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  "writing": "Scars\n\nThere are some things I can't forget,\nThings that never seem to leave my mind.\nSome of them are beautiful moments that I cherish,\nOthers are a darkness that I never wish to relive.\nThey lurk in the shadows of my thoughts,\nWhispering about the things I crave.\nThe endless desire for love and affection,\nThe need for someone to call my own.\nSometimes they taunt me with what I had,\nSomething that I lost in what feels like an eternity ago.\nI had someone who could understand me,\nSomeone who I cherished more than my own existence.\nShe was the person that completed me,\nShe was my hopes, my dreams, my world.\nI loved Her, She loved me.\nAnd even when She wasn't around, the world felt right.\nThat was until the shadows of fear and doubt came.\nIt's ironic that my fear of losing Her started it all.\nI found myself worrying that She had found someone better.\nFound myself doubting if I was even worthy of Her.\nThere are so many words I wish I could unsay,\nSo many things I wish I could undo.\nIn the end, I pushed away the person who made me whole.\nI've tried to find ways to fill the void that's was left.\nYet no matter what I try, nothing ever right.\nNo matter who I'm with, I can feel myself missing Her.\nWith the passage of time, the sores turned to scars.\nScars that remind me of the things I've done.\nScars that remind me of the things I've said.\nScars that will never let me forget.\n",
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