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Turns out I'm having a kidney stone.\nIt started up again last night.\n\nAnd that's just the highlights. There has been death. There has been emotional trauma.\n\nI don't know how I'm going to make an 11 hour drive to BLFC or sit at my Bazaar table for 6 hours (FRIDAY ONLY)\nbut I'm going to try my best. =S\n\nLife doesn't want you to keep up. Life doesn't want to go easy on you.\nBut I'm telling myself and all of you that you're in a fight to the death with life.\nWhether it's depression, guilt, fear, anger, or just plain old bad news, you have to keep going!\nYou have to keep walking and taking steps. You find your TRUE friends who love you no matter what,\nwho don't hold CONDITIONS over your head, and you put your arms around each other's shoulders, and walk TOGETHER.\n\nI tell myself \"You know what? I have my arms, I have my legs. I can hear, see, taste, touch. I have a roof over my head. I'M DOING PRETTY DAMN GOOD!\"\n\nWhen you're being attacked in real life, you are in a fight for your life.\nYou can't let fear overwhelm you, you can't curl up in a little ball.\nYou have to defend yourself, and you have to FIGHT BACK with EVERYTHING YOU GOT!\nYou go for the eyes! You attack the throat! You kick and claw and scream and flail!\nYOU GO FERAL ON YOUR ATTACKER!\n\nLife is the same thing! Depression is the same thing! Fear, anger, all of that CRAP that is POISONING your life.\nAll those so-called friends holding mistakes you did in your past like a tether around your neck. CUT IT LOOSE.\nGO FERAL ON LIFE! This is the last Wednesday, May 11th, 2016 there will ever be! Make it count! Don't be a victim!\n\nA true friend of mine since 1998 told me yesterday\n\"Regret is just a tether holding you to the past. You cant move forward with it wrapped around your throat.\"\n\nDrop all that dead weight. Shrug it off like a backpack. Do it now. You can feel that weight.\nYou can feel that pressure. You can feel that stranglehold around your neck.\nAnd I'm telling you...it doesn't take a feat of strength to get rid of it. Just shrug it off and walk forward.\nJust unclasp that death grip around your neck. And walk forward. One. Step. At. A. Time.\n\nLife is too damned short to wallow and feel regret and \"if only I did this\". You did what you could.\nKeep moving forward. Learn from any mistakes. Move forward. Just. Keep. Swimming. Dammit.\n\nAnother friend gave me a wooden carving the size of a softball. I didn't understand what it was.\n\"Look closely...it is a man, curled up into a ball, his head in his hands. This symbolizes you are the cause and solution to all your problems.\"\nThe answer to your problems is you. You can turn them off. You have the solution. The only thing holding you back is you.\n\nFOLLOW YOUR DREAMS\n\nGET OUT THERE\n\nALWAYS BELIEVE YOU CAN\n\nCREATE EVERY DAY\n\nTHE ONLY TIME YOU RUN OUT OF CHANCES IS WHEN YOU STOP TAKING THEM\n\n\n\n\nI'll see you all at BLFC.\n\n<3 Grrrwolf", "description_bbcode_parsed": "2am the other night went to the ER for the worst pain in my life.
Shaking, hyperventilating, crying. Turns out I'm having a kidney stone.
It started up again last night.

And that's just the highlights. There has been death. There has been emotional trauma.

I don't know how I'm going to make an 11 hour drive to BLFC or sit at my Bazaar table for 6 hours (FRIDAY ONLY)
but I'm going to try my best. =S

Life doesn't want you to keep up. Life doesn't want to go easy on you.
But I'm telling myself and all of you that you're in a fight to the death with life.
Whether it's depression, guilt, fear, anger, or just plain old bad news, you have to keep going!
You have to keep walking and taking steps. You find your TRUE friends who love you no matter what,
who don't hold CONDITIONS over your head, and you put your arms around each other's shoulders, and walk TOGETHER.

I tell myself "You know what? I have my arms, I have my legs. I can hear, see, taste, touch. I have a roof over my head. I'M DOING PRETTY DAMN GOOD!"

When you're being attacked in real life, you are in a fight for your life.
You can't let fear overwhelm you, you can't curl up in a little ball.
You have to defend yourself, and you have to FIGHT BACK with EVERYTHING YOU GOT!
You go for the eyes! You attack the throat! You kick and claw and scream and flail!
YOU GO FERAL ON YOUR ATTACKER!

Life is the same thing! Depression is the same thing! Fear, anger, all of that CRAP that is POISONING your life.
All those so-called friends holding mistakes you did in your past like a tether around your neck. CUT IT LOOSE.
GO FERAL ON LIFE! This is the last Wednesday, May 11th, 2016 there will ever be! Make it count! Don't be a victim!

A true friend of mine since 1998 told me yesterday
"Regret is just a tether holding you to the past. You cant move forward with it wrapped around your throat."

Drop all that dead weight. Shrug it off like a backpack. Do it now. You can feel that weight.
You can feel that pressure. You can feel that stranglehold around your neck.
And I'm telling you...it doesn't take a feat of strength to get rid of it. Just shrug it off and walk forward.
Just unclasp that death grip around your neck. And walk forward. One. Step. At. A. Time.

Life is too damned short to wallow and feel regret and "if only I did this". You did what you could.
Keep moving forward. Learn from any mistakes. Move forward. Just. Keep. Swimming. Dammit.

Another friend gave me a wooden carving the size of a softball. I didn't understand what it was.
"Look closely...it is a man, curled up into a ball, his head in his hands. This symbolizes you are the cause and solution to all your problems."
The answer to your problems is you. You can turn them off. You have the solution. The only thing holding you back is you.

FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS

GET OUT THERE

ALWAYS BELIEVE YOU CAN

CREATE EVERY DAY

THE ONLY TIME YOU RUN OUT OF CHANCES IS WHEN YOU STOP TAKING THEM




I'll see you all at BLFC.

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