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Summer of 1980 involved Summer School and Summer work as a life guard where I worked for the past 5 previous summers. Knowing that I have to work, anyone wanting to see me can go to the pool and become a major distraction to me and my job...\n\n\tBut for somebody who is considered as ``a nobody'' to many, I always seem to be the center of all their universal problems. Thus when Cathy and Grace meets, it is a war of will.\n\n- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -\n\nJuly 9th, 1980 - Tuesday. 11:30AM. Jefferson Pool by my High Chair Station at the diving pool, called ``The Pit.''\n\n\t``So if he would not have transferred to Tech and met up with me, you two would still be together?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``What makes you say that?'' Grace replies.\n\n\t``Ain't it obvious? As his girlfriend, you two would still be together. Not separated like you two are now.'' Cathy answers.\n\n\t``He being in Tech does not make us separated. It would not matter what school he went too, or what school I go to. It is not about the school, it is about us, it is about him and me.'' Grace tells her, adding ``If you do not see it, it is our parents that do not want us together.''\n\n\t``Why not?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``If he had have gotten you pregnant at a young age, would your parents want him to be anywhere near you? I would not think so.'' Grace tells her.\n\n\t``I would not know. My parents did not protect me in my young years, which lead me to be raped several times at a young age. And on a couple of those I was blamed in allowing it to happen.'' Cathy explains.\n\n\t``Blamed for allowing it to happen?'' Grace asks.\n\n\t``The clothes I wore, the situation I was in before it happened, who I was with, any and all those things and more to take blame away from them and put it on me.'' Cathy explains before looking away, ``It is not fair.''\n\n\tGrace looks at her for the moment, thinking what to say before saying it. All she could come up with is ``I understand.''\n\n\t``You ever been raped?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``No. But I can understand what you went through.'' Grace replies.\n\n\t``You could sympathize or empathize with what happened to me. But unless you were raped or molested by force, you would not understand.'' Cathy tells her.\n\n\tThough Grace understands Cathy's statement, she does not agree with it. She remains there in silent thinking for a reply that would not make her sound to stand-offish or patronizing. She can find nothing that would do that, forcing her to go back to her first question. ``You're right. I was just asking what your parents do if he had gotten you pregnant?''\n\n\t``I would not know.'' Cathy begins, ``If in a similar situation like yours, he would be supporting me and our children one way or another.''\n\n\t``Fair enough.'' Grace begins. ``What about seeing or dating you?''\n\n\t``If he was supporting me and our children, we would be dating, I think.'' Cathy answers.\n\n\t``That is the problem, my parents do not want him to see me unless it is when he giving me the support money for our children.'' Grace says.\n\n\t``They don't like him? Aren't you two Puerto Rican?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``They do not like what they think he did to me to have gotten me pregnant. Look, I'll be honest here - I was a very curious girl when I was young, and sexually active at a young age through him. I got pregnant because I pushed having sex with him one too many times. And that happened twice.'' Grace explains, ``I do not fault him for what happened. I do fault myself for having too much curiosity and not having self control.''\n\n\t``So you were a horny little bitch.'' Cathy tells her, ``We all were at one time or another and many still are.''\n\n\t``I have a reputation to maintain.'' Grace throws at her.\n\n\t``We all have a reputation to maintain. But that is not the problem. Me being his girlfriend is a problem to you. Is it not?'' Cathy says and asks.\n\n\t``It is not. Fernando and I have not been a couple in a long time. We have not dated, we have not even kissed in years.'' Grace tells her. She adds, ``If you want to be his girlfriend, you have my blessings. But to protect what we have, I will be part of his life as he has to be in mine.''\n\n\t``I understand.'' Cathy replies.\n\n\t``He's yours if you are willing to be his girlfriend. As you know, he has his problems but he will not make his problems your problems. And I suspect the distance of where you two live will be a burden to you both. He will not to be there for you on a phone call moment's notice, nor will you for him.'' Grace tells her.\n\n\t``I know that. But he has made his problems mine and has taken my problems and made them worst.'' Cathy replies.\n\n\t``What problems?'' Grace asks.\n\n\t``When we first met, I warned him that I have a jealous boyfriend, and that is my boyfriend finds out about him, that he would go after him. A few months after that, it has been an escalating war between them. I told Fernando that I might not be able to break up with him and that he would go after him. Since then it has been fight after fight between them. And I'm afraid that Fernando is going get hurt if it continues.'' Cathy explains.\n\n\t``Then I dare ask, why continue that relationship between you and Fernando?'' Grace asks.\n\n\tCathy sighs and thinks before giving her answer, ``Because Fernando is a friend. He has backed me up and helped me from situations most people would walk away from. As a friend, he is invaluable. Call me selfish or whatever, but in not having many friends, I want to keep what I have through him.''\n\n\t``You willing to drop your panties for him?'' Grace asks.\n\n\t``Excuse me?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``You know. You willing to drop your panties for him, as in are you willing to have sex with him?'' Grace asks.\n\n\t``Not now, as in what we have does not call for it. But if it comes to that, it is not a problem for me to do that. I mean, only out of love, not because it is for the team or something stupid like that.'' Cathy answers.\n\n\t``Don't take it as a negative, but because of his spinal injury one of four things can happen if you two manage to do it.'' Grace begins.\n\n\t``What things?'' Cathy interrupts.\n\n\t``This is based on what his doctors had told me when he was in the hospital from his injuries and I later experienced. Depending on how his spine is pressing against his spinal cord, first off, he might not get an erection, or an erection that he can't feel. Let me explain it this way - an erection happens because a rise in blood pressure in a man's body. In Fernando's case, that rise in blood pressure, it may not be beneficial for him. Second it may be normal with a normal libido that lasts for a typical length of time. Third, it may be premature, going off from minutes to seconds - again, because of how his spine is pressing against his spinal cord.'' Grace explains.\n\n\t``I can understand that, and I would do for him what I can to help him. But you said four things, what's the fourth?'' Cathy says and asks.\n\n\t``The fourth is, don't be expecting it all the time, but, let's just say, he could end up outlasting you.'' Grace answers.\n\n\t``What...?'' Cathy lets out.\n\n\t``Uhm... you know. You might end up in a non-stop sex marathon with him.'' Grace begins. She adds, ``But I will say, that's rare when it happens. The issue is again, how his spine presses against his spinal cord. So don't be expecting, because chances are it may not happen if it happens at all.''\n\n\t``How many times has it, you know, happened to you with him?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``Mind you, we only done it a few times since his spinal injury and before he transferred to Tech.'' Grace begins. She continues as she counts on her fingers, ``Out of those times, one in three times. I mean we only done it about ten times, about once a month and out of that it only happened three times.''\n\n\t``When was the last time you two did it?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\tGrace sighs, though does not want to give Cathy such recent activities, so she lies about it, ``October of two years ago, when he transferred to Tech.''\n\n\tCathy tries to hide her guilty look as that was when she and Fernando met up and became friends, not knowing that it may have taken a toll against any other relationship he may have been having.\n\n\t``Look, just because we had sex, did not mean we were boyfriend and girlfriend.'' Grace adds in. She lets out a sigh before continuing, ``Our parents did not want us to be together as such and we were to be more as friends than boyfriend/girlfriend just like we are today.''\n\n\t``I see...'' Cathy replies.\n\n\t``Being his girlfriend was never my intention. First of like I said, my parents would have never allowed it. Second, I wanted us to be friends, being his girlfriend and having sex would have ruined that, and in a way I have ruined what we have even though we remain as friends right now.'' Grace explains.\n\n\t``Ruined, as in?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``Ruined as in having certain expectations and demanding of sex when we end up with some alone time, which we were not supposed to have.'' Grace answers.\n\n\t``He's hawking you for sex? Why I oughta...'' Cathy begins.\n\n\t``No. It is I that am hawking him for sex.'' Grace explains.\n\n\t``What... You were?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``I do not know if you and he did anything or not, but if you have, you noticed that you had to make the first move on him?'' Grace asks.\n\n\t``Well, yes.'' Cathy replies.\n\n\t``It is like that with me and him. He is in his way shy, shy about intimacy because of his past experiences not being positive or favorable ones.'' Grace explains.\n\n\t``Wait. Your girls stated that he had a relationship with his cousins, and they still would have if they had not moved away last year.'' Cathy points out.\n\n\t``Sophie and Maria? Well, they have known each other longer than he and I have for one. And in that point, in being together for so long, they were not shy about their relationship.'' Grace tells her.\n\n\t``So, they fucked? I mean, if you know?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``They have. According to him it was not something they went out to do all the time and it was rare that they did it, but according to the girls, they fucked all the time. But I can see a difference in both their admission, he was counting all those times in which they had penis penetrating sex, while they were counting foreplay and oral sex as sex along with the actual sex they had.'' Grace explains.\n\n\t``So he had sex with his cousins?'' Cathy asks, making a sourpuss face.\n\n\t``They are distantly related, and they were friends before they were found to be related.'' Grace explains.\n\n\t``How distantly related are they?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``Well, let's see if I can get this straight... They are connected through a great grandmother and her sister, so this would make them third cousins I believe.'' Grace tries to figure it out.\n\n\t``Then it's not incest past second cousins.'' Cathy points out.\n\n\t``I know that but what are you trying to say?'' Grace asks.\n\n\t``You know - some guys are stupid to go after their sisters for sex. A cousin would be a better target because she is not at their home.'' Cathy explains herself.\n\n\t``I know girls who were raped by their own brothers and cousins.'' Grace tells her, adding ``One of Fernando's past girlfriend was raped repeatedly by her brothers until she ran away from home...''\n\n\t``Those fucking animals.'' Cathy says to herself. She then changes mood and tone asking, ``What happened to the girl?''\n\n\t``She moved to Philadelphia, which basically killed their relationship. Knowing them during that time, Fernando was a very nice to her, not demanding to her in any way. He took her out to movies, bought her things that she needed, he even tried to have Grandma move her into the house to keep her off the streets but she said no.'' Grace explains.\n\n\t``Keep her off the streets?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``Her brothers were the leading members of the Black Spades gang and were into drug dealing, prostitution, extortion, murder for hire, you name it - they did it. And they beaten up and raped the girl almost every day and tried to get her to prostitute herself for money and could not go home if she had not made any money. Long story short, she found a friend that would keep her in her place until things got better for her. She then went to Philadelphia after that.'' Grace explains.\n\n\tCathy tries to hide her shock and awe because it is too similar with Randal and his family's connection to the Black Mafia in Brooklyn. She tries to change the subject, ``How many girlfriends has he had?''\n\n\t``As he explained it, counting me as one, you are number 11 as I am number 10.'' Grace answers. She pauses for a second, ``He did say that he met a couple of his past girlfriends in your school. A Redhead girl named Rachel and a Chinese girl named Sue, I think.''\n\n\t``Rachel Rodriguez? She graduated with John and the other seniors this year. The only Chinese girl I know is chasing him is a young sophomore named Jeanie.'' Cathy explains.\n\n \n\n\t``Jeanie?'' Grace asks.\n\n\t``She's a Chinese girl he rescued from drowning in swimming class last term and she's been hounding him since.'' Cathy explains.\n\n\t``Hmmm. He did not tell me anything about saving some girl from drowning in swimming class.'' Grace replies.\n\n\t``Anyways, this other Chinese girl, what you know of her?'' Cathy asks.\n\n\t``As far as they told me, they have known each other since kindergarten. Being the only Chinese girl in the school she was bullied by the black kids, and Fernando stepped up to stop the bullying and they have been friends on and off ever since. I know that they separated after Jr. High School when Fernando went to Julia Richman, but they meet again when he transferred to Tech. He says that she works in the bookroom.'' Grace explains.\n\n\t``Bookroom? Wait. I work in the bookroom. What does she look like? There are so many Chinese students in the bookroom.'' Cathy throws back.\n\n\t``Well, she's short, shorter than more girls I know. Let's see... she's would come up to Fernando's shoulders. And she has shorter than shoulder length hair. I would not know how she is now but when I saw her in Jr. High School, she was skinny and flat-chested when most of us girls were developed or developing.'' Grace says.\n\n\t``Sue...'' Cathy begins to herself, ``I wonder if it is that girl they call Susie. Sounds like her. So she's knew Fernando since Kindergarten? But she has a boyfriend now, if it is Susie. Any chance you know where she lives?''\n\n\t``Right now? Canton China, her family goes there every summer and she goes with them, and she comes back before school starts.'' Grace answers.\n\n\t``At least he won't be messing around with her during the summer.'' Cathy says with a relaxed voice.\n\n\t``What about that Jeanie girl you spoke off?'' Grace throws in.\n\n\t``I do not know much about her. She is not part of the bookroom squad, I only seen her a few times and had to tell her to stay away from Fernando because she is so clingy on him. All I know is that she is in the tenth grade.'' Cathy complains.\n\n\t``Here I am worried about losing Fernando to you and instead find out that you might lose him to a young Chinese girl.'' Grace throws at her.\n\n\t``But you said that you gave your blessings if I were to continue with him...'' 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\tThese two girls, Grace C. and Cathy T. are at odds with each other because of me. One wants me as a friend, and the other wants me as an answer to all her problems, and both could put me in a situation where I could be killed if things went wrong. Summer of 1980 involved Summer School and Summer work as a life guard where I worked for the past 5 previous summers. Knowing that I have to work, anyone wanting to see me can go to the pool and become a major distraction to me and my job...

\tBut for somebody who is considered as ``a nobody'' to many, I always seem to be the center of all their universal problems. Thus when Cathy and Grace meets, it is a war of will.

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July 9th, 1980 - Tuesday. 11:30AM. Jefferson Pool by my High Chair Station at the diving pool, called ``The Pit.''

\t``So if he would not have transferred to Tech and met up with me, you two would still be together?'' Cathy asks.

\t``What makes you say that?'' Grace replies.

\t``Ain't it obvious? As his girlfriend, you two would still be together. Not separated like you two are now.'' Cathy answers.

\t``He being in Tech does not make us separated. It would not matter what school he went too, or what school I go to. It is not about the school, it is about us, it is about him and me.'' Grace tells her, adding ``If you do not see it, it is our parents that do not want us together.''

\t``Why not?'' Cathy asks.

\t``If he had have gotten you pregnant at a young age, would your parents want him to be anywhere near you? I would not think so.'' Grace tells her.

\t``I would not know. My parents did not protect me in my young years, which lead me to be raped several times at a young age. And on a couple of those I was blamed in allowing it to happen.'' Cathy explains.

\t``Blamed for allowing it to happen?'' Grace asks.

\t``The clothes I wore, the situation I was in before it happened, who I was with, any and all those things and more to take blame away from them and put it on me.'' Cathy explains before looking away, ``It is not fair.''

\tGrace looks at her for the moment, thinking what to say before saying it. All she could come up with is ``I understand.''

\t``You ever been raped?'' Cathy asks.

\t``No. But I can understand what you went through.'' Grace replies.

\t``You could sympathize or empathize with what happened to me. But unless you were raped or molested by force, you would not understand.'' Cathy tells her.

\tThough Grace understands Cathy's statement, she does not agree with it. She remains there in silent thinking for a reply that would not make her sound to stand-offish or patronizing. She can find nothing that would do that, forcing her to go back to her first question. ``You're right. I was just asking what your parents do if he had gotten you pregnant?''

\t``I would not know.'' Cathy begins, ``If in a similar situation like yours, he would be supporting me and our children one way or another.''

\t``Fair enough.'' Grace begins. ``What about seeing or dating you?''

\t``If he was supporting me and our children, we would be dating, I think.'' Cathy answers.

\t``That is the problem, my parents do not want him to see me unless it is when he giving me the support money for our children.'' Grace says.

\t``They don't like him? Aren't you two Puerto Rican?'' Cathy asks.

\t``They do not like what they think he did to me to have gotten me pregnant. Look, I'll be honest here - I was a very curious girl when I was young, and sexually active at a young age through him. I got pregnant because I pushed having sex with him one too many times. And that happened twice.'' Grace explains, ``I do not fault him for what happened. I do fault myself for having too much curiosity and not having self control.''

\t``So you were a horny little bitch.'' Cathy tells her, ``We all were at one time or another and many still are.''

\t``I have a reputation to maintain.'' Grace throws at her.

\t``We all have a reputation to maintain. But that is not the problem. Me being his girlfriend is a problem to you. Is it not?'' Cathy says and asks.

\t``It is not. Fernando and I have not been a couple in a long time. We have not dated, we have not even kissed in years.'' Grace tells her. She adds, ``If you want to be his girlfriend, you have my blessings. But to protect what we have, I will be part of his life as he has to be in mine.''

\t``I understand.'' Cathy replies.

\t``He's yours if you are willing to be his girlfriend. As you know, he has his problems but he will not make his problems your problems. And I suspect the distance of where you two live will be a burden to you both. He will not to be there for you on a phone call moment's notice, nor will you for him.'' Grace tells her.

\t``I know that. But he has made his problems mine and has taken my problems and made them worst.'' Cathy replies.

\t``What problems?'' Grace asks.

\t``When we first met, I warned him that I have a jealous boyfriend, and that is my boyfriend finds out about him, that he would go after him. A few months after that, it has been an escalating war between them. I told Fernando that I might not be able to break up with him and that he would go after him. Since then it has been fight after fight between them. And I'm afraid that Fernando is going get hurt if it continues.'' Cathy explains.

\t``Then I dare ask, why continue that relationship between you and Fernando?''  Grace asks.

\tCathy sighs and thinks before giving her answer, ``Because Fernando is a friend. He has backed me up and helped me from situations most people would walk away from. As a friend, he is invaluable. Call me selfish or whatever, but in not having many friends, I want to keep what I have through him.''

\t``You willing to drop your panties for him?'' Grace asks.

\t``Excuse me?'' Cathy asks.

\t``You know. You willing to drop your panties for him, as in are you willing to have sex with him?'' Grace asks.

\t``Not now, as in what we have does not call for it. But if it comes to that, it is not a problem for me to do that. I mean, only out of love, not because it is for the team or something stupid like that.'' Cathy answers.

\t``Don't take it as a negative, but because of his spinal injury one of four things can happen if you two manage to do it.'' Grace begins.

\t``What things?'' Cathy interrupts.

\t``This is based on what his doctors had told me when he was in the hospital from his injuries and I later experienced. Depending on how his spine is pressing against his spinal cord, first off, he might not get an erection, or an erection that he can't feel. Let me explain it this way - an erection happens because a rise in blood pressure in a man's body. In Fernando's case, that rise in blood pressure, it may not be beneficial for him. Second it may be normal with a normal libido that lasts for a typical length of time. Third, it may be premature, going off from minutes to seconds - again, because of how his spine is pressing against his spinal cord.'' Grace explains.

\t``I can understand that, and I would do for him what I can to help him. But you said four things, what's the fourth?'' Cathy says and asks.

\t``The fourth is, don't be expecting it all the time, but, let's just say, he could end up outlasting you.'' Grace answers.

\t``What...?'' Cathy lets out.

\t``Uhm... you know. You might end up in a non-stop sex marathon with him.'' Grace begins. She adds, ``But I will say, that's rare when it happens. The issue is again, how his spine presses against his spinal cord. So don't be expecting, because chances are it may not happen if it happens at all.''

\t``How many times has it, you know, happened to you with him?'' Cathy asks.

\t``Mind you, we only done it a few times since his spinal injury and before he transferred to Tech.'' Grace begins. She continues as she counts on her fingers, ``Out of those times, one in three times. I mean we only done it about ten times, about once a month and out of that it only happened three times.''

\t``When was the last time you two did it?'' Cathy asks.

\tGrace sighs, though does not want to give Cathy such recent activities, so she lies about it, ``October of two years ago, when he transferred to Tech.''

\tCathy tries to hide her guilty look as that was when she and Fernando met up and became friends, not knowing that it may have taken a toll against any other relationship he may have been having.

\t``Look, just because we had sex, did not mean we were boyfriend and girlfriend.'' Grace adds in. She lets out a sigh before continuing, ``Our parents did not want us to be together as such and we were to be more as friends than boyfriend/girlfriend just like we are today.''

\t``I see...'' Cathy replies.

\t``Being his girlfriend was never my intention. First of like I said, my parents would have never allowed it. Second, I wanted us to be friends, being his girlfriend and having sex would have ruined that, and in a way I have ruined what we have even though we remain as friends right now.'' Grace explains.

\t``Ruined, as in?'' Cathy asks.

\t``Ruined as in having certain expectations and demanding of sex when we end up with some alone time, which we were not supposed to have.'' Grace answers.

\t``He's hawking you for sex? Why I oughta...'' Cathy begins.

\t``No. It is I that am hawking him for sex.'' Grace explains.

\t``What... You were?'' Cathy asks.

\t``I do not know if you and he did anything or not, but if you have, you noticed that you had to make the first move on him?'' Grace asks.

\t``Well, yes.'' Cathy replies.

\t``It is like that with me and him. He is in his way shy, shy about intimacy because of his past experiences not being positive or favorable ones.'' Grace explains.

\t``Wait. Your girls stated that he had a relationship with his cousins, and they still would have if they had not moved away last year.'' Cathy points out.

\t``Sophie and Maria? Well, they have known each other longer than he and I have for one. And in that point, in being together for so long, they were not shy about their relationship.'' Grace tells her.

\t``So, they fucked? I mean, if you know?'' Cathy asks.

\t``They have. According to him it was not something they went out to do all the time and it was rare that they did it, but according to the girls, they fucked all the time. But I can see a difference in both their admission, he was counting all those times in which they had penis penetrating sex, while they were counting foreplay and oral sex as sex along with the actual sex they had.'' Grace explains.

\t``So he had sex with his cousins?'' Cathy asks, making a sourpuss face.

\t``They are distantly related, and they were friends before they were found to be related.'' Grace explains.

\t``How distantly related are they?'' Cathy asks.

\t``Well, let's see if I can get this straight... They are connected through a great grandmother and her sister, so this would make them third cousins I believe.'' Grace tries to figure it out.

\t``Then it's not incest past second cousins.'' Cathy points out.

\t``I know that but what are you trying to say?'' Grace asks.

\t``You know - some guys are stupid to go after their sisters for sex. A cousin would be a better target because she is not at their home.'' Cathy explains herself.

\t``I know girls who were raped by their own brothers and cousins.'' Grace tells her, adding ``One of Fernando's past girlfriend was raped repeatedly by her brothers until she ran away from home...''

\t``Those fucking animals.'' Cathy says to herself. She then changes mood and tone asking, ``What happened to the girl?''

\t``She moved to Philadelphia, which basically killed their relationship. Knowing them during that time, Fernando was a very nice to her, not demanding to her in any way. He took her out to movies, bought her things that she needed, he even tried to have Grandma move her into the house to keep her off the streets but she said no.'' Grace explains.

\t``Keep her off the streets?'' Cathy asks.

\t``Her brothers were the leading members of the Black Spades gang and were into drug dealing, prostitution, extortion, murder for hire, you name it - they did it. And they beaten up and raped the girl almost every day and tried to get her to prostitute herself for money and could not go home if she had not made any money. Long story short, she found a friend that would keep her in her place until things got better for her. She then went to Philadelphia after that.'' Grace explains.

\tCathy tries to hide her shock and awe because it is too similar with Randal and his family's connection to the Black Mafia in Brooklyn. She tries to change the subject, ``How many girlfriends has he had?''

\t``As he explained it, counting me as one, you are number 11 as I am number 10.'' Grace answers. She pauses for a second, ``He did say that he met a couple of his past girlfriends in your school. A Redhead girl named Rachel and a Chinese girl named Sue, I think.''

\t``Rachel Rodriguez? She graduated with John and the other seniors this year. The only Chinese girl I know is chasing him is a young sophomore named Jeanie.'' Cathy explains.

 

\t``Jeanie?'' Grace asks.

\t``She's a Chinese girl he rescued from drowning in swimming class last term and she's been hounding him since.'' Cathy explains.

\t``Hmmm. He did not tell me anything about saving some girl from drowning in swimming class.'' Grace replies.

\t``Anyways, this other Chinese girl, what you know of her?'' Cathy asks.

\t``As far as they told me, they have known each other since kindergarten. Being the only Chinese girl in the school she was bullied by the black kids, and Fernando stepped up to stop the bullying and they have been friends on and off ever since. I know that they separated after Jr. High School when Fernando went to Julia Richman, but they meet again when he transferred to Tech. He says that she works in the bookroom.'' Grace explains.

\t``Bookroom? Wait. I work in the bookroom. What does she look like? There are so many Chinese students in the bookroom.'' Cathy throws back.

\t``Well, she's short, shorter than more girls I know. Let's see... she's would come up to Fernando's shoulders. And she has shorter than shoulder length hair. I would not know how she is now but when I saw her in Jr. High School, she was skinny and flat-chested when most of us girls were developed or developing.'' Grace says.

\t``Sue...'' Cathy begins to herself, ``I wonder if it is that girl they call Susie. Sounds like her. So she's knew Fernando since Kindergarten? But she has a boyfriend now, if it is Susie. Any chance you know where she lives?''

\t``Right now? Canton China, her family goes there every summer and she goes with them, and she comes back before school starts.'' Grace answers.

\t``At least he won't be messing around with her during the summer.'' Cathy says with a relaxed voice.

\t``What about that Jeanie girl you spoke off?'' Grace throws in.

\t``I do not know much about her. She is not part of the bookroom squad, I only seen her a few times and had to tell her to stay away from Fernando because she is so clingy on him. All I know is that she is in the tenth grade.'' Cathy complains.

\t``Here I am worried about losing Fernando to you and instead find out that you might lose him to a young Chinese girl.'' Grace throws at her.

\t``But you said that you gave your blessings if I were to continue with him...'' Cathy replies.

\t``Fernando may not be my boyfriend and I may not be his girlfriend but we do have a family to support and take care of and I am not going to let any girl out there take him away from his responsibilities of raising his girls. You can be his girlfriend, but for our daughters he has to step away from you and be a father to them.'' Grace tells her.

\tCathy sighs, ``I completely understand.''

\tNothing is said for a moment as the events around them continue as if they did not exist. Grace thinks as time passed by to try to word her next question without seeming to step on Cathy's toes. But it is a very sensitive question to ask, and she cannot hold back on asking.

\t``I need to ask a very personal question. A question that involves you and him.'' Grace tells her.

\t``Thinking she has the answer to everything, Cathy replies, ``Go ahead and ask.''

\t``How can you have Fernando as a boyfriend if you already have a boyfriend with that Randal guy?'' Grace asks.

\tCathy is stunned into silence.

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