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Things are happening, huh~\nWill we ever have these two admit they love each other? TTvTT", "description_bbcode_parsed": "Here is another chapter! Things are happening, huh~
Will we ever have these two admit they love each other? TTvTT", "writing": "After a good sleep, Leo woke up with a very calm mind. Even he couldn't understand why he was so calm. He was still pretty much aware what happened between him and Raphael. Yet he was so calm. His mind was so empty. He supposed to feel angry or shocked or frustrated or sad. Blaming himself, feeling guilty for what he just let to happen, blame himself, then blame Raphael, then just be a coward turtle hiding in his shell, the mind-shell he built up to be so thick and tough, that no one could reach behind it. None of those turmoils happened in him. No drama happened in his mind. He supposed to quickly cover all in his mind, fast, as if nothing happened and pretend clueless around Raph. He supposed to sit down, meditate and think about it more. He really wasn't kissing Raphael like a brother, nor having the brotherly feelings. Maybe he really was selfish. Maybe he was allowing himself way too much to be this way. Or maybe he didn't have the right emotions and mind to react accordingly to the situation. The hurricane was silent for now. He did not feel any emotional tiredness, nor any forceful feelings that would pressure him to close up, shut down emotionally and start rationalizing what is right and what is wrong, like a true good leader and mature big brother should do. He was eerily content.\n\nAnd he lived with the present. With the Now. And the Now was good.\n\nLeo prepared for the daily routines. He actually thought to offer for his brothers if they want to get a little wild and just go out with the truck. He made tea for their father, took it to the rat's room and then also made some for himself. He froze for a moment by reflex, as he felt someone else's presence. He somehow really wanted it to be Raph. It would be nice to see him as it's just the two of them and no one has to see. But as he turned, it was rather a completely exhausted Donatello.\n\n``Good morning.'' Leo said on a plain tone and emotionless expression, as he examined the other turtle, then frowned. ``You did not sleep an inch, now did you?'' his voice sounded very strict and he actually got annoyed, as the tired brother flinched. He was right and he hated to be right about this. ``How many times do we need to talk about this over and over?! Why can't you just.....understand, out of all your family members, you supposed to understand the best why you need to rest!'' he started to scolding.\n\nDonatello silently sat down to the table, he could not look at Leo's face, just staring at the table ashamed.\n\n``Sorry...'' he mumbled silently.\n\nLeo did not say any more words. He fell silent. Donatello hated that. It was cold and merciless. It did have the effect what Leo wanted. It did make the other feel awful and miserable in front of the fearless leader. At the beginning Donatello tried with clever excuses and sometimes managed to win the verbal fight with Leo, but after a time Leo did not even let him speak up anymore. He knew Leonardo was right and he wanted the best for him, but the punishment he needed to face was a bit too pressuring sometimes.\n\nLeonardo made sure Donatello wasn't drinking coffee that morning, he did not say anything, just snatching the mug from the other, instead he gave him tea, then when the time came, as they gathered in the dojo, Leonardo spoke up with a frown.\n\n``Thanked to your dearest genius brother, we will not have the morning training and we will not go out on a patrol. Mikey, Raph, you are free to spar, I will also accompany you, Donatello, you are dismissed and you will rest. `` his sharp glare gave no place for talking back.\n\nDonatello sighed embarrassed. Mikey and Raph were staring at Leo, then at Don, then Raph back at Leo, while Mikey grinned and patted Don's shoulder.\n\n''Awesome, dude, you should do this more often, so we skip training!''\n\n''Mikey!'' Leo scolded, he somehow unintentionally dodged Raph's gaze.\n\nLittle did he know that irritated Raph to the core. Raph wasn't sleeping much either, but since he usually frowned a lot, it wasn't as visible as on Don. He was more grumpy this time, since he barely slept, then he couldn't sleep, because he couldn't make his mind rest, just thinking about Leo's lips and embrace and his sweet smiles, eventually a fast jerk off helped to rest, but then morning came fast and it was time to wake up again. He was very irritable and grumpy. He wanted to just rant about everything and everyone, be left alone, then wanted to be night and doing forbidden things with Leo. However, he had no idea how Leo felt. He made that annoying emotionless expression, the hard-to-read face. And then, on top of all that, he ignored Raph's gaze, yet Raph was seeking for a little comfort. Raph barely could hold his temper back, he gritted his teeth, he would so punch Leo at this point, then kiss him all over, that it just annoyed the very soul out of him. He was more than convinced Leo regretted everything yesterday and now their little sneak outs at nights were over, Raph getting closer to Leo was over, not to mention fantasies ever happening were completely over. All hope lost. All because Leo was an asshole, an egoistic brat, who was too perfect to everything and everyone.\n\n``I'm off.'' Raph finally grunted, then he stormed out of the dojo, in his room.\n\nThe others looked after him surprised, then Leo sighed.\n\n``Okay, now what's his problem...?'' he tiredly massaged his temple.\n\n``Just the usual?'' Mikey shrugged. ``He seems upset. Did you had a fight again?'' Mikey tilted his head, looking at Leo with a curious, nosy grin.\n\n``Just.....can you wait here, Mikey? I'll escort Don and ...check Raph and we will have a little training session, okay?''\n\nMikey groaned, folded his arms.\n\n``Clock is ticking! Mikey's stomach is soon growling, so better hurry up, or ninja out!'' he said playfully.\n\nLeo nodded, then waved at Don.\n\n``I'm sorry...'' Donatello mumbled, as they walked at his room. ``I did not know I will cause this much of a hassle.''\n\n``Don't worry about it. More important is for you to have a gooood rest. If you happen to wake up earlier, we could have a little drive around the streets.'' Leo grinned at Don reassuring, smoothening the tension between them.\n\nDonatello's worried, tired expression shifted to a faint, eased up smile.\n\n``That sounds cool. I made a few upgrades to the vehicle anyways. I'll try my best to get up, then! That means falling asleep in the speed of lightning.''\n\n``Don't strain yourself. If you manage, you manage, if not, we will schedule it to some other day.'' Leo actually managed a reassuring wink, then fist bumped Don, patted Don's shoulder once again reassuringly, he was also feeling some pride, as he not only managed to make sure Don was resting and scolded him accordingly, but also motivated his brother to actually look forward to the resting and not feeling like it was a pressuring must. After Leo made sure Don was settled in, he gently closed the door, then looked at the direction of Raph's room. He sighed, made some calculations in his mind, then rather went back to Mikey.\n\n``Changed my mind, we do this together today. Need to keep my little brother in shape before the other bites my head off.'' Leo actually managed another playful tone, this also seemed convenient, as a big eager grin appeared on Mikey's face.\n\n``Alright, let's get over it!'' Mikey stretched.\n\nAfter a little training session, Leo let Mikey off to eat and then play some videogames, since Mikey turned on the volume, Leo scolded him, but they agreed Mikey using headphones. After Leo made sure to greet their father and make sure the old rat was alright and was moving to watch television as had some series going on. Master Splinter was eagerly telling Leonardo the story of these series, his son listening with a patient smile, although he had no interest or clue what was happening with the romance and drama between those people playing some fictional story, which their father took so hilariously seriously. So after making sure the rest of the family was all cozy and safe and good, he finally went to confront Raphael.\n\nFirst he just knocked, then he knocked some more, then he knocked even more, knowing pretty well it was so annoying to the other, Raph could not resist not to answer the door instead.\n\n``Can ya ju-...'' Raph opened the door, then stared at Leo and was about to slam the door back with a firm. ``Nope!'' but Leo roughly pressed his leg against the door, blocking it to close.\n\n``No, sir.'' Leo said with an unintentional half grin. ``What do you think you're doing?!''\n\n``Slammin' the door on yer face?''\n\n``Raph....come on. You know why I'm here.''\n\n``To lecture me, of course.'' Raph rolled his eyes, then obliged and opened the door, stepped aside so Leo could enter. `` 'kay, let's get over it fast. I'm not in the mood...''\n\n``Actually no, not really.'' Leo said calmly, as he came in, fell surprised for a moment, Raph's scent everywhere, it was turning on some unwanted thoughts in him, even a slight heat, when he unintentionally stared at the hammock. He also just realized his heartbeats got faster and rougher. It was somehow a strange feeling to be closed up in there in Raph's room, with Raphael in it.\n\nHe glanced at Raphael, as he slowly walked in the room more, he was past the center at the other end of the room, he felt a strange excitement, but it all sank, when he was facing a kind of naked lady on a poster on the wall between the other posters about cars and what not.\n\n``So....this motivates you...?'' Leo asked on a kind of annoyed tone, as he was glaring at the woman's lustful eyes, he did not even want to register the naked breasts.\n\n``Like it?'' Raph actually managed a grin, amusement shifting from the irritation, impatience and confusion from before.\n\n``No-.....not sure. Maybe? So what if I do?'' Leo glanced at Raphael with an irritated glare. A strange feeling was heating up in him and it wasn't pleasant. It just gave negative thoughts. This was unusual, strange and foreign.\n\n``Oooh?'' Raphael said on a mocking tone, as he walked closer, then leaned against the wall, beside the woman poster. ``What would you do to her?''\n\n``Oh, you don't want to know....'' Leo could not control the awful negative feeling building up in him, so he managed a kind of snarling grin. It made him so angry, that just a mere poster of a half naked woman was probably, most likely, have Raphael's full attention. This was just crazy. Maybe he was crazy. Why would he, out of all mutants care what was his brother's preference?!\n\nLittle did Leo know how clueless he was about his jealousy and how Raph noticed and found it incredibly amusing and sexy, but little did both of them know how it was apparently a big turn on for Raphael to see such a vicious grin on his brother's face. Raph swallowed hard, he stared and hungrily savored the grin until it lasted, filing the memory between the most dearest ones, noting to self to remember that vicious, jealous grin at a jerk off.\n\n``How about you?'' Leo pointed at Raph with his head, as he looked at his brother with a strict glare. ``What would you do to her?''\n\nRaph's grin widened, then stood up, walked closer to Leo, he did not care the other was stepping back, trying to stay at a fair distance from him, Raph just invaded Leo's personal space, as he kept up with the steps, until Leo's shell bumped against the other wall, then cornered him there.\n\n``Dunno....maybe would start with a kiss to make her comfortable...'' he grumbled, as he reached a hand and grabbed and lifted Leo's chin, leaning in close. ``.....and then just....see what feels good fer both o' us...'' his grumbles got more and more slurred and he was leaning in for the kiss. This time he was determined to actually catch Leo's lips and not his nose.\n\nLeo felt suspicion, as Raph was towering over him, he knew this was a dangerous ``game'', he supposed to back off more, but then he was cornered. Not only he had no time to somehow forget the annoying foreign feeling in him and regain his calm composure, he was cornered, he felt heating up, his stomach tensed, as felt Raphael being so close again. He blanked out, he completely froze and before he could react as he supposed to, he just let it happen. This time it wasn't that messy, he was just letting the feeling come, feeling Raphael's hesitant lips pressing to his. A burst of heat was washing through him, spacing out, just basking in the pleasant feeling, actually feeling eager and safe, reaching out and grabbing the sides of Raphael's shell, roughly pulling him closer, their plastrons pressing together. This time he did not want it to stop, just wanted to make it last longer, even if Raphael was the one trying to pull away after a long moment. The frustration of wanting more and the heat and yet the panic of the fluttering feeling was becoming suffocating, but Leo could not stop and was just pushing boundaries, Raph's little muffled desperate groans fueling his eagerness even more. Eventually, finally Leo pulled away, he comfortably relaxed like that, absent-mindedly running a hand over Raph's plastron, as Raphael sank a bit in place, losing his strength for a moment, buried his face in Leo's neck, hands on the wall to somehow support himself, as his legs were giving in.\n\n``I'm sorry...'' Leo whispered, as he closed his eyes, a pained expression shifted through his face, he hesitantly embraced Raphael.\n\n``What fer...?'' Raphael grumbled back, as he turned his head in the side, facing Leo, resting his head on the other's shoulder, he embraced back.\n\n``I came to talk with you, not....'' Leo sighed.\n\n``So what, we're talkin'.''\n\n``This is not talking...''\n\n``It's a different kind of talking. It's good.''\n\n``It is wrong...''\n\nRaphael sighed, pulled away from Leo completely, as he turned away annoyed, brushing a hand through his face, he was walking around in his room, for a moment to calm his temper down and the heat in him, at this point having a kind of erection, still hoping Leo did not notice, then he went and sat on the hammock, placing his hand on his lap in a way so his hands and wrists hid his lower part.\n\n``Who said it's wrong...'' Raph frowned.\n\n``Common sense?'' Leo sighed, as he slid down, shell still against the wall, as he flopped down sitting, placing an elbow on his knee and one hand on his forehead, as he looked down wondering. He was actually panicking about the fact he was so calm again. He supposed to make a big fuss and scold Raphael and make them both regret everything. But he was just empty and calm.\n\n``Well fuck common sense.'' Raphael grumbled annoyed, as he looked away sulking.\n\n``Why is this happening, Raphael?'' Leo mumbled on a defeated, smooth tone.\n\n``How should I know?! It feels good, so what?!''\n\nThey stood like that in silence, Raphael feeling frustrated, impatiently waiting for Leo to say something. He was actually feeling terrified, not wanting to ever have a conversation or being confronted about his out-of-the-ordinary-attraction to Leonardo, especially not by Leonardo, but he had a vague feeling they were having that uncomfortable conversation right at that moment, at least that uncomfortable feeling was calming his erection.\n\n``Do you....do this with ...I don't know...Casey? Don and Mikey too?'' Leo glanced up at Raphael, beside his arm, that was covering most of his face, just one sharp eye fixated on Raphael.\n\nRaphael's eyes widened, he did not expect such question ever, nor even having such thought in his mind. He was so surprised he could not speak up for a long moment, eventually he bursted out in laughter. He haven't laughed so loud for a good while. Leo lowered his hand and glared at Raph with an embarrassed frown, as he felt his cheeks heating up.\n\n``Do I look like a hoe to ya?!'' Raph asked, as he finally settled down a bit.\n\nLeo frowned confused, feeling even more embarrassed.\n\n``What's what...'' even if he expected full on Raphael's obnoxious reaction, he still tried his luck to ask such a silly question. He tried to see things positively, at least he made Raphael laugh.\n\nRaphael bursted out in laughter again, laughing even more, almost rolling off of his hammock. He laughed so much he actually started coughing. Obviously this did not pass Mikey's radar of laughter, he instantly came, opened the door with a wide grin, curiously examining the situation, then jumped in the room, genuinely shocked.\n\n``What pills did you give him?'' he pointed at Raph, as he directed the question at Leo.\n\n``Leo does not know what hoe means!!!'' Raphael shouted before Leo could answer, then laughed further.\n\nMikey's eyes widened, then he burst out in laugh also.\n\n``Oh, dude, that's a bad word!''\n\nLeo felt blushing at this point, then rolled his eyes, getting up.\n\n``Oh please...'' he grumbled, as he smacked Mikey's nape and went out, then at his room, slumping on the bed sulking. He felt incredibly embarrassed and awkward, but at least he lifted Raphael's mood and was also socializing with Mikey now.\n\nLeo sighed, as he lay on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He then groaned and facepalmed, feeling rather embarrassed as how could he just get over a kiss like that again without a drama and why did he let all those emotions get to him so easily. Why was it that around Raphael, he could not control his emotions. Maybe it was Raph's vibe in general, but it did no good for the fearless leader's cold composure. And mainly, he made no progress again referring to his agreement with Raphael. He felt like he was not helping Raphael to bring balance in this family at all.\n\nThe rest of the day passed quickly, they ate pizza, putting some slices away for Donatello, Leo needing to guard it from Mikey, as he read on the kitchen and each time shooing Mikey away. Their father went off scavenging, so he needed to ``babysit'' his brothers. It was easy, as Raph and Mikey did some activities together, talking about music and sports and rap and what not or playing video games or wrestling or teasing each other.\n\nLeo did not notice, when Raphael snuck in the kitchen, just when he was finally in and they got silent again. Leo glanced up, instantly regretting, as he met with that smug, teasing, pleased grin on Raph's face. He frowned back, then glanced back at his book, pretending he was reading, yet he was rather focused on Raphael's movements. Raph walked to Leo, then sat down beside him on a chair.\n\n``A lil' reconciling hang out later tonight?'' He grumbled, as he playfully pushed Leo's shoulder with his, making the other tilt on his chair a little.\n\n``No.'' Leo said coldly.\n\n``What no?! Why no?! What happened to the ``we bring harmony to the family''?!''\n\n``Raph, you are too loud, and I think we had enough alone time together today. We should take a break and think about things a little, before we hang out again and actually sit down and seriously talk.''\n\nRaphael's good mood disappeared in seconds, he was utterly disappointed. He sighed annoyed, squirming in place in anger, then jumped up.\n\n``Fine. Whatever.'' He mumbled, as he stormed out the kitchen, right in his room, slamming the door.\n\nLeo sighed, smacking his face with the book. Just when things were going well...\n\n``Raph, I brought the....Raph? Where's Raph?'' Mikey's head popped up in the kitchen door.\n\n``Raph got tired and went to bed...'' Leonardo grumbled, now kind of feeling tired from so much emotional stimulation. ``You should too.'' He glared at Mikey.\n\n``Woah, dude, fine!'' Mikey saluted, then rushed off.\n\nLeo sighed, massaged his temple, but actually was determined to be the last who goes to bed the night, making sure everyone else was alright and safe. Master Splinter returning safely, Donatello going back to sleep, Mikey going to bed and Raphael hopefully also going to bed.\n\nAnd Leonardo...\n\n...well as much as he wished to fulfill his goal, he dozed off at the kitchen table.\n\n", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "After a good sleep, Leo woke up with a very calm mind. Even he couldn't understand why he was so calm. He was still pretty much aware what happened between him and Raphael. Yet he was so calm. His mind was so empty. He supposed to feel angry or shocked or frustrated or sad. Blaming himself, feeling guilty for what he just let to happen, blame himself, then blame Raphael, then just be a coward turtle hiding in his shell, the mind-shell he built up to be so thick and tough, that no one could reach behind it. None of those turmoils happened in him. No drama happened in his mind. He supposed to quickly cover all in his mind, fast, as if nothing happened and pretend clueless around Raph. He supposed to sit down, meditate and think about it more. He really wasn't kissing Raphael like a brother, nor having the brotherly feelings. Maybe he really was selfish. Maybe he was allowing himself way too much to be this way. Or maybe he didn't have the right emotions and mind to react accordingly to the situation. The hurricane was silent for now. He did not feel any emotional tiredness, nor any forceful feelings that would pressure him to close up, shut down emotionally and start rationalizing what is right and what is wrong, like a true good leader and mature big brother should do. He was eerily content.

And he lived with the present. With the Now. And the Now was good.

Leo prepared for the daily routines. He actually thought to offer for his brothers if they want to get a little wild and just go out with the truck. He made tea for their father, took it to the rat's room and then also made some for himself. He froze for a moment by reflex, as he felt someone else's presence. He somehow really wanted it to be Raph. It would be nice to see him as it's just the two of them and no one has to see. But as he turned, it was rather a completely exhausted Donatello.

``Good morning.'' Leo said on a plain tone and emotionless expression, as he examined the other turtle, then frowned. ``You did not sleep an inch, now did you?'' his voice sounded very strict and he actually got annoyed, as the tired brother flinched. He was right and he hated to be right about this. ``How many times do we need to talk about this over and over?! Why can't you just.....understand, out of all your family members, you supposed to understand the best why you need to rest!'' he started to scolding.

Donatello silently sat down to the table, he could not look at Leo's face, just staring at the table ashamed.

``Sorry...'' he mumbled silently.

Leo did not say any more words. He fell silent. Donatello hated that. It was cold and merciless. It did have the effect what Leo wanted. It did make the other feel awful and miserable in front of the fearless leader. At the beginning Donatello tried with clever excuses and sometimes managed to win the verbal fight with Leo, but after a time Leo did not even let him speak up anymore. He knew Leonardo was right and he wanted the best for him, but the punishment he needed to face was a bit too pressuring sometimes.

Leonardo made sure Donatello wasn't drinking coffee that morning, he did not say anything, just snatching the mug from the other, instead he gave him tea, then when the time came, as they gathered in the dojo, Leonardo spoke up with a frown.

``Thanked to your dearest genius brother, we will not have the morning training and we will not go out on a patrol. Mikey, Raph, you are free to spar, I will also accompany you, Donatello, you are dismissed and you will rest. `` his sharp glare gave no place for talking back.

Donatello sighed embarrassed. Mikey and Raph were staring at Leo, then at Don, then Raph back at Leo, while Mikey grinned and patted Don's shoulder.

''Awesome, dude, you should do this more often, so we skip training!''

''Mikey!'' Leo scolded, he somehow unintentionally dodged Raph's gaze.

Little did he know that irritated Raph to the core. Raph wasn't sleeping much either, but since he usually frowned a lot, it wasn't as visible as on Don. He was more grumpy this time, since he barely slept, then he couldn't sleep, because he couldn't make his mind rest, just thinking about Leo's lips and embrace and his sweet smiles, eventually a fast jerk off helped to rest, but then morning came fast and it was time to wake up again. He was very irritable and grumpy. He wanted to just rant about everything and everyone, be left alone, then wanted to be night and doing forbidden things with Leo. However, he had no idea how Leo felt. He made that annoying emotionless expression, the hard-to-read face. And then, on top of all that, he ignored Raph's gaze, yet Raph was seeking for a little comfort. Raph barely could hold his temper back, he gritted his teeth, he would so punch Leo at this point, then kiss him all over, that it just annoyed the very soul out of him. He was more than convinced Leo regretted everything yesterday and now their little sneak outs at nights were over, Raph getting closer to Leo was over, not to mention fantasies ever happening were completely over. All hope lost. All because Leo was an asshole, an egoistic brat, who was too perfect to everything and everyone.

``I'm off.'' Raph finally grunted, then he stormed out of the dojo, in his room.

The others looked after him surprised, then Leo sighed.

``Okay, now what's his problem...?'' he tiredly massaged his temple.

``Just the usual?'' Mikey shrugged. ``He seems upset. Did you had a fight again?'' Mikey tilted his head, looking at Leo with a curious, nosy grin.

``Just.....can you wait here, Mikey? I'll escort Don and ...check Raph and we will have a little training session, okay?''

Mikey groaned, folded his arms.

``Clock is ticking! Mikey's stomach is soon growling, so better hurry up, or ninja out!'' he said playfully.

Leo nodded, then waved at Don.

``I'm sorry...'' Donatello mumbled, as they walked at his room. ``I did not know I will cause this much of a hassle.''

``Don't worry about it. More important is for you to have a gooood rest. If you happen to wake up earlier, we could have a little drive around the streets.'' Leo grinned at Don reassuring, smoothening the tension between them.

Donatello's worried, tired expression shifted to a faint, eased up smile.

``That sounds cool. I made a few upgrades to the vehicle anyways. I'll try my best to get up, then! That means falling asleep in the speed of lightning.''

``Don't strain yourself. If you manage, you manage, if not, we will schedule it to some other day.'' Leo actually managed a reassuring wink, then fist bumped Don, patted Don's shoulder once again reassuringly, he was also feeling some pride, as he not only managed to make sure Don was resting and scolded him accordingly, but also motivated his brother to actually look forward to the resting and not feeling like it was a pressuring must. After Leo made sure Don was settled in, he gently closed the door, then looked at the direction of Raph's room. He sighed, made some calculations in his mind, then rather went back to Mikey.

``Changed my mind, we do this together today. Need to keep my little brother in shape before the other bites my head off.'' Leo actually managed another playful tone, this also seemed convenient, as a big eager grin appeared on Mikey's face.

``Alright, let's get over it!'' Mikey stretched.

After a little training session, Leo let Mikey off to eat and then play some videogames, since Mikey turned on the volume, Leo scolded him, but they agreed Mikey using headphones. After Leo made sure to greet their father and make sure the old rat was alright and was moving to watch television as had some series going on. Master Splinter was eagerly telling Leonardo the story of these series, his son listening with a patient smile, although he had no interest or clue what was happening with the romance and drama between those people playing some fictional story, which their father took so hilariously seriously. So after making sure the rest of the family was all cozy and safe and good, he finally went to confront Raphael.

First he just knocked, then he knocked some more, then he knocked even more, knowing pretty well it was so annoying to the other, Raph could not resist not to answer the door instead.

``Can ya ju-...'' Raph opened the door, then stared at Leo and was about to slam the door back with a firm. ``Nope!'' but Leo roughly pressed his leg against the door, blocking it to close.

``No, sir.'' Leo said with an unintentional half grin. ``What do you think you're doing?!''

``Slammin' the door on yer face?''

``Raph....come on. You know why I'm here.''

``To lecture me, of course.'' Raph rolled his eyes, then obliged and opened the door, stepped aside so Leo could enter. `` 'kay, let's get over it fast. I'm not in the mood...''

``Actually no, not really.'' Leo said calmly, as he came in, fell surprised for a moment, Raph's scent everywhere, it was turning on some unwanted thoughts in him, even a slight heat, when he unintentionally stared at the hammock. He also just realized his heartbeats got faster and rougher. It was somehow a strange feeling to be closed up in there in Raph's room, with Raphael in it.

He glanced at Raphael, as he slowly walked in the room more, he was past the center at the other end of the room, he felt a strange excitement, but it all sank, when he was facing a kind of naked lady on a poster on the wall between the other posters about cars and what not.

``So....this motivates you...?'' Leo asked on a kind of annoyed tone, as he was glaring at the woman's lustful eyes, he did not even want to register the naked breasts.

``Like it?'' Raph actually managed a grin, amusement shifting from the irritation, impatience and confusion from before.

``No-.....not sure. Maybe? So what if I do?'' Leo glanced at Raphael with an irritated glare. A strange feeling was heating up in him and it wasn't pleasant. It just gave negative thoughts. This was unusual, strange and foreign.

``Oooh?'' Raphael said on a mocking tone, as he walked closer, then leaned against the wall, beside the woman poster. ``What would you do to her?''

``Oh, you don't want to know....'' Leo could not control the awful negative feeling building up in him, so he managed a kind of snarling grin. It made him so angry, that just a mere poster of a half naked woman was probably, most likely, have Raphael's full attention. This was just crazy. Maybe he was crazy. Why would he, out of all mutants care what was his brother's preference?!

Little did Leo know how clueless he was about his jealousy and how Raph noticed and found it incredibly amusing and sexy, but little did both of them know how it was apparently a big turn on for Raphael to see such a vicious grin on his brother's face. Raph swallowed hard, he stared and hungrily savored the grin until it lasted, filing the memory between the most dearest ones, noting to self to remember that vicious, jealous grin at a jerk off.

``How about you?'' Leo pointed at Raph with his head, as he looked at his brother with a strict glare. ``What would you do to her?''

Raph's grin widened, then stood up, walked closer to Leo, he did not care the other was stepping back, trying to stay at a fair distance from him, Raph just invaded Leo's personal space, as he kept up with the steps, until Leo's shell bumped against the other wall, then cornered him there.

``Dunno....maybe would start with a kiss to make her comfortable...'' he grumbled, as he reached a hand and grabbed and lifted Leo's chin, leaning in close. ``.....and then just....see what feels good fer both o' us...'' his grumbles got more and more slurred and he was leaning in for the kiss. This time he was determined to actually catch Leo's lips and not his nose.

Leo felt suspicion, as Raph was towering over him, he knew this was a dangerous ``game'', he supposed to back off more, but then he was cornered. Not only he had no time to somehow forget the annoying foreign feeling in him and regain his calm composure, he was cornered, he felt heating up, his stomach tensed, as felt Raphael being so close again.  He blanked out, he completely froze and before he could react as he supposed to, he just let it happen. This time it wasn't that messy, he was just letting the feeling come, feeling Raphael's hesitant lips pressing to his. A burst of heat was washing through him, spacing out, just basking in the pleasant feeling, actually feeling eager and safe, reaching out and grabbing the sides of Raphael's shell, roughly pulling him closer, their plastrons pressing together. This time he did not want it to stop, just wanted to make it last longer, even if Raphael was the one trying to pull away after a long moment. The frustration of wanting more and the heat and yet the panic of the fluttering feeling was becoming suffocating, but Leo could not stop and was just pushing boundaries, Raph's little muffled desperate groans fueling his eagerness even more. Eventually, finally Leo pulled away, he comfortably relaxed like that, absent-mindedly running a hand over Raph's plastron, as Raphael sank a bit in place, losing his strength for a moment, buried his face in Leo's neck, hands on the wall to somehow support himself, as his legs were giving in.

``I'm sorry...'' Leo whispered, as he closed his eyes, a pained expression shifted through his face, he hesitantly embraced Raphael.

``What fer...?'' Raphael grumbled back, as he turned his head in the side, facing Leo, resting his head on the other's shoulder, he embraced back.

``I came to talk with you, not....'' Leo sighed.

``So what, we're talkin'.''

``This is not talking...''

``It's a different kind of talking. It's good.''

``It is wrong...''

Raphael sighed, pulled away from Leo completely, as he turned away annoyed, brushing a hand through his face, he was walking around in his room, for a moment to calm his temper down and the heat in him, at this point having a kind of erection, still hoping Leo did not notice, then he went and sat on the hammock, placing his hand on his lap in a way so his hands and wrists hid his lower part.

``Who said it's wrong...'' Raph frowned.

``Common sense?'' Leo sighed, as he slid down, shell still against the wall, as he flopped down sitting, placing an elbow on his knee and one hand on his forehead, as he looked down wondering. He was actually panicking about the fact he was so calm again. He supposed to make a big fuss and scold Raphael and make them both regret everything. But he was just empty and calm.

``Well fuck common sense.'' Raphael grumbled annoyed, as he looked away sulking.

``Why is this happening, Raphael?'' Leo mumbled on a defeated, smooth tone.

``How should I know?! It feels good, so what?!''

They stood like that in silence, Raphael feeling frustrated, impatiently waiting for Leo to say something. He was actually feeling terrified, not wanting to ever have a conversation or being confronted about his out-of-the-ordinary-attraction to Leonardo, especially not by Leonardo, but he had a vague feeling they were having that uncomfortable conversation right at that moment, at least that uncomfortable feeling was calming his erection.

``Do you....do this with ...I don't know...Casey? Don and Mikey too?'' Leo glanced up at Raphael, beside his arm, that was covering most of his face, just one sharp eye fixated on Raphael.

Raphael's eyes widened, he did not expect such question ever, nor even having such thought in his mind. He was so surprised he could not speak up for a long moment, eventually he bursted out in laughter. He haven't laughed so loud for a good while. Leo lowered his hand and glared at Raph with an embarrassed frown, as he felt his cheeks heating up.

``Do I look like a hoe to ya?!'' Raph asked, as he finally settled down a bit.

Leo frowned confused, feeling even more embarrassed.

``What's what...'' even if he expected full on Raphael's obnoxious reaction, he still tried his luck to ask such a silly question. He tried to see things positively, at least he made Raphael laugh.

Raphael bursted out in laughter again, laughing even more, almost rolling off of his hammock. He laughed so much he actually started coughing. Obviously this did not pass Mikey's radar of laughter, he instantly came, opened the door with a wide grin, curiously examining the situation, then jumped in the room, genuinely shocked.

``What pills did you give him?'' he pointed at Raph, as he directed the question at Leo.

``Leo does not know what hoe means!!!'' Raphael shouted before Leo could answer, then laughed further.

Mikey's eyes widened, then he burst out in laugh also.

``Oh, dude, that's a bad word!''

Leo felt blushing at this point, then rolled his eyes, getting up.

``Oh please...'' he grumbled, as he smacked Mikey's nape and went out, then at his room, slumping on the bed sulking. He felt incredibly embarrassed and awkward, but at least he lifted Raphael's mood and was also socializing with Mikey now.

Leo sighed, as he lay on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He then groaned and facepalmed, feeling rather embarrassed as how could he just get over a kiss like that again without a drama and why did he let all those emotions get to him so easily. Why was it that around Raphael, he could not control his emotions. Maybe it was Raph's vibe in general, but it did no good for the fearless leader's cold composure. And mainly, he made no progress again referring to his agreement with Raphael. He felt like he was not helping Raphael to bring balance in this family at all.

The rest of the day passed quickly, they ate pizza, putting some slices away for Donatello, Leo needing to guard it from Mikey, as he read on the kitchen and each time shooing Mikey away. Their father went off scavenging, so he needed to ``babysit'' his brothers. It was easy, as Raph and Mikey did some activities together, talking about music and sports and rap and what not or playing video games or wrestling or teasing each other.

Leo did not notice, when Raphael snuck in the kitchen, just when he was finally in and they got silent again. Leo glanced up, instantly regretting, as he met with that smug, teasing, pleased grin on Raph's face. He frowned back, then glanced back at his book, pretending he was reading, yet he was rather focused on Raphael's movements. Raph walked to Leo, then sat down beside him on a chair.

``A lil' reconciling hang out later tonight?'' He grumbled, as he playfully pushed Leo's shoulder with his, making the other tilt on his chair a little.

``No.'' Leo said coldly.

``What no?! Why no?! What happened to the ``we bring harmony to the family''?!''

``Raph, you are too loud, and I think we had enough alone time together today. We should take a break and think about things a little, before we hang out again and actually sit down and seriously talk.''

Raphael's good mood disappeared in seconds, he was utterly disappointed. He sighed annoyed, squirming in place in anger, then jumped up.

``Fine. Whatever.'' He mumbled, as he stormed out the kitchen, right in his room, slamming the door.

Leo sighed, smacking his face with the book. Just when things were going well...

``Raph, I brought the....Raph? Where's Raph?'' Mikey's head popped up in the kitchen door.

``Raph got tired and went to bed...'' Leonardo grumbled, now kind of feeling tired from so much emotional stimulation. ``You should too.'' He glared at Mikey.

``Woah, dude, fine!'' Mikey saluted, then rushed off.

Leo sighed, massaged his temple, but actually was determined to be the last who goes to bed the night, making sure everyone else was alright and safe. Master Splinter returning safely, Donatello going back to sleep, Mikey going to bed and Raphael hopefully also going to bed.

And Leonardo...

...well as much as he wished to fulfill his goal, he dozed off at the kitchen table.

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