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I want anyone who might be listening to understand that I am not posting this out of some spiteful intent, but rather, this was part of my experience, my feelings, and the portion of my life that it effected. I am entitled to my feelings, thoughts and experience and to grieve in my own way. We are creatures of complexity and the twists we take and lessons we learn are no less complex. Our existence is both tragic and beautiful.\n\nThank you for listening. \n\nInstrumentation:\n\nMe- Rainsong COWS 1100 carbon fiber guitar\nMy friend- Viol da gamba \nMe- Mandolin\nMe- vocals\n\nLyrics:\n\nWhat we once had was beautiful\nBut now that it's gone I see only dust\nYou know when I think of all the things I wanted to say\nAnd then when I think of all the games you used to play\n\nBut what ever happened to us?\nThings seemed so cold toward the end\nIt seemed that you'd changed and that something wasn't the same\nIt seemed that I had grown out of you some way\n\nYou know some nights, I still miss your touch\nBut all the things you said, well, they hurt so much\nAnd I can't say when I'm gonna be ok\nThere's a hole in my heart and it's shaped like you\n\nAnd now what we have isn't beautiful\nI look at your face and I only hurt\nAnd I feel so sad, hoped it would never get this bad\nI wanted to be good to you but, you could have helped too\n\nI cried every night for a week\nThey told me you were doing fine\nWell that's great for you\nBut that's not so great for me.\nI can't help but think that you never felt that much for me\n\nYou know some nights, I still miss your touch\nBut all the things you did, well, they hurt so much\nAnd I can't say when I'm gonna be ok\nThere's a hole in my heart and it's shaped like you\n\nThe old original version can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2538397/","description_bbcode_parsed":"I wrote this back on 10/2/2008.
Obviously, I had some things I was working through during this period, a lot of things.
The recent passing of someone brought this song back to mind as well as the feelings from way back then, though with an aged perspective that this pain helped build. I want anyone who might be listening to understand that I am not posting this out of some spiteful intent, but rather, this was part of my experience, my feelings, and the portion of my life that it effected. I am entitled to my feelings, thoughts and experience and to grieve in my own way. We are creatures of complexity and the twists we take and lessons we learn are no less complex. Our existence is both tragic and beautiful.
Thank you for listening.
Instrumentation:
Me- Rainsong COWS 1100 carbon fiber guitar
My friend- Viol da gamba
Me- Mandolin
Me- vocals
Lyrics:
What we once had was beautiful
But now that it's gone I see only dust
You know when I think of all the things I wanted to say
And then when I think of all the games you used to play
But what ever happened to us?
Things seemed so cold toward the end
It seemed that you'd changed and that something wasn't the same
It seemed that I had grown out of you some way
You know some nights, I still miss your touch
But all the things you said, well, they hurt so much
And I can't say when I'm gonna be ok
There's a hole in my heart and it's shaped like you
And now what we have isn't beautiful
I look at your face and I only hurt
And I feel so sad, hoped it would never get this bad
I wanted to be good to you but, you could have helped too
I cried every night for a week
They told me you were doing fine
Well that's great for you
But that's not so great for me.
I can't help but think that you never felt that much for me
You know some nights, I still miss your touch
But all the things you did, well, they hurt so much
And I can't say when I'm gonna be ok
There's a hole in my heart and it's shaped like you
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