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In regards to myself I've often felt the pressures of being watched and heard when I've wanted to hide, communities and societies getting louder and louder that makes me crave for silence. I have tinnitus so I wouldn't even be able to hear silence but I've dreamt of it. Sometimes I feel like I hear soft static like my mind is trying to fade everything out, it always leaves me with this empty feeling though. I liked scary stories and movies because it was so novelty in comparison to real dread.

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