i am not the victim of myself
i choose to exact my own fate

life is not so precious
we are not worth saving

i am not worth saving

it is not worth it
living
is awful

don't assume i am lost
don't assume i don't understand
don't assume i crave happiness
don't assume there is happiness to be found

i hate myself
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you

you are selfish
you desire to prolong my suffering

for no reason

you don't love me
nor the things i do
i provide you no direct benefit
i am your pet
a tool for you to use
you crave sympathy
you crave recognition
and i deliver

hedonistic
condescending
self righteous
you are these
and not what you claim

lie not to yourself
nor to others
be true
be honest
be truly honest and
righteous
procure for yourself true satisfaction
it is not what you think

open yourself to your mind and
you will find what i say
is the truth

true and honest

realize
recognize
reconcile

or do not

in the end

suicide is always an option

for us both