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At the same time, I know just what it's like to feel sympathetic for others and have it not be received very well, or at all, so I will say I do sincerely appreciate that both folks familiar and unfamiliar to me came out and said something! I'm glad to know that even given my reputation, my work involving this subject matter very clearly can be mutually exclusive with serious and [i][b]legitimate[/b][/i] tones. More on that [i]later.[/i] Much more.\n\nThe next part features no bathroom stuff whatsoever, but I would describe it as at least three times as uncomfortable as this anecdote. Kind of stuck on an early page, so I won't be posting immediately but I won't be letting this project drop. I believe there's 'something on the line', something that I think many of us feel are on the line but for one reason or another, we don't talk about. Just like I realized, it's a lot closer than one might think. 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