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", "writing": " “Well, I actually have never had sex before...” That had to be the boldest lie Ferro had ever told in their life. They were extremely promiscuous and loved to talk about sex. But they couldn’t think of anything better to say when asked about how they lost their virginity.\n\n “Oh, that’s kinda surprising, you seem kinda charming honestly...” Ferro’s conversational partner said innocently enough.\n\n “Well, you know the saying, Anomalies don’t get dates,” Ferro responded.\n\n “Oh, you’re an Anomaly...” And the conversation ended right there, extinguished with the hush that accompanies this topic. Ferro was counting on it. An escape from talking about what happened to them, if not from the memories.\n\n “Anomalies don’t get dates, you know…” The voice of Ferro’s first reverberated through their head as they lay in bed, desperately trying to find sleep. “You should be thrilled I’m interested in you, grateful even.” \n\n People who use that saying don’t understand what it means. That by portraying people like Ferro as undesirable, they are putting them on their back foot. Making them feel like they need to accept any scraps that are handed to them. They wonder how many Anomalies have been raped under those pretenses.\n\n Ferro certainly was…\n\n\n The date wasn’t that bad, Ferro remembered. Perhaps they were even excited at its novelty. They were an adult now, and they hadn’t been on a single date in their life.\n\n Ferro remembered what they ate that night, what jokes they were told, and the dread they felt when they were convinced to enter their date’s home. The smallest details were burned into Ferro, despite how much they tried to forget the entire night. The only thing that ever managed to slip free from their mind was their date’s name.\n\n It was at least something they could take comfort in. Ferro felt like things without names couldn’t hurt them as much. That there was an impersonal barrier that kept them safer, even in retrospect.\n\n “You know Ferro, now that you’re my boyfriend… There are certain things you need to provide for me…” Their date says as he groped them lightly.\n\n “D-don’t you think it’s too early? This is just our first date…” Ferro’s reply is almost funny to them now. First dates certainly haven’t stopped them from having sex since. But it was the best excuse they could come up with at the time. Their date was the only person who ever showed any interest in Ferro at that point, and they were scared of offending him. Unfortunately, he seemed to be able to tell.\n\n “No, it’s not too early, I think you’ve been waiting for this for some time,” Their date was putting words in their mouth. But at that point, Ferro was too meek to put words in their own. They said nothing in response, and they said nothing as their date laid them in position on the bed. They remember trying to rationalize it in their heads as it began.\n\n Anomalies don’t get dates, so they should take whatever they can get. Even if Ferro didn’t want it at all… \n They tried to say no, they really did. Especially as their date really began to move, and pain jolted them. They tried to vocalize it. Tried to scream it out loud. But the words seemed to always get caught in Ferro’s throat. It came out as tiny whimpers. They wonder if their date even mistook it for pleasure.\n\n Ferro couldn’t really blame their date too much. They never actually said no outloud, they were too pitiful and worthless to do so. Perhaps that was why Ferro forgot their date's name. It was almost a strange forgiveness they could give to their assailant. But they couldn’t forgive themselves.\n\n So excited that someone showed interest in them. So desperate for someone to care about them, to love them. When Ferro’s protest whimpers got too loud, their date asked them to be quiet. They did. They shut their mouth and just surrendered themselves to it. Tears being absorbed by the pillow their face was pressed into. Their date never noticed they were crying.\n\n Ferro decided to spare themselves from remembering all the details. The pain, and the feeling of hands pulling them in, greedily taking. They felt like they could remember all of it if they tried. They remembered how it happened again, and again, for a week until they worked up the courage to say no.\n\n When Ferro used to tell this story, people would argue they weren’t raped. That they didn’t say no loud enough, as if Ferro didn’t already know that. But they were 19, and they were alone their entire life. They didn’t know how sex was supposed to work, they didn’t know they were allowed to have a voice. It would be a couple years before they met Sterling. Before they learned that, this wasn’t what love looked like.\n\n When it was over, their date collapsed on them, asking Ferro how their first time was. Ferro looked away as they spoke, “It was fine... Thank you...” But things weren’t fine. Ferro wondered how many victims thanked their assailant after they were raped. They doubted they were the first...\n\n", "writing_bbcode_parsed": " “Well, I actually have never had sex before...” That had to be the boldest lie Ferro had ever told in their life. They were extremely promiscuous and loved to talk about sex. But they couldn’t think of anything better to say when asked about how they lost their virginity.

  “Oh, that’s kinda surprising, you seem kinda charming honestly...” Ferro’s conversational partner said innocently enough.

  “Well, you know the saying, Anomalies don’t get dates,” Ferro responded.

  “Oh, you’re an Anomaly...” And the conversation ended right there, extinguished with the hush that accompanies this topic. Ferro was counting on it. An escape from talking about what happened to them, if not from the memories.

  “Anomalies don’t get dates, you know…” The voice of Ferro’s first reverberated through their head as they lay in bed, desperately trying to find sleep.  “You should be thrilled I’m interested in you, grateful even.”

  People who use that saying don’t understand what it means. That by portraying people like Ferro as undesirable, they are putting them on their back foot. Making them feel like they need to accept any scraps that are handed to them. They wonder how many Anomalies have been raped under those pretenses.

  Ferro certainly was…


  The date wasn’t that bad, Ferro remembered. Perhaps they were even excited at its novelty. They were an adult now, and they hadn’t been on a single date in their life.

  Ferro remembered what they ate that night, what jokes they were told, and the dread they felt when they were convinced to enter their date’s home. The smallest details were burned into Ferro, despite how much they tried to forget the entire night. The only thing that ever managed to slip free from their mind was their date’s name.

  It was at least something they could take comfort in. Ferro felt like things without names couldn’t hurt them as much. That there was an impersonal barrier that kept them safer, even in retrospect.

  “You know Ferro, now that you’re my boyfriend… There are certain things you need to provide for me…” Their date says as he groped them lightly.

  “D-don’t you think it’s too early? This is just our first date…” Ferro’s reply is almost funny to them now. First dates certainly haven’t stopped them from having sex since. But it was the best excuse they could come up with at the time. Their date was the only person who ever showed any interest in Ferro at that point, and they were scared of offending him. Unfortunately, he seemed to be able to tell.

  “No, it’s not too early, I think you’ve been waiting for this for some time,” Their date was putting words in their mouth. But at that point, Ferro was too meek to put words in their own. They said nothing in response, and they said nothing as their date laid them in position on the bed. They remember trying to rationalize it in their heads as it began.

  Anomalies don’t get dates, so they should take whatever they can get. Even if Ferro didn’t want it at all…
  They tried to say no, they really did. Especially as their date really began to move, and pain jolted them. They tried to vocalize it. Tried to scream it out loud. But the words seemed to always get caught in Ferro’s throat. It came out as tiny whimpers. They wonder if their date even mistook it for pleasure.

  Ferro couldn’t really blame their date too much. They never actually said no outloud, they were too pitiful and worthless to do so. Perhaps that was why Ferro forgot their date's name. It was almost a strange forgiveness they could give to their assailant. But they couldn’t forgive themselves.

  So excited that someone showed interest in them. So desperate for someone to care about them, to love them. When Ferro’s protest whimpers got too loud, their date asked them to be quiet. They did. They shut their mouth and just surrendered themselves to it. Tears being absorbed by the pillow their face was pressed into. Their date never noticed they were crying.

  Ferro decided to spare themselves from remembering all the details. The pain, and the feeling of hands pulling them in, greedily taking. They felt like they could remember all of it if they tried. They remembered how it happened again, and again, for a week until they worked up the courage to say no.

  When Ferro used to tell this story, people would argue they weren’t raped. That they didn’t say no loud enough, as if Ferro didn’t already know that. But they were 19, and they were alone their entire life. They didn’t know how sex was supposed to work, they didn’t know they were allowed to have a voice. It would be a couple years before they met Sterling. Before they learned that, this wasn’t what love looked like.

  When it was over, their date collapsed on them, asking Ferro how their first time was. Ferro looked away as they spoke, “It was fine... Thank you...” But things weren’t fine. Ferro wondered how many victims thanked their assailant after they were raped. They doubted they were the first...

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