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  "description": "I actually wrote these ones sometime after i submitted a manuscript, but forgot to upload them here. I've been told that one of them sounds slightly psychotic, but that was the goal of it. \nI don't really have anything to say about the rest of them.\n\nIsarain~",
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  "writing": "Search\n\nThere are so many things I can't remember,\nDid they just slip my mind, or did I want to forget?\nI never know if I should look for them.\nWhat if they're too painful to hold?\nWould I let it drop, like a burning coal into the deep sea?\nOr would I hold it tight?\nWould I squeeze till that coal became a diamond?\nCan I hold onto the ones that are good?\nWith so many things lost, where do I look first?\nThere are so many places for them to hide.\nI think it's best that I start now.\nStart now, before I forget.\n\n\n\nWhite Pages\n\nIt's something different.\nYet at the same time, so familiar.\nA page full of words written in white.\nI can tell they exist, but what do they say?\nAre they words of love?\nSweet nothings meant only for one.\nAre they words of anger?\nBurning oaths of vengeance and pain.\nAre they words of desire?\nPassionate dreams of a wistful soul.\nAre they words of secrets?\nThings meant to be tucked away.\nPerhaps they are all of those things.\nReflections of all things seen and heard.\nEveryday, I find more white pages.\nPerhaps it's time to find new ink.\n\n\n\nSing a Song\n\nSing, \nSing a song for me.\nSing, \nFrom the beating of a heart.\nSing, \nWith every breath you take.\nSing, \nWith everything you have.\nSing,\nThe things you feel.\nSing, \nAbout the times, good and bad.\nSing,\nThe rhythm of a thought.\nSing,\nThe melody of a dream.\nSing,\nThe anthem of life.\nBut most of all.\nSing,\nJust so I can hear your voice.\n\n\n\nNothing's wrong.\n\nOne, nothing's wrong with me.\nI work and live like all the rest.\nI work all day, and relax all night.\nTwo, nothing's wrong with me.\nI follow the rules and treat others well.\nSo why do they insult me?\nThree, something has to give.\nThey taunt and tease me every day.\nWhy can't they just leave me alone?\nOne, something has to give.\nI've told them that it hurts my feelings,\nThat only encouraged them\nTwo, something has to give.\nI've tried my best to ignore it all.\nIt's time to make them pay.\nThree, something's wrong with me.\nI'll pay them back for all the pain.\nI'll show them what it means to hurt.\nOne, something's wrong with me.\nI can hear someone calling my name.\nI can't find anyone here.\nTwo, something's wrong with me.\nHe says I can do it,\nHe says it's time to end them all.\nThree, something has to give.\nIt's done, it's finished.\nThey won't hurt me any more.\nOne, Two, Three\nNothing's wrong with me.\n\n\n\nSomething Untitled\n\nIt screams for my attention\nThe dream that I can't remembered \nIt calls me by my name\nThis dream that lurks in the shadows of thought\nIt wants to come into the light\nThe shadows hold it ever tighter\nIt struggles to be free\nThose cries eventually fade away,\nIt vanishes into the night\n\n\nTime\n\nA scream, a shout, and a whisper.\nMemories cry through the smothering dreams.\nCountless points of time repeating,\nTo the chorus of thing long past.\nTill a new moment comes to the world,\nAnnouncing itself with a piercing scream.\nThen comes the deafening symphony,\nThe sound of silence that blankets everything near.\nThe heartbeat turns into a war drum's boom.\nEvery breath turns into a hurricane.\nSubtle sounds magnified by isolation.\nSoon voices shout from somewhere ahead.\nAn invitation to what could be.\nI stand on the threshold of the moment.\nThe songs of my past echo behind me.\nThe possibilities of the future call from ahead.\nA heartbeat,\nA deep breath,\nThen a whisper.\n“What are you going to do?”\n",
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