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Basically, my message is pointing out forced "Help". Forcing someone with what you think will help them without them actually needing it or asking for it. This all stems from an altercation I got in with now Ex friends around last year. I basically wanted some space to breathe, time alone just to think to myself and calm down. Yet I had people messaging me vaguely suicidal messages, forcing the Idea that they are only trying to help me but they can't because I won't talk. Even though they were told I needed space. I got sent stuff like "I can't do this anymore" or " Don't worry I'll leave". For as vague as they were, I knew of their history somewhat and the comments freaked me out to the point I broke down. Blurting out personal stuff I shouldn't have as I was unable to keep a straight head because I felt like they would end their life because of me. I end up getting a message from someone that supplies them weed (It's illegal here). That I'm being pathetic, that they are trying to help me but I'm being childish and ignoring them. Even though my reason for ghosting was 1, I needed space. 2 the first friend was taunting me with specific stuff that began this entire fiasco. Also 3, I was being freaked out by vague suicidal messages and I was unable to keep my head on straight because of it. Not wanting to interact and feeling more uncomfortable with each begging message.
I was somewhat forced into a meet up with this person who was making vague messages. Instead of talking about the situation, they spoke about themselves and their weed dealer. The person who made the meet up happen, not taking into account how hesitant I was. Said that I overreacted meeting this person, forcing the idea that I need therapy and that therapists can do no wrong. I don't trust therapists and would rather keep my problems to myself. Like I should have done instead of telling these people which I trusted. Everything felt forced upon me. "You know this person has mental problems" as if that was to dilute how badly treated I felt. I have some personal problems which are quite troubling. Yet expressing these have only ended in being told I need therapists, that all I feel is wrong. Added with the guilt of how others would feel. How no one feels like this and I'm mentally insane, how stupid I can be. Constantly being forced fed on how I need this, making me want help less and less. The situation is very messy, very head hurting and I never want anything to happen like that again. I recently kept myself at home so I can breathe, cutting contact with these people and to be honest I feel much safer away from them all. The weed provider in their messages saying how I will end up with no friends if I was to continue this. I have friends that haven't used stuff like this to control me. Yet what's the point of keeping friends that will taunt me and then call me pathetic when I break? I would rather stick to the friends that actually treat me like a human. This situation was then blamed on covid, it all felt so childish like I was being kicked out of the friend group and treated like a child.
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