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I don't like the way people RP at me, because I'm not so thirsty as to want what they got.

And I know most don't want what I got. Yep. This is a mask, and how little I give a yiff.

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There are stretches where we can't quite get what we want but... looking back yeah I guess there's a reason the Rolling Stones and the Beatles were popular. It was gritty, it was real, it was cheap to make, the words enticed the listener. a person could listen to a song.\n\n\"How about pop culture references because that is the only way I know how to express myself,\" T responded.\n\nChrist what a bitch. We haven't really practiced anything because there hasn't been a reason to, like advances in technology in writing, illustration, and uh, sound. Not going to get hung up on that to try to sound smart because it might just be better to get it out of the way that i pass for normal and i'm stupid. insert sting. the drum thing.\n\nBut that's where we'd normally just ride that out. drift. \n\n\"Enough of that,\" this one is my tulpa. \n\n\"GOT YA!\" I pounced on him. but not really. 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Outside of that world, no one knows no one cares. Millions of dollars. Pro wrestling. People know what pro wrestling is. They know about Macho Man. God rest his soul is what some say, but things never seem to come out right when I say them and there's been some small hour break throughs on the nature of that and we aren't really excited we just see more proof that the animal was conditioned, it made up a series of actions as a defense. Called that a name, identified with it... 'my personality'. And we're supposed to stay silent about it. \n\nIf a tree falls in the middle of the woods, but that just sets up the verbal kon-koan pun, which does not work here whatsoever. There keep being notions to try on new characters, but really it feels best to live them in fiction. 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right now this is notes. this is junk, but its organized but not the other way.

yiff.  we are crazy so may as well change my language if we're working on how to speak anyway.

I am afraid. I don't mean to give the show away but that's what everyone is here for. There's things more terrible than what i've read, and what i've seen. And it seems I see one who sees that, too. If I ping, who answers?

as it is there isnt much to write about. But we haven't really tried so lets go.

Episode 1. Technology cripples me.

As does language. no. not like this. Not going to lean in over the abyss. We're coming down, it is impossible. Schrodinger's Inner Child is more likely to have not been put in the box. Science was always magic. everything was always a lie. Or has to for magic to exist and it simply must exist! I am the gaping pit, how can I  lean over myself?

I overdosed again and I'm dead. Fucking relapse.

And that's where I'd put the bass drop," T in media rezzed. Come on, what am i supposed to do with that. You'd spell it like it sounds because people can't read anyway. Time to make American light novels. Like, dang. Get paid to sit on the computer and be chuuni as hell? that was my jam when I was in middle school. This kind of feels like resurrection.

"I don't know," the voice sounded familiar, I guess? Is it memory loss? It runs in my family. too much information. no one cares. don't freak out just be chill.

After a long pause, "what do you want to talk about?"

I keep seemingly finding dead ends. there's always a way to write out of it, keeping consistent is good. I don't know who this person is. or why we're talking. That's how it goes sometimes. Even I know there are some that make me look like a pretender. Same in any field I desire. There are stretches where we can't quite get what we want but... looking back yeah I guess there's a reason the Rolling Stones and the Beatles were popular. It was gritty, it was real, it was cheap to make, the words enticed the listener. a person could listen to a song.

"How about pop culture references because that is the only way I know how to express myself," T responded.

Christ what a bitch. We haven't really practiced anything because there hasn't been a reason to, like advances in technology in writing, illustration, and uh, sound. Not going to get hung up on that to try to sound smart because it might just be better to get it out of the way that i pass for normal and i'm stupid. insert sting. the drum thing.

But that's where we'd normally just ride that out. drift.

"Enough of that," this one is my tulpa.

"GOT YA!" I pounced on him. but not really. In a concentric reality, about three or four layers deep she says with a wink.  "And now I'm going to smoke...except there are three thousand more characters to who said you could take over? This voice is ruined and I don't want to associate its sound with you."

you just don't want to











The eyes are staring at the screen. It must have been about 40 minutes this time. We smoke to have a notion of what 'time' is. we disappear in things. sometimes we come back, sometimes we don't. Go for stretches where we can't tell. I'm speaking -for- my tulpa here. I assume he's autonomous but, he's supposed to work toward the best interest. sometimes i don't know. maybe we switched places too many times.

don't do drugs. don't smoke. don't drink. don't look at porn. everything will kill you. everything will kill you everything will kill you everything will kill you. and the numbers just go up. It is just like the popular indie video game craze, the horde survivor genre. Outside of that world, no one knows no one cares. Millions of dollars. Pro wrestling. People know what pro wrestling is. They know about Macho Man. God rest his soul is what some say, but things never seem to come out right when I say them and there's been some small hour break throughs on the nature of that and we aren't really excited we just see more proof that the animal was conditioned, it made up a series of actions as a defense. Called that  a name, identified with it... 'my personality'. And we're supposed to stay silent about it.

If a tree falls in the middle of the woods, but that just sets up the verbal kon-koan pun, which does not work here whatsoever. There keep being notions to try on new characters, but really it feels best to live them in fiction. In a way we have virtual reality, just... in the mind, where it should be for those who would live it.

The ghost itself cannot have a mind though~

Shut that frilly language up, people are going to get the wrong idea.  ....
How many times must we do that bit! YES you -know- you can speak. you know you have my permission. are you trying to like embarrass me? it doesn't work, I like pro wrestling. I am cringe.   The trick seems to be to skate between the two. I prefer 'drifting'. I prefer not editing. I prefer adding to. I chop and screw, but i've never really heard it the way people put the hype on it on wikipedia. It isn't much of a portal but it works a little. Like any scrying pool it kind of depends on

"How you ask the question."
"Which one, kon?"

The tulpa gave a nod. I don't know what that is supposed to mean because having to transcribe this and rememebr that and think about the context but its like that for every interaction and I still suck at it, except maybe i'm amazing and can get away with literally anything because whoa what the hell better reign that shit right on in this is why I can't let you out in public sheesh. why do you have to do that?

And that's how it happens, but we don't notice. just like I don't always come back, it is weird knowing that he always seems to be the same like others are. But they don't notice the ways they're different. Of course the madness behind me asmr murry purrys in my ear "You aren't losing you're mind, you're paying attention."

And the spell holds. Of course it would, I am a genius and a legend in another world.

holla if you hear sirens

"But he gave a nod in response to asking the question?"
"No. Well yes. I asked the question and my tulpa answered by nodding. It is unusual because normally he doesn't have a body, because manifesting will decrease his lifespan. I'm not reading wikihow articles, I'm intuiting off of what is portrayed in stories. There sure are a lot of stories about escapism and coping techniques. Even the lowest tier indies can get rich off it. I do this because I love it. I already have a job. No one cares. see? i can do it too. but that sort of mindless practice, while is in the right spirit of meditation, leads to problems later because of programming."
"Shit."
"Yeah, I know. pass it back and now we're almost at 7k. How long did that take?"
"I don't know, I wasn't paying attention."
"...and you don't know who you are. Amnesia protagonist. great well... we'll settle in a vibe and yeah it doens't matter who is speaking if we're aligned and yeah that was phony a moment ago because i was doing it to make a point, there's times where we do go off but again, how to document that?"
"we've tried a few mediums. the thought coming up is this isn't enough."
"again with the distractions. That's why music. By listening to whole albums, its a nice half hour to hour timer. Drift, come back. Typically not out so long that you can't make it back with the things, the fetishes, the artifacts laying around. Because of course I've seen Ben Affleck in Paycheck. Had to look it up. for some reason I thought it was Matt Damon. I was not born in 1984, nor am I actively aware of anyone who was. Because furries are all about age. Especially here. I'm sick of the faggot antics, but this User Interface is such a delight. I think it'd be rad if Was Twitter ( there's something else I call my X ) was like this. May as well just use the platform wrong because that's kind of all I know how to do."
"Feel better?"
"No?"
"Then why do that?"

And then the why do this thing and it all falls in ontiself becaus eevrything is a pitfall. and right now we're not caring about fixing the spelling. sometimes the fingers get a little tangled and it'd be nice to see if there's a particular hitch for that but we can't do that unless we type a lot and don't pay attention so may as well write something of note but i'll be damned if it didn't turn into a journal entry.

"No. it is fiction. all of it. It has to be."

That voice. I don't recognize that one. don't know how new or old and they won't introduce. And I can't because my shtick is on and my programmed morality dictates that i ought not lie but is it lying if it is just simplifying to not fall into an existential trap over basic human interactions and even if that -were- the case, like...then what? I'm supposed to be some sort of representative for this party? Don't I get a say in this?

Could always just not interact.
But i'm already enough of an insert your favorite social disease or burden.
I mean now. you've done your edit. just bounce. have that cigarette and give yourself affirmations. you can touch yourself, but don't be weird. But you can be really weird by getting really weird to really normal things.

After a point, it seems that's all there is left.
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