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The past week was horrible and pain inducing. He still could not believe how easy it was for Raphael to keep up the silent treatment between them for so long. Both of them expected the other to just go there and apologize. In Leo?s case, the ideal action would be if Raphael initiated a talk between the two of them. Apparently Raph just didn?t care or didn?t even bother to say anything to Leo, rather just glare at him and grunt at him or turn his head away when felt like Leonardo wanted to tell him something. This torment was affecting the rest of the family. Leonardo felt too uncertain to consult with their father, he just kept telling the other two brothers and their father, that they should all be more patient with Raphael and that he has time to wait for the apology Raphael owes him, although never actually told the background story of their argument. Also since their argument, Leonardo quit his morning lair patrol, although he enjoyed it. He still kept up his responsibilities.\n\n Leo sighed. At least....this argument made him forget a bit about his feelings. He bottled them up as deep as he could. Then why did he still feel pain and frustration and restlessness? He supposed to feel the best as he could feel. Sometimes one needs to be strict, but why was it hurting him, when that was the right thing to do? Why was it so painful to not consider those exploratory feelings? Those feelings are bad and they should have dissolved already. Just thinking about them as he was sitting in his room meditating after their evening training on Sunday, made him even more frustrated. He eventually got up, feeling the meditation being useless. Decided to get some water and take a shower. As he walked out, he glanced around, his gaze catching his three brothers sitting on the main area chatting, eating some leftover pizza from lunch. He wanted to go there, but Raphael was there and he knew if he goes there he will ruin the mood, so he headed directly at the kitchen.\n\n\"Hey! Leo! Come here, bro!\" of course Mikey needed to notice him.\n\nLeo tried to pretend he was so deep in his thoughts he didn?t notice, but then he paused.\n\n\"What is it, Mikey?\" he asked, but he didn?t approach them. He looked past Raphael as if he was non-existent, although it was difficult.\n\n\"Well, we just thought you could come here and chill out? Have you heard about the scores from the last match? We totally missed to attend to it.\" Donatello also spoke up with a smile and pushed up his glasses. It was seldom for Don to also just sit there doing nothing. He was always fumbling or tinkering with something.\n\n\"Yeah, thanked to your drama...\" Mikey made a face at Raph and Leo.\n\nRaphael glared at Mikey, it was unusual for him to stay so silent.\n\n\"Leo?\"\n\nLeonardo sighed. It was time to toughen up. This couldn?t go forever.\n\n\"Fine.\" he mumbled, giving in, then went, took the glass of water he needed, then went and sat beside his brothers, beside Donatello, trying to face away from Raphael as much as possible, but they were kind of facing each other in the little circle. Leonardo kept his calm and coldly ignoring his presence, although inside he barely could swallow up the strange warm feeling. He would clearly feel Raph?s gaze on him, but he focused on everything else, but not him. They supposed to be angry? He supposed to be angry, but he felt the opposite. He was curious about Raphael, but he was afraid to look at him. He didn?t want to see anger on his face and definitely not hate or disgust.\n\nAs he sat down, they all went silent, until Mikey started rapping around on a silly way.\n\n\"So what?s up?\" he leaned in Leo?s face, who blinked back with his own pair of blue eyes into the other one?s.\n\n\"Uh....I supposed to ask that?\"\n\n\"We thought you finally found your life goal and decided to become a hermit. A room hermit.\" Mikey continued without expecting too much of an answer. \"I mean....aren?t you too young for that still? Also that supposed to be Raph?s life goal.\"\n\nDon chuckled, Raphael just rolled his eyes.\n\n\"You never know. But then I was considering the fact that I will need to give up on being the leader and wondered who could step up, but then I realized I?d prefer to keep my current role.\"\n\n\"Well obviously I?d be the next leader, duuuh.\" Mikey pointed at himself.\n\n\"If you?re the next leader we all get fat from eating too much pizza, no training and glued on the screen playing.\" Raphael grumbled with a teasing grin.\n\n\"Well, you?re already fat, so-...OW!\" Mikey teased back, but ended up getting a big slap on his nape.\n\n\"Well built muscle is not considered chub, Mikey.\" Donatello pushed up his glasses.\n\nLeonardo smiled at them, but felt like sweating, when felt Raph?s gaze returning on him, he just calmly stared at the water in his hand and listened to his brothers silly talks.\n\n\"Yeah, tell ?im, Don.\" Raphael encouraged, but he wa rather looking at Leonardo, clearly wanting to make eyecontact, but received none. The more time passed, the more he was getting angrier and impatient. Leonardo was driving him mad every second, tension building up. It annoyed him to the core how the other ignored him. Although he held grudges the longest and the most and had a bad temper, he still got over their argument long ago, what annoyed him is how he was ignored and rejected in every minute and did not think he made such a bad mistake for Leo to lock up from him like that. Leonardo was eerily silent and distant from them as years passed by. It really annoyed him. In his mind perhaps Leonardo was overly narcissistic and egoistic. He was perfect, he was getting handsome, he was everything that was the concept of perfection. It was just purely annoying. Due to their last little argument, Raphael completely assumed he is totally right and Leonardo is sensitive at everything, since he?s so full of himself. Raphael making only a small mistake that he apologized for right then and there, now he needs to face the cruelest of conscequinces of making that perfect Adonis? ego hurt, by being ignored, feeling small and worthless against that fearless leader.Raphael grunted annoyed, clenching his fists.\n\n\"Leo.\" Raphael grunted on a low tone. He could not stand anymore. If Leo?s not looking at him, he?s gonna punch him so bad.\n\nDon and Mikey stopped thei chat and blinked at Raphael.\n\n\"Oh shell...\" Mikey mumbled.\n\nLeo swallowed hard, a little frown appearing on his face, stared down, clenched his glass of water tighter.\n\n\"Leo!\" Raphael?s voice got louder and rougher.\n\n\"Yes, Raphael.\" Leonardo mumbld, his voice sounded unimpressed and cold, yet calm and patient.\n\n\"Just look....the fuck...at me!\" Raphael demanded, inching closer in front of the other with an impatient snarl.\n\nLeonardo felt tensing up by reflex, he was prepared to be hit. He kept toughening himself up as fast as he could to keep his composure and face Raphael already. He managed in time, he finally lifted his gaze up at Raphael, before getting the prepared punch. He did not say anything, just stand Raphael?s sharp gaze. He falt nausea hitting his tensed stomach, his whole body felt numb, as he stared in those eyes, being so close up to him. He was mentally begging Raphael to just get over it and punch him already and end this before he....\n\n....but then they came...\n\n....those thoughts, they cracked the barriers open and poured out, washing over his mind, making his body heat up, cheeks feeling like burning up, mentally and physically feeling numb.\n\n....he blinked, slight puzzled panic flowing through his body...\n\nEvery moment his heart was beating faster, feeling like he can?t breathe, that there?s not enough air, since Raphael was stealing away from him.\n\n\"M-mh?\" he couldn?t even mutter a word out.\n\nRaphael?s anger was subsiding, as he just stared at Leo rather curiously, his gaze curiously observing the changes on the leader?s face. There was something....endearing about that face. So helpless, so clueless. It was confusing. Wait, was he blushing...?\n\n\"What...\" Raphael grunted, leaning a bit closer, as if a magnetic force was pulling him at Leo.\n\n\"Are you guys finally making up?\" Mikey asked as he leaned in at them on the side, glancing at Leo then at Raph with a big wide grin.\n\n\"I dunno, ask the fearless.\" Raphael said, returning to his usual sarcastic tone, leaning back, away from Leo?s personal space.\n\n\"Later.\" Leonardo mumbled, trying his best to regain his composure and just have an internal scream of relief.\"I?ve been meaning to ask you guys, have you heard about any events lately?\"\n\n\"Nope, everything?s fine! For now.\" Mikey reported.\n\n\"Well I?ve been checking the reports, but there are world problems, that take care of their own selves or being taken care of and they don?t need us every time. We?re just mutants, Leo, not superheros.\" Donatello also explained, Raphael just shrugged.\n\n\"Awww, maaaaan, we could be amazing superturtles! Our superpower is ninjutsu and our weakness is pizza and we could have epic superhero costumes and names, like...\" Mikey snorted.\"Raph would be Mr. Cuddles!\" he bursted out laughing, then got another smack.\n\n\"Yeah, and what about you, Twinkletoes?\" Raphael teased back, then kept pushing Mikey around until they started wrestling playfully.\n\n\"Ugh, your fatass is crushing me!\"\n\n\"Since when is my arm my ass?\" Raphael grinned as ke firmly kept mikey in a headlock, indeed Mikey getting lost in those muscles.\n\n\"Everything?s arlight?\" Don asked Leo with a smile.\n\nThe other nodded. Of course nothing was fine, but none of them needed to know he was troubled. Especially not the source of his issues, Raphael.\n\nDonatello didn?t push it further, he just filed away the faked answer, then just laughed at his two brothers goofing around.\n\n \n\n \n\nLater Donatello retreated to his lab to finish some of his projects and Mikey got tired, so he went to sleep, before all those, they all went and said goodnight to Master Splinter, who was reading in his room. Leonardo looked at his empty glass. It was actually nice finally being with his brothers and even attempt a little laugh. He smiled for himself absent-mindedly, but then his grin faded in a grimace as his gaze met with Raph?s, so was casually sitting and playing with the end of his red bandana, staring at Leo. Leonardo tensed up again, clearing his throat, glancing away.\n\n\"I did not tell ?em.\" Raphael finally spoke up.\n\n\"Tell what?\" Leonardo asked, but did not look at his brother.\n\n\"That ya check us.\"\n\n\"What?!\"\n\n\"I figured out. I?ve been wonderin? a lot, but it made no sense why ya?d come to my room that early only to ask how I was. Don once mentioned he better goes to sleep fast before you catch him staying up late. So I figured ya do the same to them. I?d call ya a creep, but that?s your business. As ya said, it?s being nice, so I did not tell ?em anythin?. Thought ya want to keep it to yerself just like yer lil? cookin? habit.\"\n\n\"Excuse me?!\"\n\n\"What? Ya thought yer the only creep around?\" Raph grinned teasingly.\n\nLeonardo felt like burning up again. So all this time Raphael knew.\n\n\"But ya know what? One thing I need ta ask from ya, big brother.\" Raphael leaned in with a threatening snarl. \"What I can also see is how full you are of yerself. Oh, the big fearless, the perfect, the almighty. We get it, ?kay? Ya don?t need ta shine that egoistic smug face of yours in ours every fuckin? day, we get it that yer all hot n? perfect. So all I?m askin? here is, that ye tone it down a little. Do ya think ye can do it?\"\n\nLeonardo fell speechless with widened eyes. Hot...? Perfect....? Egoistic? What was Raphael talking about?! Leo sighed. Yet here he was thinking Raphael knew him better than himself.Completely misunderstood. He still could not blame Raphael.\n\n\"Raphael, I think you?re misunderstanding...\"\n\n\"Oh don?t start yer lectures!\"\n\n\"I am not lecturing, just listen! ......Please....\"\n\n\"Oh, wow, ya okay? Havin? a fever or somethin?, ya might visit Don.....I mean...\"please\"?! Don?t hear that from ya much!\"\n\n\"Raphael, just....let?s stop this, okay? I don?t want to end up like last time.\"\n\n\"Then what do ya suggest, Oh Big Leader?\"\n\nLeonardo stayed silent for a long moment, considering what was right to do.\n\n\"I....think we misunderstand each other and due to this fact, we are arguing a lot. I believe we should fix this somehow, because it is affecting the rest of our family. We can?t and should not cause discomfort among us. We are a family and we?ve ben through a lot together already. We are also a team, we need to keep each other together, not falling apart, because we have miscommunication.\" Leonardo finally spoke up on a mature, calm tone.\n\n\"Okay, still not getting what yer implyin?.\"\n\nWell Leonardo wasn?t sure where was this going either.\n\n\"Well...uhm....\" he bit his lower lip trying to find a solution. \"Well I shouldn?t be the only one figuring this out, this should be a mutual effort. How about....tomorrow we will think what you and me think we should do or what are we expecting from each other or....I don?t know...what could we do together to bring some harmony in this family? Your thoughts are needed.\" Leo made a faint smile.\n\n\"I don?t need a day to figure shit out. I told ya already. Tone down your ego and we?ll be fine.\"\n\nLeo sighed. This was harder than he thought.\n\n\"Do you think this helps? I don?t think so. You need to try harder, Raph.\"\n\nRaphael groaned annoyed.\n\n\"I don?t get what you want from me!\"\n\n\"I don?t want any more and any less than you to think what the two of us should do in the future.\"\n\n\"Just...the two of us?\" Raphael asked on a suspicious tone.\"Just...us?\"\n\n\"Well....yes?\" Leonardo asked uncertain what was Raphael implying, he got even more puzzled, when he saw Raphael looking away with a stirred up expression. \"Raphael...? I don?t understand what is the problem with this? We are....two brothers that misunderstand each other and are old enough to contribute for the family for the better..?\"\n\nRaphael fell silent, tensing up, not looking at Leo.He did not want to do anything with Just Leo in the context. It was strange, it should not happen, especially because Leonardo?s words flipped in his mind on a secondary understanding that was not appropriate. It was not new for anyone, that he sometimes did have pervy jokes, but this time the little sparking urges were popping up in him again and the stupid images he made up, forgetting his anger and competitiveness that covered anything else in his mind about Leo and definitely wasn?t funny. After past random fantasies he was just thinking about, for fun, as he was slipping through pages of a porn magazines, getting naturally riled up and horny,after consuming too much of those, some word formations automatically converted into something perverted in his mind, that combined with his frustrations about Leo did no good.\n\n\"Raph...?\" Leonardo asked uncertain as he approached his brother.\n\nRaphael jumped up before Leo?s reached out hand touched him.\n\n\"Sometimes I don?t see ya as a brother!\" Raph blurted out rashly, then rushed in his room.\n\nLeonardo froze in place, staring after Raphael with a pale face until the slammed door hid his brother?s form away from his gaze. A rush of panic flooded his mind and frustrated confusion.\n\n\"What....?\" he mumbled weakly to himself.\n\n", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "     A whole week have passed and Leonardo barely could keep himself together. The past week was horrible and pain inducing. He still could not believe how easy it was for Raphael to keep up the silent treatment between them for so long. Both of them expected the other to just go there and apologize. In Leo?s case, the ideal action would be if Raphael initiated a talk between the two of them. Apparently Raph just didn?t care or didn?t even bother to say anything to Leo, rather just glare at him and grunt at him or turn his head away when felt like Leonardo wanted to tell him something. This torment was affecting the rest of the family. Leonardo felt too uncertain to consult with their father, he just kept telling the other two brothers and their father, that they should all be more patient with Raphael and that he has time to wait for the apology Raphael owes him, although never actually told the background story of their argument. Also since their argument, Leonardo quit his morning lair patrol, although he enjoyed it. He still kept up his responsibilities.

        Leo sighed. At least....this argument made him forget a bit about his feelings. He bottled them up as deep as he could. Then why did he still feel pain and frustration and restlessness? He supposed to feel the best as he could feel. Sometimes one needs to be strict, but why was it hurting him, when that was the right thing to do? Why was it so painful to not consider those exploratory feelings? Those feelings are bad and they should have dissolved already. Just thinking about them as he was sitting in his room meditating after their evening training on Sunday, made him even more frustrated. He eventually got up, feeling the meditation being useless. Decided to get some water and take a shower. As he walked out, he glanced around, his gaze catching his three brothers sitting on the main area chatting, eating some leftover pizza from lunch. He wanted to go there, but Raphael was there and he knew if he goes there he will ruin the mood, so he headed directly at the kitchen.

"Hey! Leo! Come here, bro!" of course Mikey needed to notice him.

Leo tried to pretend he was so deep in his thoughts he didn?t notice, but then he paused.

"What is it, Mikey?" he asked, but he didn?t approach them. He looked past Raphael as if he was non-existent, although it was difficult.

"Well, we just thought you could come here and chill out? Have you heard about the scores from the last match? We totally missed to attend to it." Donatello also spoke up with a smile and pushed up his glasses. It was seldom for Don to also just sit there doing nothing. He was always fumbling or tinkering with something.

"Yeah, thanked to your drama..." Mikey made a face at Raph and Leo.

Raphael glared at Mikey, it was unusual for him to stay so silent.

"Leo?"

Leonardo sighed. It was time to toughen up. This couldn?t go forever.

"Fine." he mumbled, giving in, then went, took the glass of water he needed, then went and sat beside his brothers, beside Donatello, trying to face away from Raphael as much as possible, but they were kind of facing each other in the little circle. Leonardo kept his calm and coldly ignoring his presence, although inside he barely could swallow up the strange warm feeling. He would clearly feel Raph?s gaze on him, but he focused on everything else, but not him. They supposed to be angry? He supposed to be angry, but he felt the opposite. He was curious about Raphael, but he was afraid to look at him. He didn?t want to see anger on his face and definitely not hate or disgust.

As he sat down, they all went silent, until Mikey started rapping around on a silly way.

"So what?s up?" he leaned in Leo?s face, who blinked back with his own pair of blue eyes into the other one?s.

"Uh....I supposed to ask that?"

"We thought you finally found your life goal and decided to become a hermit.  A room hermit." Mikey continued without expecting too much of an answer. "I mean....aren?t you too young for that still? Also that supposed to be Raph?s life goal."

Don chuckled, Raphael just rolled his eyes.

"You never know. But then I was considering the fact that I will need to give up on being the leader and wondered who could step up, but then I realized I?d prefer to keep my current role."

"Well obviously I?d be the next leader, duuuh." Mikey pointed at himself.

"If you?re the next leader we all get fat from eating too much pizza, no training and glued on the screen playing." Raphael grumbled with a teasing grin.

"Well, you?re already fat, so-...OW!" Mikey teased back, but ended up getting a big slap on his nape.

"Well built muscle is not considered chub, Mikey." Donatello pushed up his glasses.

Leonardo smiled at them, but felt like sweating, when felt Raph?s gaze returning on him, he just calmly stared at the water in his hand and listened to his brothers silly talks.

"Yeah, tell ?im, Don." Raphael encouraged, but he wa rather looking at Leonardo, clearly wanting to make eyecontact, but received none. The more time passed, the more he was getting angrier and impatient. Leonardo was driving him mad every second, tension building up. It annoyed him to the core how the other ignored him. Although he held grudges  the longest and the most and had a bad temper, he still got over their argument long ago, what annoyed him is how he was ignored and rejected in every minute and did not think he made such a bad mistake for Leo to lock up from him like that. Leonardo was eerily silent and distant from them as years passed by. It really annoyed him. In his mind perhaps Leonardo was overly narcissistic and egoistic. He was perfect, he was getting handsome, he was everything that was the concept of perfection. It was just purely annoying. Due to their last little argument, Raphael completely assumed he is totally right and Leonardo is sensitive at everything, since he?s so full of himself. Raphael making only a small mistake that he apologized for right then and there, now he needs to face the cruelest of conscequinces of making that perfect Adonis? ego hurt, by being ignored, feeling small and worthless against that fearless leader.Raphael grunted annoyed, clenching his fists.

"Leo." Raphael grunted on a low tone. He could not stand anymore. If Leo?s not looking at him, he?s gonna punch him so bad.

Don and Mikey stopped thei chat and blinked at Raphael.

"Oh shell..." Mikey mumbled.

Leo swallowed hard, a little frown appearing on his face, stared down, clenched his glass of water tighter.

"Leo!" Raphael?s voice got louder and rougher.

"Yes, Raphael." Leonardo mumbld, his voice sounded unimpressed and cold, yet calm and patient.

"Just look....the fuck...at me!" Raphael demanded, inching closer in front of the other with an impatient snarl.

Leonardo felt tensing up by reflex, he was prepared to be hit. He kept toughening himself up as fast as he could to keep his composure and face Raphael already. He managed in time, he finally lifted his gaze up at Raphael, before getting the prepared punch. He did not say anything, just stand Raphael?s sharp gaze. He falt nausea hitting his tensed stomach, his whole body felt numb, as he stared in those eyes, being so close up to him. He was mentally begging Raphael to just get over it and punch him already and end this before he....

....but then they came...

....those thoughts, they cracked the barriers open and poured out, washing over his mind, making his body heat up, cheeks feeling like burning up, mentally and physically feeling numb.

....he blinked, slight puzzled panic flowing through his body...

Every moment his heart was beating faster, feeling like he can?t breathe, that there?s not enough air, since Raphael was stealing away from him.

"M-mh?" he couldn?t even mutter a word out.

Raphael?s anger was subsiding, as he just stared at Leo rather curiously, his gaze curiously observing the changes on the leader?s face. There was something....endearing about that face. So helpless, so clueless. It was confusing. Wait, was he blushing...?

"What..." Raphael grunted, leaning a bit closer, as if a magnetic force was pulling him at Leo.

"Are you guys finally making up?" Mikey asked as he leaned in at them on the side, glancing at Leo then at Raph with a big wide grin.

"I dunno, ask the fearless." Raphael said, returning to his usual sarcastic tone, leaning back, away from Leo?s personal space.

"Later." Leonardo mumbled, trying his best to regain his composure and just have an internal scream of relief."I?ve been meaning to ask you guys, have you heard about any events lately?"

"Nope, everything?s fine! For now." Mikey reported.

"Well I?ve been checking the reports, but there are world problems, that take care of their own selves or being taken care of and they don?t need us every time. We?re just mutants, Leo, not superheros." Donatello also explained, Raphael just shrugged.

"Awww, maaaaan, we could be amazing superturtles! Our superpower is ninjutsu and our weakness is pizza and we could have epic superhero costumes and names, like..." Mikey snorted."Raph would be Mr. Cuddles!" he bursted out laughing, then got another smack.

"Yeah, and what about you, Twinkletoes?" Raphael teased back, then kept pushing Mikey around until they started wrestling playfully.

"Ugh, your fatass is crushing me!"

"Since when is my arm my ass?" Raphael grinned as ke firmly kept mikey in a headlock, indeed Mikey getting lost in those muscles.

"Everything?s arlight?" Don asked Leo with a smile.

The other nodded. Of course nothing was fine, but none of them needed to know he was troubled. Especially not the source of his issues, Raphael.

Donatello didn?t push it further, he just filed away the faked answer, then just laughed at his two brothers goofing around.

 

 

Later Donatello retreated to his lab to finish some of his projects and Mikey got tired, so he went to sleep, before all those, they all went and said goodnight to Master Splinter, who was reading in his room. Leonardo looked at his empty glass. It was actually nice finally being with his brothers and even attempt a little laugh. He smiled for himself absent-mindedly, but then his grin faded in a grimace as his gaze met with Raph?s, so was casually sitting and playing with the end of his red bandana, staring at Leo. Leonardo tensed up again, clearing his throat, glancing away.

"I did not tell ?em." Raphael finally spoke up.

"Tell what?" Leonardo asked, but did not look at his brother.

"That ya check us."

"What?!"

"I figured out. I?ve been wonderin? a lot, but it made no sense why ya?d come to my room that early only to ask how I was. Don once mentioned he better goes to sleep fast before you catch him staying up late. So I figured ya do the same to them. I?d call ya a creep, but that?s your business. As ya said, it?s being nice, so I did not tell ?em anythin?. Thought ya want to keep it to yerself just like yer lil? cookin? habit."

"Excuse me?!"

"What? Ya thought yer the only creep around?" Raph grinned teasingly.

Leonardo felt like burning up again. So all this time Raphael knew.

"But ya know what? One thing I need ta ask from ya, big brother." Raphael leaned in with a threatening snarl. "What I can also see is how full you are of yerself. Oh, the big fearless, the perfect, the almighty. We get it, ?kay? Ya don?t need ta shine that egoistic smug face of yours in ours every fuckin? day, we get it that yer all hot n? perfect. So all I?m askin? here is, that ye tone it down a little. Do ya think ye can do it?"

Leonardo fell speechless with widened eyes. Hot...? Perfect....? Egoistic? What was Raphael talking about?! Leo sighed. Yet here he was thinking Raphael knew him better than himself.Completely misunderstood. He still could not blame Raphael.

"Raphael, I think you?re misunderstanding..."

"Oh don?t start yer lectures!"

"I am not lecturing, just listen! ......Please...."

"Oh, wow, ya okay? Havin? a fever or somethin?, ya might visit Don.....I mean..."please"?! Don?t hear that from ya much!"

"Raphael, just....let?s stop this, okay? I don?t want to end up like last time."

"Then what do ya suggest, Oh Big Leader?"

Leonardo stayed silent for a long moment, considering what was right to do.

"I....think we misunderstand each other and due to this fact, we are arguing a lot. I believe we should fix this somehow, because it is affecting the rest of our family. We can?t and should not cause discomfort among us. We are a family and we?ve ben through a lot together already. We are also a team, we need to keep each other together, not falling apart, because we have miscommunication." Leonardo finally spoke up on a mature, calm tone.

"Okay, still not getting what yer implyin?."

Well Leonardo wasn?t sure where was this going either.

"Well...uhm...." he bit his lower lip trying to find a solution. "Well I shouldn?t be the only one figuring this out, this should be a mutual effort. How about....tomorrow we will think what you and me think we should do or what are we expecting from each other or....I don?t know...what could we do together to bring some harmony in this family? Your thoughts are needed." Leo made a faint smile.

"I don?t need a day to figure shit out. I told ya already. Tone down your ego and we?ll be fine."

Leo sighed. This was harder than he thought.

"Do you think this helps? I don?t think so. You need to try harder, Raph."

Raphael groaned annoyed.

"I don?t get what you want from me!"

"I don?t want any more and any less than you to think what the two of us should do in the future."

"Just...the two of us?" Raphael asked on a suspicious tone."Just...us?"

"Well....yes?" Leonardo asked uncertain what was Raphael implying, he got even more puzzled, when he saw Raphael looking away with a stirred up expression. "Raphael...? I don?t understand what is the problem with this? We are....two brothers that misunderstand each other and are old enough to contribute for the family for the better..?"

Raphael fell silent, tensing up, not looking at Leo.He did not want to do anything with Just Leo in the context. It was strange, it should not happen, especially because Leonardo?s words flipped in his mind on a secondary understanding that was not appropriate. It was not new for anyone, that he sometimes did have pervy jokes, but this time the little sparking urges were popping up in him again and the stupid images he made up, forgetting his anger and competitiveness that covered anything else in his mind about Leo and definitely wasn?t funny. After past random fantasies he was just thinking about, for fun, as he was slipping through pages of a porn magazines, getting naturally riled up and horny,after consuming too much of those, some word formations automatically converted into something perverted in his mind, that combined with his frustrations about Leo did no good.

"Raph...?" Leonardo asked uncertain as he approached his brother.

Raphael jumped up before Leo?s reached out hand touched him.

"Sometimes I don?t see ya as a brother!" Raph blurted out rashly, then rushed in his room.

Leonardo froze in place, staring after Raphael with a pale face until the slammed door hid his brother?s form away from his gaze. A rush of panic flooded his mind and frustrated confusion.

"What....?" he mumbled weakly to himself.

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