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So yes, right on the first chapter. I already got distress and tension building up. Yay me!
Warning: Turtlecest, gore, violence, angst, language
Disclaimer: I do not own any TMNT characters
Pairings: RaphxLeo
Summary: Leonardo wakes up one day to find his family torn apart","writing":"Chapter 1-\n\nConfessing a secret has never been an easy thing. I, Raphael Hamato, could swear on my life. I am the worst at confession secrets. Which I’m about to do right now. Instead of starting off with a long ass introduction I’ll just go for something short sweet and simple. I'm in love with my older brother Leonardo. As stupid as it sounds. It’s getting harder to deny it. After fiddling with feelings for almost three years I finally accepted the fact that I was in love with my brother. \n\nThough I don't plan on telling anyone. Including Leo. Especially after we’re finally getting some progress into gluing back the pieces of our broken bone. Shattered by many stupid fights and waiting months at a time before talking. But despite all the bruises we’ve made on each other’s hearts. I just couldn’t help but falling in love with him and the words just want to slip out each time I encounter him. The time I've spent of having to keep this stupid secret locked up has been driving me insane. Instead I should be kissing him, holding him, and taking care of him properly.\n\nAnything of the sort right there has been officially taken out of my reach. Besides, I couldn't even imagine the disgusted look Leo would have on his face if I told him. Then Donnie and Mikey's. Then it would surely lead to Master Splinter and I would be lucky enough if he just sentenced me to banishment from our home.\n\n \tIt might be worth it. To finally get that overwhelming secret off my back. Then again, would it be worth it to never see Leo's face? Wither it was happy or sad. That thought itself has persuaded me to bite on my tongue every time I ever attempt to say the words. I suppose it’s for the best. Maybe three more years into the future will be my lucky day.\n\n\n\"Hey Leo.\" I called him. Resting my hand on his shoulder to reassure myself his attention was on me. He was sitting on the couch. Watching that show he's been obsessing over ever since toddler hood.\n\n[i]\"Captain Ryan is so cool.\"[/I] He could hear Leo's voice echoing in his head.\n\nYeah, I could give Captain Ryan a good swift kick and see how cool he is then. A smile appeared across my lips at the thought. Though jealousy is sickening quality to have. I can’t help it. I scowl every time I spot Leo gawking dreamily at the guy.\n\n\"Hey Raph.\" Leo soon answered me back.\n\n\"We're going out on patrol?\"\n\n\"Of course.\" He nodded and smiled. I remembered how often whenever I asked about patrol he would get over protective. Afraid that we'll not be able to come home every night. As much as it pissed me off every time he retorted back and quoting Master Splinter’s orders. Restarting an old fight and reopening new wounds. I supposed he had a point as much as I hate to admit it. If only I could have admitted it some months ago. He hopped off of the couch and smiled brightly. Taking his katanas that were leaning against the back of the couch and strapped them around his shell. \n\nCalling down Donnie and Mikey in the process and told Master Splinter where we were going, and as soon as the blessing was given we were out the door as if the fire alarm was activated.\n\n. . .\n\nI don't know what came over me. When Raph touched me on my shoulder, my body went rigid. When he called my name, his voice soothed me. Oh God, I couldn’t seriously like my brother. The thought put goosebumps along my arms and I shook. Not so much in fear of my feelings. More of the fear of the reactions to my feelings.\nI felt his breath glide over my neck and I almost moaned. His scent so strong it was intoxicating me. My head growing fuzzy and my senses dulled.\n\n\"We're going out on patrol?\" He asked me. His voice was so rough and husky. I always loved listening to it. I smiled at him as I took in the sight of him and I never regretted each little peak I snuck. I couldn’t help it. Raphael was gifted with a well formed body. Already from how I was aroused from him, I could have done anything he asked me to at the moment. As long as I could continue to stand close to him, was all I desired. Well, for the most part. All though if he ever knew of this sort of power, he could either use it to his advantage, or he could hate me for the rest of his life. A good reason why I haven’t admitted. At least not at this moment. I want to tell him. I want the secret I have been keeping for some years to be gone.\n\nI wanted to tell him how much he means to me. How much I adored him, and loved him. I don’t like confession something as precious as that. With just the risks I would have to take. To maybe have to view those feelings being crushed; hurt. \n\nI tried pulling myself together. Keeping control of my breathing. The redness from my cheeks slowly fading back to their normal color once the images of what Raph and I could become popped out of my head. The growing soreness from between my legs soon faded away along with my arouses and I couldn’t have been more grateful.\n\n[i]My secret[s]---[/s] Weighs like the world on my shoulders. It would only be a matter of time before my knees would collapse and the truth would spill. [/i]\n\nMy sights were locked on the pine green terrapin who had a faster pace than the rest of us. As he usually did, he loved to take the lead of the pack. As typical, his normal alpha sense kicking in.\n\nThe muscles in his legs were tight every time he ran and pushed himself off concrete to get good height in the air, and landed so harsh but yet so graceful on the other side. I never noticed these things about him. The way he trains, runs, or just sits. Each time I discovered something new about him the more aroused I become. Just thinking about those strong arms that he usually uses to pump iron; wrapped around me, holding me, caressing me. \n\nMy thoughts continued to nag at me. Insisting to me that reality is that cruel. No matter how much I wish. It would never come true.\n\n[s]I got to tell him. He has to know how I feel. Even if he would forever hate me. I can't continually admiring him from afar without his consult.\n\nI have to tell him tonight[s]---[/s] After patrol.[/s]\n\n. . .\n\nKnowing Leo was behind me sent all sorts of sparks down my spine. I even considered the possibility of just turning around, pulling him against my body and locking out lips together for a heated passionate kiss. I shook the pleasurable thought aside. I had to focus on the mission. I couldn’t get distracted. If they were going to find out it would best not for me to almost get one of my brothers killed, gawking at the sexy turtle fighting along my side.\n[i]\nI have to tell him. It might not be the smartest thing to do. But if I get my secret out, maybe I can concentrate more on the team then on my stupid feelings. Leo would just have to handle the shock by himself. And if he was smart enough he won't ask about anything of the sort.[/i]\n\nI plotted the whole thing from top to bottom. Hoping and praying that nothing would be messed up. Tonight. Tonight is the perfect moment. After defeating a few of the purple dragons as intended, we will then head home, I can hold Leo back and allow Don and Mikey to go on ahead without us. Then I can spill. I prayed to whoever would listen not to allow Leo to hate me. As much as I try to prepare myself, I wouldn’t think I could handle that disgusted expression. \n\nOur patrol time lasted for up to an hour with absolutely nothing to do. Not until we heard a scream and the four of us got up and ran to the source of the sound. Finding the Purple Dragons beating up a fairly older man. Maybe between his twenty's and thirty's. \n\nDrawing our weapons out carefully and hopping into the alley. Leo, Don, and I distracted the men with the purple colored dragon tattoos. While Mikey had helped the man out of the alleyway without getting spotted. As ordered. And for the most part, the plan worked. The fight on the other hand was more or less continuing longer than we had expected. \n\nTossing away the last of my opponents. The fight to me personally, didn’t seem as much of a challenge. Turning around though had finished my thought. Men surrounding Leo, outnumbering him more than he could likely handle. Leo attempted several strikes and all ended up failures when, in the end, found himself disarmed. The men grabbing a hold of the twin blade katanas and tossing them to the side carelessly. Metal clanging again stone. Two came in from the sides and launched for his arms, grabbing onto the limbs and forcing Leo to remain still.\n\n\"Leo!\" I shouted for him. Knocking away anymore approaching challengers.\n\nThough as hard as I fought, my attempts were proved useless. A bat had swung down and knocked right at the back of Leo’s head. A sickening crack echoing across the midnight air. Knocking the mint green reptile out of conscious. Clenching on my sai as snarls escaped the back of my throat, I attacked several men. Whoever had seemed to survive the wicked blows, picked themselves up from the concrete ground and ran off. The rest of the unharmed Purple Dragons fled. \n\nOnce they were out of sight, I called out Leo’s name with dismay. Running over to him. I carefully picked up his head and examined him, finding a goose egg lump located at the back of his skull. It looked horrible from this angle, and I was hoping it was just the angle. Looking worriedly at Donnie, I expected for a big unidentifiable word in my personal dictionary to prove me wrong.\n\nComing over and kneeling across from me. His finger gliding across the bump, examining the injury thoroughly. Watching his expression closely. I could see his expression turning more distressed and my hopes fell little by little.\n\n\"It's really bad. We got to get him back to the lair so I can further check what might have happened to him.\" \n\nNodding, I picked him up. One arm hooked under his knees while the other supported the upper half of his body. I proceeded in a running pace followed by my siblings back to the lair. I was the fastest out of everyone. Even though the extra weight was weighing me down a lot. Adrenaline more than made up for it. \n\nIt took no more than fifteen minutes before I busted through the lair door. Master Splinter was still in his room and I instantly ordered Mikey to go tell Splinter what happened. He didn't give it a second thought about following my command. Taking off towards his room.\n\nI continued rushing my way to the infirmary. Donnie following close at my heels.\n\n\"Set him on the cot.\" He ordered once we got in. He scurried around the room. Scrambling through cabinets and drawers for the needed medical supplies and machines. I walked to the side of the room. Getting out of Don's way and praying that Leo was going to be alright. This was not how I pictured this evening to work out.\n\n\"It's a really big bump. I'm going to have to take an x-ray to make sure there wasn't any serious damage to his brain.\" I nodded my understanding, standing firm and watching anxiously in the corner.\n\n. . .\n\n A few hours have passed since we had carried our unconscious older brother home. Don injected him with a drug to help with the pain. He was still printing out the x-rays and studying them when I finally found myself dozing off into a slumber.\n\n\"Raph[s]--- [/s]Raph!\" Don had called out. Knocking my elbow from the arm of the chair I was sitting on. Making my head fall when there was nothing supporting it. I snorted, lifting my head back up and rubbing the sleep from my eyes. I questioned what exactly was going on.\n\n\"I have good news and bad news.\" I frowned, always hated that expression. Because it always meant the bad news was far worse to make the good news sound good. Shaking my head and sighing, I decided it would be best to get it over and done with.\n\n \"What's the bad news?\" \n\n \"Well, after I took the x-ray. I found that from the hit on the head he took, he fractured a piece of his skull had caused him to have a head trauma. Which could lead to comas.\" He explained. My tired state fled from my body as those words slowly processed in my head. Emerald eyes turning wide and horrified. \n\n\"Coma!?\"\n\n\"Yes Raph. I found that the piece of bone that was fractured was pressing against his brain, so I'm going to have to do surgery.\" \n\t\n\"Raph?\" Don’s voice caused me to blink back what could have been tears. \n\n\"W-What can I do to help?\" \n\n\"Can you give April a call? I'm going to need help with the surgery and she's the only one with enough knowledge of the human body to be able to help out.\" He instructed. Nodding, I took out my t-phone and scrolled through the contacts till landing on the number of our red headed friend. It was only a few minutes before a female voice responded through the other end. It didn’t take me much time to explain what has currently happened, but the reply I had gotten was nothing but complete silence. \n\n\"April?\" I called with a shaky voice.\n\n\"Y-Yeah[s]---[/s]? T-Tell Donnie I'll be over as soon as possible. I-I will try to bring something helpful with me.\" I whispered a soft thanks before pressing the hang up button. \n\n\"April is on her way.\" I informed Donatello. He nodded. Walking out of the infirmary, I decided there was nothing better to do but to just wait for April to arrive. Master Splinter was sitting in his favorite chair. His face looked stressed. Mikey was pacing the room.\n\n\"Is he okay, Raph?\" My youngest brother asked once he got the first sight of me.\t\n\n\"He[s]---[/s] He's not.\" I slowly and quietly spoke. Mikey’s frown only turned deeper, tears glistening his sky blue eyes. I walked past him. Appearing before my father.\t\n\n\"What is going on, Raphael?\" \n\n \t\"L-Leo . . . has to go into surgery . . . his skull is . . . fractured.\" I explained in a hushed tone.\n\n\"Oh my son.\" He breathed out. Pulling me closer to him. I couldn't help but hug back. I wanted to cry. Everything crumbled around me. Leo. Why Leo? Why did it have to be him? The one I was fantasizing about is now only a few steps near death in Don’s laboratory. And on the night I was going to tell him how I truly feel about him no less. Now he might not ever know and the thought caused me to tremble even further.\n\n \tWrapping my shaky arms around my father’s chest area where my shoulders came up on him. Holding him tightly. I stuffed my face into the material of his robe. Sobbing. Allowing the tears that I was desperate to hold back; fall. \n\n \t\"Dad, what if Leo doesn't make it[s]---[/s] !?\" I asked in between my pitiful sobs. Not even bothering to note to myself the twelve year old name I had given to my father that I accidently slipped out.\n\n \t\"Don't think like that my son,” He insisted. “Leonardo is a strong warrior. He can make it through this.\"\n\n \t\"But what if the fight is stronger than him.\" \n\n \tI found my eyes connected to Splinters when the old rat kneeled down in front of me. Eyes narrowed seriously. \"Leonardo can have the ability to do amazing things. And when he has a brother like you, helping him. Leonardo can to make it through this. He just needs help.\" With a stiff nod, I looked down to the ground.\n\n \t\"M-Master S-Splinter?\" A voice that cracked as it spoke was heard through the silence and I knew that was Mikey. Splinter gave a soft smile and offered one of his arms. Mikey immediately ran into him. Wrapping his arms around both me and our rat father. Weeps echoing around the once bright lair we call out home.\n\n \tThe lair door opened in a matter of ten minutes and April walked in. Concluding the fact that she was running when she bent over to support herself on her knees, panting heavily. A medical kit in hand with the label of the name of the school she goes to.\n\n \t\"How is he?\" She asked me.\n\n \t\"Not good.\" I sighed. She quickly hugged me and I allowed for the comfort to happen.\n\n \t\"I'm sorry.\" \n\n \t\"As long as he doesn't die. I'm okay.\"\n\n \t\"I'll try not to let that happen.\" She nodded with confidence to her tone. Walking over to the laboratory as I followed her in. The room was filled of medical machines and on a nearby table sitting on a laid out clean cloth, different surgical instruments. The looks of them made my stomach turn.\n\n \t\"How is he Don? Any difference?\" I asked.\n\n \t\"Not any different from ten minutes ago.\" He said. \"You’re going to need to leave the infirmary Raph.\" Don instructed, pointing towards the exit.\n\n \t\"Why?\"\n\n \t\"I'm sure it's obvious. Do you really think watching me cut open Leo's head is the best thing for you?\" I sighed in defeat. Don was more than right on that case. The last thing I would ever want to see was the inside of Leo’s head. The thought made my stomach preform summersaults inside me. I left the room silently and willingly. \n\n\tI walked up to my own room where I was left to restlessly pace. Dozing on the bed every so often. Sleep wasn’t an option unfortunately as it refused to claim me.\n\n. . .\n\n Couple hours fled by like a snail would through a mile garden; five hours to be exact since we brought Leo home and Donnie had to do surgery. I haven't received a single update about how things were coming along. Master Splinter and Mikey tried their attempts to get me out of my room so I could eat. I naturally refused.\n\n \tThe food wouldn’t go down my throat and I’m always awakened every five minutes for no apparent reason other than my distress. I couldn't do anything at this point. I felt useless. \n\nA knock on the door got me to jump in my spot before groaning in irritation.\n\n \t\"Mikey, I told you once. I don't want to eat anything. Now get lost.\" \n\n \t\"This isn't Mikey.\" The sound of Donnie's voice had never been sweater. Anxiously hopping out of bed and hurrying to the door. Swinging it open to find him giving me a sad smile and my own hopeful smile faded into a frown. This did not look good.\n\n \t\"Can I come in?\" I nodded, stepping to the side to clear the way for him. He walked to my bed and sat down. I sat down next to him.\n\n \t \"So[s]---[/s] Is Leo okay?\" I started. Chewing my lip nervously. \n\n \t\"He's stabilized. His vital signs are normal. The surgery went fine. I got the piece that was fractured put back into place and sewed up.\"\n\n \t\"So what's the problem with him?\" I asked earning a sadden sigh.\n\n \t\"He's going in a coma. I don't know how long it's going to last. I don't exactly know when he's going to wake up. It could last weeks, months, years.\" I looked down to my lap. Already feeling the tears form in my eyes.\n\n \t\"I-Is there anything we can do to help him?\" I asked. My voice cracking uncontrollably.\n\n \t\"All that we can do is keep giving him pain killers, insert fluids continually, and feed him until he wakes up. That's pretty much it.\" \n\n \tWaiting a second before asking the question that had been nagging at me for hours now, \". . . C-Can I see him now?\" He nodded. I got up and walked over to the lab. Walking in, I found my older brother laying on the cot. An IV in his arm and breathing tubes in his nose. His injury's cleaned and neatly wrapped and his cut from where Donnie did surgery on his head was sewn that ran from the back of his head to the top. A heart machine sitting beside him as slow beeps from his heart rate was viewed. \n\nStrolling hesitantly to the side of the cot. Staring as he laid there silently and so still I could have mistaken him for lifeless if it weren't for the machines. Taking a chair from a corner and placing it down beside of the cot. I sat there, watching as his chest rose up and down for each slow breath. \n\n \tI grabbed his hand in both of mine and started releasing the whimpers that threatened me. There was so much I wanted to say. So much I wanted to tell him. And now if he doesn't die I'm going to have to wait who knows how long till he wakes up.\n\n \t\"L-Leo? If you can hear me. I-I just was . . . wanting to tell you tonight[s]---[/s] I love you, Leo. You mean a lot to me. Please wake up soon. Please.\" I begged. \n\n \tI silently cried for a certain amount of time I didn’t keep track of. Perhaps an hour. Possibly two. Clenching Leo’s hand in mine and not ever wanting to let go.\n\n \tMaster Splinter and Mikey soon came in after Don told them what had occurred. Allowing for me to have my time with Leo before they came in. Taking their turns saying what they wanted to Leo. Master Splinter telling us that he could hear us and that it was helping him, God I hope not. That would be just my luck if he didn't want to wake up because of me.\n\n \tI knew things were going to change. If Leo doesn't wake up some time soon. There will be a lot of effects in this family. Some I hope never comes. \n","writing_bbcode_parsed":"Chapter 1-
Confessing a secret has never been an easy thing. I, Raphael Hamato, could swear on my life. I am the worst at confession secrets. Which I’m about to do right now. Instead of starting off with a long ass introduction I’ll just go for something short sweet and simple. I'm in love with my older brother Leonardo. As stupid as it sounds. It’s getting harder to deny it. After fiddling with feelings for almost three years I finally accepted the fact that I was in love with my brother.
Though I don't plan on telling anyone. Including Leo. Especially after we’re finally getting some progress into gluing back the pieces of our broken bone. Shattered by many stupid fights and waiting months at a time before talking. But despite all the bruises we’ve made on each other’s hearts. I just couldn’t help but falling in love with him and the words just want to slip out each time I encounter him. The time I've spent of having to keep this stupid secret locked up has been driving me insane. Instead I should be kissing him, holding him, and taking care of him properly.
Anything of the sort right there has been officially taken out of my reach. Besides, I couldn't even imagine the disgusted look Leo would have on his face if I told him. Then Donnie and Mikey's. Then it would surely lead to Master Splinter and I would be lucky enough if he just sentenced me to banishment from our home.
\tIt might be worth it. To finally get that overwhelming secret off my back. Then again, would it be worth it to never see Leo's face? Wither it was happy or sad. That thought itself has persuaded me to bite on my tongue every time I ever attempt to say the words. I suppose it’s for the best. Maybe three more years into the future will be my lucky day.
"Hey Leo." I called him. Resting my hand on his shoulder to reassure myself his attention was on me. He was sitting on the couch. Watching that show he's been obsessing over ever since toddler hood.
"Captain Ryan is so cool." He could hear Leo's voice echoing in his head.
Yeah, I could give Captain Ryan a good swift kick and see how cool he is then. A smile appeared across my lips at the thought. Though jealousy is sickening quality to have. I can’t help it. I scowl every time I spot Leo gawking dreamily at the guy.
"Hey Raph." Leo soon answered me back.
"We're going out on patrol?"
"Of course." He nodded and smiled. I remembered how often whenever I asked about patrol he would get over protective. Afraid that we'll not be able to come home every night. As much as it pissed me off every time he retorted back and quoting Master Splinter’s orders. Restarting an old fight and reopening new wounds. I supposed he had a point as much as I hate to admit it. If only I could have admitted it some months ago. He hopped off of the couch and smiled brightly. Taking his katanas that were leaning against the back of the couch and strapped them around his shell.
Calling down Donnie and Mikey in the process and told Master Splinter where we were going, and as soon as the blessing was given we were out the door as if the fire alarm was activated.
. . .
I don't know what came over me. When Raph touched me on my shoulder, my body went rigid. When he called my name, his voice soothed me. Oh God, I couldn’t seriously like my brother. The thought put goosebumps along my arms and I shook. Not so much in fear of my feelings. More of the fear of the reactions to my feelings.
I felt his breath glide over my neck and I almost moaned. His scent so strong it was intoxicating me. My head growing fuzzy and my senses dulled.
"We're going out on patrol?" He asked me. His voice was so rough and husky. I always loved listening to it. I smiled at him as I took in the sight of him and I never regretted each little peak I snuck. I couldn’t help it. Raphael was gifted with a well formed body. Already from how I was aroused from him, I could have done anything he asked me to at the moment. As long as I could continue to stand close to him, was all I desired. Well, for the most part. All though if he ever knew of this sort of power, he could either use it to his advantage, or he could hate me for the rest of his life. A good reason why I haven’t admitted. At least not at this moment. I want to tell him. I want the secret I have been keeping for some years to be gone.
I wanted to tell him how much he means to me. How much I adored him, and loved him. I don’t like confession something as precious as that. With just the risks I would have to take. To maybe have to view those feelings being crushed; hurt.
I tried pulling myself together. Keeping control of my breathing. The redness from my cheeks slowly fading back to their normal color once the images of what Raph and I could become popped out of my head. The growing soreness from between my legs soon faded away along with my arouses and I couldn’t have been more grateful.
My secret--- Weighs like the world on my shoulders. It would only be a matter of time before my knees would collapse and the truth would spill.
My sights were locked on the pine green terrapin who had a faster pace than the rest of us. As he usually did, he loved to take the lead of the pack. As typical, his normal alpha sense kicking in.
The muscles in his legs were tight every time he ran and pushed himself off concrete to get good height in the air, and landed so harsh but yet so graceful on the other side. I never noticed these things about him. The way he trains, runs, or just sits. Each time I discovered something new about him the more aroused I become. Just thinking about those strong arms that he usually uses to pump iron; wrapped around me, holding me, caressing me.
My thoughts continued to nag at me. Insisting to me that reality is that cruel. No matter how much I wish. It would never come true.
I got to tell him. He has to know how I feel. Even if he would forever hate me. I can't continually admiring him from afar without his consult.
I have to tell him tonight--- After patrol.
. . .
Knowing Leo was behind me sent all sorts of sparks down my spine. I even considered the possibility of just turning around, pulling him against my body and locking out lips together for a heated passionate kiss. I shook the pleasurable thought aside. I had to focus on the mission. I couldn’t get distracted. If they were going to find out it would best not for me to almost get one of my brothers killed, gawking at the sexy turtle fighting along my side.
I have to tell him. It might not be the smartest thing to do. But if I get my secret out, maybe I can concentrate more on the team then on my stupid feelings. Leo would just have to handle the shock by himself. And if he was smart enough he won't ask about anything of the sort.
I plotted the whole thing from top to bottom. Hoping and praying that nothing would be messed up. Tonight. Tonight is the perfect moment. After defeating a few of the purple dragons as intended, we will then head home, I can hold Leo back and allow Don and Mikey to go on ahead without us. Then I can spill. I prayed to whoever would listen not to allow Leo to hate me. As much as I try to prepare myself, I wouldn’t think I could handle that disgusted expression.
Our patrol time lasted for up to an hour with absolutely nothing to do. Not until we heard a scream and the four of us got up and ran to the source of the sound. Finding the Purple Dragons beating up a fairly older man. Maybe between his twenty's and thirty's.
Drawing our weapons out carefully and hopping into the alley. Leo, Don, and I distracted the men with the purple colored dragon tattoos. While Mikey had helped the man out of the alleyway without getting spotted. As ordered. And for the most part, the plan worked. The fight on the other hand was more or less continuing longer than we had expected.
Tossing away the last of my opponents. The fight to me personally, didn’t seem as much of a challenge. Turning around though had finished my thought. Men surrounding Leo, outnumbering him more than he could likely handle. Leo attempted several strikes and all ended up failures when, in the end, found himself disarmed. The men grabbing a hold of the twin blade katanas and tossing them to the side carelessly. Metal clanging again stone. Two came in from the sides and launched for his arms, grabbing onto the limbs and forcing Leo to remain still.
"Leo!" I shouted for him. Knocking away anymore approaching challengers.
Though as hard as I fought, my attempts were proved useless. A bat had swung down and knocked right at the back of Leo’s head. A sickening crack echoing across the midnight air. Knocking the mint green reptile out of conscious. Clenching on my sai as snarls escaped the back of my throat, I attacked several men. Whoever had seemed to survive the wicked blows, picked themselves up from the concrete ground and ran off. The rest of the unharmed Purple Dragons fled.
Once they were out of sight, I called out Leo’s name with dismay. Running over to him. I carefully picked up his head and examined him, finding a goose egg lump located at the back of his skull. It looked horrible from this angle, and I was hoping it was just the angle. Looking worriedly at Donnie, I expected for a big unidentifiable word in my personal dictionary to prove me wrong.
Coming over and kneeling across from me. His finger gliding across the bump, examining the injury thoroughly. Watching his expression closely. I could see his expression turning more distressed and my hopes fell little by little.
"It's really bad. We got to get him back to the lair so I can further check what might have happened to him."
Nodding, I picked him up. One arm hooked under his knees while the other supported the upper half of his body. I proceeded in a running pace followed by my siblings back to the lair. I was the fastest out of everyone. Even though the extra weight was weighing me down a lot. Adrenaline more than made up for it.
It took no more than fifteen minutes before I busted through the lair door. Master Splinter was still in his room and I instantly ordered Mikey to go tell Splinter what happened. He didn't give it a second thought about following my command. Taking off towards his room.
I continued rushing my way to the infirmary. Donnie following close at my heels.
"Set him on the cot." He ordered once we got in. He scurried around the room. Scrambling through cabinets and drawers for the needed medical supplies and machines. I walked to the side of the room. Getting out of Don's way and praying that Leo was going to be alright. This was not how I pictured this evening to work out.
"It's a really big bump. I'm going to have to take an x-ray to make sure there wasn't any serious damage to his brain." I nodded my understanding, standing firm and watching anxiously in the corner.
. . .
A few hours have passed since we had carried our unconscious older brother home. Don injected him with a drug to help with the pain. He was still printing out the x-rays and studying them when I finally found myself dozing off into a slumber.
"Raph--- Raph!" Don had called out. Knocking my elbow from the arm of the chair I was sitting on. Making my head fall when there was nothing supporting it. I snorted, lifting my head back up and rubbing the sleep from my eyes. I questioned what exactly was going on.
"I have good news and bad news." I frowned, always hated that expression. Because it always meant the bad news was far worse to make the good news sound good. Shaking my head and sighing, I decided it would be best to get it over and done with.
"What's the bad news?"
"Well, after I took the x-ray. I found that from the hit on the head he took, he fractured a piece of his skull had caused him to have a head trauma. Which could lead to comas." He explained. My tired state fled from my body as those words slowly processed in my head. Emerald eyes turning wide and horrified.
"Coma!?"
"Yes Raph. I found that the piece of bone that was fractured was pressing against his brain, so I'm going to have to do surgery."
\t
"Raph?" Don’s voice caused me to blink back what could have been tears.
"W-What can I do to help?"
"Can you give April a call? I'm going to need help with the surgery and she's the only one with enough knowledge of the human body to be able to help out." He instructed. Nodding, I took out my t-phone and scrolled through the contacts till landing on the number of our red headed friend. It was only a few minutes before a female voice responded through the other end. It didn’t take me much time to explain what has currently happened, but the reply I had gotten was nothing but complete silence.
"April?" I called with a shaky voice.
"Y-Yeah---? T-Tell Donnie I'll be over as soon as possible. I-I will try to bring something helpful with me." I whispered a soft thanks before pressing the hang up button.
"April is on her way." I informed Donatello. He nodded. Walking out of the infirmary, I decided there was nothing better to do but to just wait for April to arrive. Master Splinter was sitting in his favorite chair. His face looked stressed. Mikey was pacing the room.
"Is he okay, Raph?" My youngest brother asked once he got the first sight of me.\t
"He--- He's not." I slowly and quietly spoke. Mikey’s frown only turned deeper, tears glistening his sky blue eyes. I walked past him. Appearing before my father.\t
"What is going on, Raphael?"
\t"L-Leo . . . has to go into surgery . . . his skull is . . . fractured." I explained in a hushed tone.
"Oh my son." He breathed out. Pulling me closer to him. I couldn't help but hug back. I wanted to cry. Everything crumbled around me. Leo. Why Leo? Why did it have to be him? The one I was fantasizing about is now only a few steps near death in Don’s laboratory. And on the night I was going to tell him how I truly feel about him no less. Now he might not ever know and the thought caused me to tremble even further.
\tWrapping my shaky arms around my father’s chest area where my shoulders came up on him. Holding him tightly. I stuffed my face into the material of his robe. Sobbing. Allowing the tears that I was desperate to hold back; fall.
\t"Dad, what if Leo doesn't make it--- !?" I asked in between my pitiful sobs. Not even bothering to note to myself the twelve year old name I had given to my father that I accidently slipped out.
\t"Don't think like that my son,” He insisted. “Leonardo is a strong warrior. He can make it through this."
\t"But what if the fight is stronger than him."
\tI found my eyes connected to Splinters when the old rat kneeled down in front of me. Eyes narrowed seriously. "Leonardo can have the ability to do amazing things. And when he has a brother like you, helping him. Leonardo can to make it through this. He just needs help." With a stiff nod, I looked down to the ground.
\t"M-Master S-Splinter?" A voice that cracked as it spoke was heard through the silence and I knew that was Mikey. Splinter gave a soft smile and offered one of his arms. Mikey immediately ran into him. Wrapping his arms around both me and our rat father. Weeps echoing around the once bright lair we call out home.
\tThe lair door opened in a matter of ten minutes and April walked in. Concluding the fact that she was running when she bent over to support herself on her knees, panting heavily. A medical kit in hand with the label of the name of the school she goes to.
\t"How is he?" She asked me.
\t"Not good." I sighed. She quickly hugged me and I allowed for the comfort to happen.
\t"I'm sorry."
\t"As long as he doesn't die. I'm okay."
\t"I'll try not to let that happen." She nodded with confidence to her tone. Walking over to the laboratory as I followed her in. The room was filled of medical machines and on a nearby table sitting on a laid out clean cloth, different surgical instruments. The looks of them made my stomach turn.
\t"How is he Don? Any difference?" I asked.
\t"Not any different from ten minutes ago." He said. "You’re going to need to leave the infirmary Raph." Don instructed, pointing towards the exit.
\t"Why?"
\t"I'm sure it's obvious. Do you really think watching me cut open Leo's head is the best thing for you?" I sighed in defeat. Don was more than right on that case. The last thing I would ever want to see was the inside of Leo’s head. The thought made my stomach preform summersaults inside me. I left the room silently and willingly.
\tI walked up to my own room where I was left to restlessly pace. Dozing on the bed every so often. Sleep wasn’t an option unfortunately as it refused to claim me.
. . .
Couple hours fled by like a snail would through a mile garden; five hours to be exact since we brought Leo home and Donnie had to do surgery. I haven't received a single update about how things were coming along. Master Splinter and Mikey tried their attempts to get me out of my room so I could eat. I naturally refused.
\tThe food wouldn’t go down my throat and I’m always awakened every five minutes for no apparent reason other than my distress. I couldn't do anything at this point. I felt useless.
A knock on the door got me to jump in my spot before groaning in irritation.
\t"Mikey, I told you once. I don't want to eat anything. Now get lost."
\t"This isn't Mikey." The sound of Donnie's voice had never been sweater. Anxiously hopping out of bed and hurrying to the door. Swinging it open to find him giving me a sad smile and my own hopeful smile faded into a frown. This did not look good.
\t"Can I come in?" I nodded, stepping to the side to clear the way for him. He walked to my bed and sat down. I sat down next to him.
\t "So--- Is Leo okay?" I started. Chewing my lip nervously.
\t"He's stabilized. His vital signs are normal. The surgery went fine. I got the piece that was fractured put back into place and sewed up."
\t"So what's the problem with him?" I asked earning a sadden sigh.
\t"He's going in a coma. I don't know how long it's going to last. I don't exactly know when he's going to wake up. It could last weeks, months, years." I looked down to my lap. Already feeling the tears form in my eyes.
\t"I-Is there anything we can do to help him?" I asked. My voice cracking uncontrollably.
\t"All that we can do is keep giving him pain killers, insert fluids continually, and feed him until he wakes up. That's pretty much it."
\tWaiting a second before asking the question that had been nagging at me for hours now, ". . . C-Can I see him now?" He nodded. I got up and walked over to the lab. Walking in, I found my older brother laying on the cot. An IV in his arm and breathing tubes in his nose. His injury's cleaned and neatly wrapped and his cut from where Donnie did surgery on his head was sewn that ran from the back of his head to the top. A heart machine sitting beside him as slow beeps from his heart rate was viewed.
Strolling hesitantly to the side of the cot. Staring as he laid there silently and so still I could have mistaken him for lifeless if it weren't for the machines. Taking a chair from a corner and placing it down beside of the cot. I sat there, watching as his chest rose up and down for each slow breath.
\tI grabbed his hand in both of mine and started releasing the whimpers that threatened me. There was so much I wanted to say. So much I wanted to tell him. And now if he doesn't die I'm going to have to wait who knows how long till he wakes up.
\t"L-Leo? If you can hear me. I-I just was . . . wanting to tell you tonight--- I love you, Leo. You mean a lot to me. Please wake up soon. Please." I begged.
\tI silently cried for a certain amount of time I didn’t keep track of. Perhaps an hour. Possibly two. Clenching Leo’s hand in mine and not ever wanting to let go.
\tMaster Splinter and Mikey soon came in after Don told them what had occurred. Allowing for me to have my time with Leo before they came in. Taking their turns saying what they wanted to Leo. Master Splinter telling us that he could hear us and that it was helping him, God I hope not. That would be just my luck if he didn't want to wake up because of me.
\tI knew things were going to change. If Leo doesn't wake up some time soon. There will be a lot of effects in this family. Some I hope never comes.
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