I haven’t journaled in a while. Have you missed me?

So I guess after my last two entries, maybe we should skip ahead a bit and talk about the first I bottomed.

At this point I was 12, spent the last four years of my life happily serving a Stallion daily after school. Lots of sucking and rimming, the occasional time I’d jerk myself off while Mike’s cum dried into my fur, but never much more than that. As I got more experienced pleasing him, I got a bit more adventurous with my own fantasies. I would go home and stick a finger or two up myself and try to figure out what it was that got Mike so worked up while my arm and tongue took turns inside of him. Of course it only took a few times of me poking at my prostate to see the appeal.

“Can we try something new?” I remember asking.

“What, you don’t want to lick my cock again for me?” Mike asked, giving my form a quick glance as I had already begun taking my clothes off to start our daily routine.

“I want to try something from one of those videos…”

“I knew showing you porn was a bad idea. What caught your eye?” he asked, opening the file on his desktop of videos that he would jerk off to while I fisted him.

“I want to try that!” I said, eagerness dripping from my voice as I pointed to one of the clips of a bunny getting rammed by a wolf.

“Ah… I’m not really into having your little pecker in me. How about you give me a good rimming like I taught you?”

“No not me on top, I want you to fuck me!” I said, rolling my eyes as he regarded my young body.

“Jake… I don’t think you’re big enough for that yet,” he said, giving me a small hug that only emphasised the size difference between our forms. “We haven’t even done anything before like that, how do you know you’ll like it?”

“Please?” I tried to keep the pout out of my voice. “I’ve been playing with myself for a while now, I want to know how it feels. I read online that you can stretch and go slow and it won’t hurt.”

“I’m pretty sure a 12 year old lynx isn’t built to take a stallion’s cock on a good day, son,” he chuckled, giving me a pat on my head. “You’ve been a good sport, though, so how about I do something for you?” he said, pushing me down onto my back and lifting my legs above my head.

I felt those familiar excited butterflies while my cock stiffened, body complete alert as it was every time we started our little sessions. Mike bent his head down and I immediately lifted my little puff of a tail, overwhelmed with excitement at the thought of what was to come. The first lick brought a small sigh out of me, hole quivering as I waited for more. His tongue felt massive compared to my fingers, and as he pushed it further in and explored me I was in heaven. I probably laid there for a good half hour while the older man rimmed me, purely in bliss as I used all of my willpower not to jerk off since I didn’t want things to stop there.

“Do you have the lube in here?” I asked, looking on his desk for the bottle he usually handed to me.

“Yes, Jake, but this is all you’re getting today,” he said, shoving his tongue back into me and almost making me forget my goal.

“I just wanted you to see how many fingers could fit,” I said innocently, knowing full well how disappointed I would be if we didn’t even try.

Mike gave a sigh as he sat up and grabbed the lube, applying a generous amount to his digits. He pushed his first finger in easily after all the stretching his tongue had done and looked a bit surprised as he slipped two more fingers in.

“Does that feel okay?” he asked, putting some pressure on my prostate.

“That feels amazing,” I gasped, pushing my rump back towards him. “See, I told you that you could stretch me.”

The stallion gave a laugh, “You realise this is only half of how thick my cock is, right?” he asked.

“I’m up for it if you are,” I said, trying to catch his eyes and put on my cutest face.

He gave a heavy sigh. “Jake, it’s not that I don’t want to. I just don’t want to hurt you. You’re still a kid, I think we’re at a limit as to what we can do that’s safe,” he said, although I felt his fingers slide out and the tip of his shaft press against my hole.

I didn’t even bother replying, I just pushed back until I felt a sharp pain in my rump as his head slipped in. I heard the older man gasp followed by a satisfied grunt as I slipped another inch into me. The pain was unbelievable, it felt like I was shoving my own leg into my ass. Mike squeezed some lube onto his shaft and closed his eyes as he pressed more in, eyes closed as lust started to overtake his senses.

Honestly, it hurt like hell. Obviously I was just a kid and had no idea what it was that I was doing. Looking back on it, it’s probably a miracle that nothing tore and I didn’t bleed out from having a massive dick into my barely pubescent body. But hey, I was a horny little fuck.

Mike leaned down and looked into my eyes when he was about halfway in. “Are you doing okay, little man?” he asked, scanning my face for any problem.

I blinked back tears and forced myself to grin, “It feels amazing. Please don’t stop,” I told him and felt him eagerly start to slide more of himself into me.

I’m not sure how experienced some of you are, but have you ever had a cock in you that you could feel press against your stomach? Because it’s fucking amazing. It’s no wonder I was never satisfied getting fucked by felines or canines after starting with this stallion.

It felt like a century of easy pressure, inch after inch, hole stretched wider than I thought possible, and I felt his hips finally press against my ass, balls rubbing the base of my tale.

“So you like this?” he asked, giving a light thrust.

“Oh, it feels so good!” and this time I wasn’t lying. The pain was starting to subside and it was pure bliss. He gave a harder thrust and I felt my stomach bulge where his head was resting inside of me. It seemed like Mike started to get more into it, thrusting a bit faster and using more of his length, his paws resting on either side over my head as he fucked my smaller form into the floor.

We have a few videos, although I’m sure he’s deleted them by now so that no one could convict him for cub porn. Still, it was a site seeing a man three times my size fucking me, and it’s still something I jerk off to all the time. He cock did no favours to my hole, him giving a loud grunt as he filled me with cum, cock slowly slipping out and leaving a gaping hole that cum gushed out of. He ended up having to buy me diapers to wear while my hole recovered from the abuse. Although, it seemed like by the time it had a chance to tighten back up we would find ourselves back into that position, panting into the carpet while he fucked me on the floor of his home office.

I really do miss being a kid, those were probably my happiest days.