more than a minute to draw his breath. Anyway, why did he run..? Maybe, he did some childish prank on Donnie..? "What? Did something ha..." I couldn't finish the sentence because he grabbed onto my arm and started to lead me to the main door in hurry. "Wa-wait! Let me go..!" I half shouted then shoved his hand off, just before we could get outside. He looked at me confused but his expression changed into uptight in a moment. "What happend?" I asked, looking at him fretfully. "It's about Leo! We should hurry!" He told me, trying to grab my hand again but this time I was faster, grabbing his arm, turning him arround then made sure he would stay still. Leo... Again, Leo...but why..? I hoped it wouldn't be something serious... "Leonardo? What's with him?" I asked with a suspicious expression. "Somethi...Could you please let me go? It's uncomfortable!" He said, twithcing. I slowly let lose my hold of him. "Tell me, please." I told him, getting a bit worried. What if something really had happend to Leo? He looked into my eyes. "He...He has..." He talked so slowly, like he was in some kind of drama, driving me crazy. "OH! COME ON! JUST SPIT IT OUT..!" My sudden out burst really frightened him. I was surprised. Why did I even had to scare the hell out of the boy that couldn't even let out any kind of sound after that? Gosh..! I must have been a fuck up in my previous life... "...I... Uh... I'm... I'm sorry. Really... I just... Damn! I don't know what got into me. You okay?" I gave him an apologetic look. He slowly relaxed then his face turned to serious again. "...Please trust me, sensei. We gotta hurry. Leo's been missing! We haven't found him!" Wha- No! It can't be! Leo..! "What? You mean, he-" "Yeah! And no one knows where else we should search. We, Donnie and I, really tried every possible place. Moreover, there's no letter or something wich can help and-" He started to explain everything with a so concentrated look but I had to cut in. "You don't know where he is and you just ask me for help, now!? Seriously, what do you two think you can do alone!?" Honestly, I had thought Donnie was smarter than that and he would ask me or, at least, someone reliable earlyer... But no... He didn't and I'm sure I can tell why. He is a child, who must have been panicked so I don't think I should blame him. Mikey's POV 'He must think so hard, I can tell...' I thought to my self, watching how he leaned to the wall, lowering his head. Although I knew he loves us, he still overriacted the situation. 'Come on, dude! What's this all of a sudden? I'm sure Leo haven't been able to hide anywhere on this tiny island...' "Se-sensei?" I tried to reach his shoulder, calling him. However, I flinched when he rised his head up. That scary look in his eyes... I hope I'll never see it again... "What?" His glance... Gosh..! Was he mad at me? "Shouldn't...we go..?" I spoke slowly, trying not to make him yell again. Somehow, after starring at him for long I realised he, actually, wasn't angry. It felt like...like... In his eyes I saw guilt. And people say I'm kind of a bonehead..! Seriously! I can't be that stupid if I figured out his feelings on my own..! Wait! Why does he even feel guilty!? He didn't, did he..? "Oh! Sorry! I...I just...I'm so sorry! Let's go now!" It was weird, he was nervous... ... It was awkward, walking by his side. I was sure something had happend, something that totally wasn't awesome and maybe...just maybe chased Leo away... Even thought I was with sensei, I felt relief when we arrived to the park where Donnie was. Seriously he was everything but not calm. Anyway, I can admit that this time the park is so peaceful and perfect for such meetings. Don's POV "At least, Mikey! I thought I told you clearly to hurry." I snapped at him. "...Sorry..." He slowly lowered his head in shame. "...But I have an idea what could happen-" He suddenly cut off when a dark shadow stepped behind him. At first, I thought I was dreaming because I never saw Raphael such a nervous wreck... It was really strange. Despite the fact that Mikey said he had had an idea, I still hoped it wasn't about Leo... He's my boyfriend but it doesn't mean I can read his thoughts... "What is it?" I asked, suspiciously. Actually, my lovers's nervous behaviour made me curious. "Nothing..!" He almost yelled. 'You're strange too, my lovely Mikey-boy...' I thought to myself. Also sensei looked at him, questioningly. However, I hope he didn't hear our previous conversation. Well, to be honest, Mikey wanted to say something before Raph came in and he cut off. 'Damn! It's so obvious! This whole thing is all about Leo and Raphael! I should have figured out that before..!' "What is 'nothing'?" Sensei's sudden speech snapped me out of my thoughts, making me look at Mikey. "Uhm...Nothing..?" 'Creative answer, Mikey. Come on, boy! You're answering or asking?' Sensei didn't pay much attention to it. He turned to me. "Donatello, do you know what happend to Leo?" 'Leo? Really? This is the first time he's calling any of us on a nickname...Weird...' "Well..." I explained everything, it took me half an hour. ... "So you mean, he haven't come home since yesterday and you have tried call him many times but his phone is off and he didn't even leave any clue where he has gone and why?" His gaze burned into me. I nodded, not daring to face him. His face turned to furrious. "Then why didn't you tell me earlier!? Seriously, what do you children think, you're doing!? Anything could happen to him! What if the same happens to you too!? What if-" "Please, stop!" Mikey cut in, praying with teary eyes. We both were shocked by his sudden actions. "There's no time for this." "Yeah, you're right, Michelangelo but you should have told me! Anyway, as your sensei, for your own safety I forbid you to search for him!" He ordered us, his gaze didn't change. "But-" We exclaimed in surprise. "There's no buts! The place where we live is not as peaceful as it looks like. Some part of those creatures, who live here, aren't so reliable as they were before their mutation. Go home and entrust this to me." He said in a warning tone. No matter how I hate to admit that but he was right. However, I was too stubborn. "No! I won't let it go just because you tell me to do-" "Look kid, I'm not going to say please! Trust me, this is for your own good!" He warned me, stepping closer with a serious expression. Although, I knew he wouldn't hurt me, his scary glance scared me to death. "Ha-hai..." Mikey just were watching us with teary eyes. "Fine. Bye." Raph said then went away in hurry. "Do-Donnie..?" He ran to me, asking and crying. "We won't give up, will we?" I put my hand around his waist then he put his arms around my neck. "Don't worry. We'll find him." "What if we won't?" He asked, looking up at me. His cheeks was still wet from crying so I put my hands on his face then wiped the tears off with my thumbs. "Look. Don't you ever think about that. We will find him, no matter what. I promise." I said, smiling. He smiled back. "Anyway, you were going to tell me something before sensei-" "Oh! I almost forgot that! Well, hear me out..." His eyes kindled with a beautyful shine, his lips curled into a wild smile. Then he started his 'story'. ... A month later Raph's POV 'I can't believe it..! Fuck! It's imposible to disappear just like that, especially on such a tiny island..!' I was thinking while I was heading out of my house, at the morning. To be honest, I just couldn't leave the dojo and the boys, not like this , not when they need me...especially when Leo needs me... "Raphael," Someone called me, snapping me out of my thought, when I stepped out of the building. It surprised me. I looked around then realised my neighbour, an old lady, Mrs. Jackson, who stood by the . She is some kind of lizard mutant and the nicest person I have ever met. "Good morning, Mrs. Jackson. Is there anything you need?" I asked, still feeling a bit surprised. "I don't but it's obvious you do." She stated. My eyes widened. "What?" "Don't be shy, dear. I saw the boy. He is cute. However, when he left he didn't seem to be happy since then I haven't seen him again. This is why I'm asking if you need any help." She smiled. I didn't know what to say. It felt like I can trust her but...who knows...and the whole situation was messed up... "I...I'm fine, thanks. Anyway, I have to go now. Good bye, Mrs. Jackson." "As you wish, dear. However you should know that there are things wich you can't solve on your own. And also there are things that can turn out better than you expect." She said with a serious expression. "...Good bye, dear." She continued, smiling then walk into her home. I stood there for minutes, thinking. Suddenly, I hit upon the idea of something so I ran straight into my home to make a call. ... "Hello?" "Donatello..?" I called him with my voice shaking. TBC