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Please don't feel offended by any of this, this goes specifically, to all the people that i\"ve poured my heart and soul into, just to get kicked in the floor by them. \nI've found a lot of comfort in this site and community, please keep on being awesome <3\n-------------------------------\nMost of you don't know exactly how close I am to this character. Kayla means too much for me, for many, quite strong reasons. Funny, coming from someone who pretty much sells her body for money, right? XD\nLet's not get into that for this time. \nDo take my word for it though, Kayla, what she represents, the idea she actually embodies, that I created to pretty much help myself, has helped me more than any actual person I can think of, aside from the one's I've paid for help. \nShe is strong, she is positive, she is happy and free. Always capable of cheering up people, without falling herself, always bold, always intelligent and logical, while retaining her emotions as pure as one's should be. She is the best, she is me at my best, best that's eternally been left unseen, she is what I want to be, she helped me at my worst, and carried me at my best.\nOh how fun, how can a 2d animal-person mean so much to someone? is my mind derranged? am I insane?\nI know for a fact, that I'm not. \nBut then comes the problem. She doesn't cry, why do I? She smiles, why can't I?, but, would you look at how tables turn... what do you see here? She's smiling, she's being herself and free. What's the problem, and why does it hurt me so much to see her like that?\nWhy has it come to the point where I needed to represent my most beloved idea, like this? \nShe is exhausted. I am exhausted.\nThe best of the best, also need a rest sometimes.\nThere are no superhumans, we pour so much, just asking for so little, and not even that \"little\" comes to be. I look up to Kayla as someone I want to become, someone \"perfect\", you could say. \nBut even the best of the best, need a rest sometimes!\nlife will go on, sure. \nBut we are loosing it. \nThe one thing I hold on to, the one shoulder I cry on, is exhausted, she is crying.\nBecause even the best of the best,\nthey sometimes break. \nThey break, and need a shoulder to cry on for themselves. But then why is it that there's none to be seen? Is it cause we all look at our \"perfect\", as something or someone unreachable, that we become so useless and just sit there waiting for someone to offer just a little bit of their patience? \nBut people are too proud.\ntoo self centered,\ntoo stupid.\nthey don't stop and think about their actions, they just think about their needs. And not even \"needs\", just useless trash that they could throw away just for a second, give it away just once, for the sake of one of us! \nbut no. \"I want, I need, I will be happy if....\" and then to hell with everyone else.\nFucking morrons, look at what you did to me, and what you did to my most precious love. \nUsless, disgusting weak people, grow some consideration for once.\nI hate you so much. I hate you for doing this, even though its my fault.\nAnd I will not forget. I may forgive, but wont ever forget. I hope I see you in hell once I'm there. \n-----------------------------\nPlease bear in mind my beloved followers, this has NOTHING to do with YOU. Please don't feel offended by any of this, this goes specifically, to all the people that i\"ve poured my heart and soul into, just to get kicked in the floor by them. \nI've found a lot of comfort in this site and community, please keep on being awesome <3\n-------------------------------\n","description_bbcode_parsed":"Please bear in mind my beloved followers, this has NOTHING to do with YOU. Please don't feel offended by any of this, this goes specifically, to all the people that i"ve poured my heart and soul into, just to get kicked in the floor by them.
I've found a lot of comfort in this site and community, please keep on being awesome <3
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Most of you don't know exactly how close I am to this character. Kayla means too much for me, for many, quite strong reasons. Funny, coming from someone who pretty much sells her body for money, right? XD
Let's not get into that for this time.
Do take my word for it though, Kayla, what she represents, the idea she actually embodies, that I created to pretty much help myself, has helped me more than any actual person I can think of, aside from the one's I've paid for help.
She is strong, she is positive, she is happy and free. Always capable of cheering up people, without falling herself, always bold, always intelligent and logical, while retaining her emotions as pure as one's should be. She is the best, she is me at my best, best that's eternally been left unseen, she is what I want to be, she helped me at my worst, and carried me at my best.
Oh how fun, how can a 2d animal-person mean so much to someone? is my mind derranged? am I insane?
I know for a fact, that I'm not.
But then comes the problem. She doesn't cry, why do I? She smiles, why can't I?, but, would you look at how tables turn... what do you see here? She's smiling, she's being herself and free. What's the problem, and why does it hurt me so much to see her like that?
Why has it come to the point where I needed to represent my most beloved idea, like this?
She is exhausted. I am exhausted.
The best of the best, also need a rest sometimes.
There are no superhumans, we pour so much, just asking for so little, and not even that "little" comes to be. I look up to Kayla as someone I want to become, someone "perfect", you could say.
But even the best of the best, need a rest sometimes!
life will go on, sure.
But we are loosing it.
The one thing I hold on to, the one shoulder I cry on, is exhausted, she is crying.
Because even the best of the best,
they sometimes break.
They break, and need a shoulder to cry on for themselves. But then why is it that there's none to be seen? Is it cause we all look at our "perfect", as something or someone unreachable, that we become so useless and just sit there waiting for someone to offer just a little bit of their patience?
But people are too proud.
too self centered,
too stupid.
they don't stop and think about their actions, they just think about their needs. And not even "needs", just useless trash that they could throw away just for a second, give it away just once, for the sake of one of us!
but no. "I want, I need, I will be happy if...." and then to hell with everyone else.
Fucking morrons, look at what you did to me, and what you did to my most precious love.
Usless, disgusting weak people, grow some consideration for once.
I hate you so much. I hate you for doing this, even though its my fault.
And I will not forget. I may forgive, but wont ever forget. I hope I see you in hell once I'm there.
-----------------------------
Please bear in mind my beloved followers, this has NOTHING to do with YOU. Please don't feel offended by any of this, this goes specifically, to all the people that i"ve poured my heart and soul into, just to get kicked in the floor by them.
I've found a lot of comfort in this site and community, please keep on being awesome <3
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