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This one was far worse, as it involved a day dream of something horrible happening to me in the future. I put my life on the line to protect these innocent creatures of another galaxy and I guess when they are in danger, I can't help but feel really emotional about it. Lately, I've been wanting to draw nothing more than really depressing images featuring the Starmaninjians weeping or feeling upset cause their own creator weeps for them. I don't want them to be sad for me, but when I'm sad, they feel sad and when they feel sad, I feel sadder. \r\n\r\nAnyway, this is just myself expressing how I've been feeling the past week actually. I've been trying to write music to make myself happier, but then something happened and now I just find myself listening to \"Rusty Ruins Act 1 (Saturn) from Sonic 3D Blast\" as I draw Kao (myself) standing in the Starmaninjian rains on the corner of Canine City and Nocturatzu (Ninja) Forest. Significance in that being that Canine city was lost during Kao's teen years, and just north of his home is his late wife's birth place. Gosh I feel so bad for Kao. Cause he not only has to put up with that, but even in alternate dimensions, he knows all is far from well. All cause of the evil and the Intruders...where there's no good, even the purest of places fall subject to the coldness of some people's hearts (no one I know in particular, things just kind of add up...memories and current events, and foresights). \r\n\r\nAnyway, Kao Ninjaratzu is copyright to Kao Ninjaratzu. \r\n\r\nI may end up drawing more images like this. It's just to show, no matter how pure and evil free a world may seem, terrible fates still manage to find their way. The curse that humanity will always have evil among it and in the long run, the beauty of life falls shallow because of this. How I wish something could be done to quench all forms of evil that haunts this planet, but by doing so, am I merely enticing it to come forth harsher than before?", "description_bbcode_parsed": "I dunno why, but I just had another depression spike again. This one was far worse, as it involved a day dream of something horrible happening to me in the future. I put my life on the line to protect these innocent creatures of another galaxy and I guess when they are in danger, I can't help but feel really emotional about it. Lately, I've been wanting to draw nothing more than really depressing images featuring the Starmaninjians weeping or feeling upset cause their own creator weeps for them. I don't want them to be sad for me, but when I'm sad, they feel sad and when they feel sad, I feel sadder.

Anyway, this is just myself expressing how I've been feeling the past week actually. I've been trying to write music to make myself happier, but then something happened and now I just find myself listening to "Rusty Ruins Act 1 (Saturn) from Sonic 3D Blast" as I draw Kao (myself) standing in the Starmaninjian rains on the corner of Canine City and Nocturatzu (Ninja) Forest. Significance in that being that Canine city was lost during Kao's teen years, and just north of his home is his late wife's birth place. Gosh I feel so bad for Kao. Cause he not only has to put up with that, but even in alternate dimensions, he knows all is far from well. All cause of the evil and the Intruders...where there's no good, even the purest of places fall subject to the coldness of some people's hearts (no one I know in particular, things just kind of add up...memories and current events, and foresights).

Anyway, Kao Ninjaratzu is copyright to Kao Ninjaratzu.

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