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Who showed you this side of things?\" The stuff you're looking at above. \"I don't feel comfortable telling you that.\" Someone went and found my fetishy work, shared it, and now it was a secret who was doing it. But...No one else I knew at the furry websites really cared about seriously drawing comics or getting better at them. If I didn't play with them, who would I play with? No one. I appreciate all my friends at the furry websites I've spent time with, but if I'm being honest myself, the standards I wanted to meet were not goals associated with my furry friends' artistic goals, in many cases. My 'normal' friends were the ones who could tell me what nib pens to buy, what hardness of lead does. How to use an Ames Lettering Device. What anatomy book to buy. 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