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Sonic Forces. Game was disappointing. Not the worst but disappointing. What pisses me off are the overreactionaries on both sides. I've talked about them before but now they carry this air of smugness. Yknow: \"We shouldve gone with adventure!\" \n\"Only the fans will fix the franchise\"\n\"You're a biased moron if you like this game\"\n\nFuck the hell off with your lucky guesses. You aren't psychic so stop acting like you are. Your criticisms still boil down to \"It would've never worked because it doesn't adhere to my nostalgia\" which are bullshit criticisms that unfairly judge the game on what it offers.\n\nThis fanbase man. For two years, 90% of the fucking time, I have been mocked, shamed, labelled things that I am not for having a differing opinion about the franchise. I can talk about racial tension and have a smoother conversion than talking about a blue fucking hedgehog and his games. This cannot be real. Fuck this fanbase. It's shit! Fucking shit! How dare I have an opinion!? How dare I enjoy something you don't!? How dare I fucking try something out for myself!? I should be a fucking sheep and go with whatever the fucking nostalgia goggled naysayers, fanboys and faux haters say huh? \n\nYou know it's even worse that it's some of my friends who've done this to me, just because I was excited for the game . Constantly told that I'm some sort of biased retard because I was looking forward to the game, mocked in my own fucking discord group for setting up rules so other who looked forward to the game including myself wouldn't be spoiled. Someone would actually spoil the game for others through meme pics mocking the game because they hated it. They did it really fucking obnoxiously too. En masse...\n\nIf it's not that, it's the general overabundance of shitposting like it's the second coming of christ. Meme this! Meme that! Meme here! Meme there! Lets put memes EVERYWHERE! But saying responding to a greeting like a polite adult? FUCKING NOPE! Let's just ignore that guy instead. Let's be needlessly passive aggressive to him all the time. Let's just say \"SCREW THE RULES, I CAN INVITE WHOEVER I FUCKING WANT WITHOUT PERMISSION! PERSONAL DRAMA!? LET HIM DEAL WITH IT!\" Let's ignore his interests all the fucking time and focus on their own instead of it being fair or something. How about we mock this guy's likes for Nintendo for example and label him shit he isn't. Lets ignore the guy and his friend who tried to help you from isolation and despair, and have the GALL to talk about how your friend is ignoring you when he needs help and how you \"don't get it\" while ignoring us! Hypocrite! \n\nThen there's these fucking assignments that a driving me nuts with their ridiculous reference requirements with incoming deadlines. I'm trying so fucking hard goddamnit and I barely scrape it. Oh why don't we add the constant threats of being thrown out, accused of shit you didn't do by your own mother! How about the constant bouts of anxiety constantly making me question whether I'm sane for enjoying the things I do or if I'm just growing psychotic, or if I'm about to die, when I die, just death in fucking general!\n\nFinally i just wonder, what would happen if I ended it? I'm just glad that I'm sane enough to shudder at that thought because I would like to live for a long time thank you...\n\nI wonder....I try my best to help people despite me being really shit at sympathising and emoting and some that I know constantly repay me with shit! Why do I even bother!? I'm glad I have the few genuine friends who treat me the way they expect me to treat them. The others? Sometimes I think they can just go to hell for all I care but even that's pushing it for me.\n\nBefore I forget, I also had financial issues that I had to go through for two fucking months due to poor fucking management for the other side!", "description_bbcode_parsed": "I'm tired...so fucking tired...and so fucking angry and I have the biggest fucking problem when it comes to clearly expressing my thoughts whether through speech of text..

I suppose I should start with the light shit. Sonic Forces. Game was disappointing. Not the worst but disappointing. What pisses me off are the overreactionaries on both sides. I've talked about them before but now they carry this air of smugness. Yknow: "We shouldve gone with adventure!"
"Only the fans will fix the franchise"
"You're a biased moron if you like this game"

Fuck the hell off with your lucky guesses. You aren't psychic so stop acting like you are. Your criticisms still boil down to "It would've never worked because it doesn't adhere to my nostalgia" which are bullshit criticisms that unfairly judge the game on what it offers.

This fanbase man. For two years, 90% of the fucking time, I have been mocked, shamed, labelled things that I am not for having a differing opinion about the franchise. I can talk about racial tension and have a smoother conversion than talking about a blue fucking hedgehog and his games. This cannot be real. Fuck this fanbase. It's shit! Fucking shit! How dare I have an opinion!? How dare I enjoy something you don't!? How dare I fucking try something out for myself!? I should be a fucking sheep and go with whatever the fucking nostalgia goggled naysayers, fanboys and faux haters say huh?

You know it's even worse that it's some of my friends who've done this to me, just because I was excited for the game . Constantly told that I'm some sort of biased retard because I was looking forward to the game, mocked in my own fucking discord group for setting up rules so other who looked forward to the game including myself wouldn't be spoiled. Someone would actually spoil the game for others through meme pics mocking the game because they hated it. They did it really fucking obnoxiously too. En masse...

If it's not that, it's the general overabundance of shitposting like it's the second coming of christ. Meme this! Meme that! Meme here! Meme there! Lets put memes EVERYWHERE! But saying responding to a greeting like a polite adult? FUCKING NOPE! Let's just ignore that guy instead. Let's be needlessly passive aggressive to him all the time. Let's just say "SCREW THE RULES, I CAN INVITE WHOEVER I FUCKING WANT WITHOUT PERMISSION! PERSONAL DRAMA!? LET HIM DEAL WITH IT!" Let's ignore his interests all the fucking time and focus on their own instead of it being fair or something. How about we mock this guy's likes for Nintendo for example and label him shit he isn't. Lets ignore the guy and his friend who tried to help you from isolation and despair, and have the GALL to talk about how your friend is ignoring you when he needs help and how you "don't get it" while ignoring us! Hypocrite!

Then there's these fucking assignments that a driving me nuts with their ridiculous reference requirements with incoming deadlines. I'm trying so fucking hard goddamnit and I barely scrape it. Oh why don't we add the constant threats of being thrown out, accused of shit you didn't do by your own mother! How about the constant bouts of anxiety constantly making me question whether I'm sane for enjoying the things I do or if I'm just growing psychotic, or if I'm about to die, when I die, just death in fucking general!

Finally i just wonder, what would happen if I ended it? I'm just glad that I'm sane enough to shudder at that thought because I would like to live for a long time thank you...

I wonder....I try my best to help people despite me being really shit at sympathising and emoting and some that I know constantly repay me with shit! Why do I even bother!? I'm glad I have the few genuine friends who treat me the way they expect me to treat them. The others? Sometimes I think they can just go to hell for all I care but even that's pushing it for me.

Before I forget, I also had financial issues that I had to go through for two fucking months due to poor fucking management for the other side!", "writing": "", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "", "pools_count": 0, "title": "Basically how I feel now..", "deleted": "f", "public": "t", "mimetype": "image/gif", "pagecount": "1", "rating_id": "0", "rating_name": "General", "ratings": [], "submission_type_id": "1", "type_name": "Picture/Pinup", "guest_block": "t", "friends_only": "f", "comments_count": "0", "views": "17" }