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Or so I feel as so. I thought perhaps a journal can accompany a drawing as a way to sum it up, context behind subject matter like I learned from art history. So I keep puzzling over whether doing commissions for other people is ever right for me... I'm considering to again avoid contact with my loved ones or school peers or my former teachers in Facebook, like every other year, so again I don't get distracted from my duty to finish that three year commission. If I for once finish this commission, I would never ever have to touch another commission during my lifetime, or so I think based on my heart after experience during my existence here. All I could do is just pour out a doodle and say something even in a harsh time of the artistic block; the holidays do drain me. I feel angry but at the same time I feel like a zombie... Like in every other vacation. Why is that? Is it because of the Inauguration approaching so every artist will have to submit to every patron? There could be the next set of \"culture wars\" like in the 80's when graffiti-ers and many developing groups outside the cultural majority in the US speak out in spite of prejudice and discrimination; as I said, however, obstacles of bias can also serve to inject motivation for creative diversity. Unless this site can include a feature to block keyword-based pica for the safety of each and every individual watcher out there, and may the username do the same to contribute respectively keywords do they won't ever have to face another threat of termination of a relationship or just many reports to remove such content just because it doesn't appeal to them... getting sidetracked,... I will just keep myself under marginalization. I feel I don't have the total creative freedom and control, and at the same time I fear to take another commission or tend to be overprotective against newcomers just in case they do PM me one day, like a vet cocking his gun. One top of that, even when production my likely increase, so a fellow told me by their heart, where every furry artist will yield to conservative industrial motives of artmaking, in which extrinsic values dominated over intrinsic ones, albeit I still lack knowledge of a transaction platform, let alone take advantage of the opportunity, I wouldn't ever touch a dollar. I'm not that kind of an artist, just let me be for a while, so my OWN heart says. There is always an irony to an outcome when I move one to a change of mind, so I keep on believing under evolutionary terms... Art is all I can think about, and I haven't ate all taken advantage to explore for careers, for animation industry has \"ups and downs\". I haven't talked to my folks because I feel I may burden them, it even my dear fellow online, because I may burden them. I get one of those \"how will there lives turn out if I was never born\" thoughts after an immediate trace of self-doubt before I could execute something in a typical scenario.\nIt happens. \n[s]Anyway, now that it's out of the way (\"I'm surprised they still watch you\"...it stuck to my mind... ), and I HAVE to make a ref sheet out of my wyvern character first (my golly! $%@#)[/s]\n...LOL So like any other I have set, it's gonna be a simple Winsor&Newton® Cotman™ sketch and on a trimmed coldpress with a different brand seeing that although it's cold out here and I'm very short on cash (still want that bottle of ox gall liquid so I can finally attend to that three year commission)... anamorphic ratio. \nFreedom of artistic expression resides on. Yet I will gladly decline another commission or donation if my actions seem to spark a cloud of thought...\nThis is also one of those \"for old times sake\" the \"one last time and I'm quitting cold turkey\" moments before the change in my life begins to occur, however surreal the context appears to the viewer/reader.\nSo it's been a while since my last submission, and I am alive. Again I should be open to suggestions.\nI pray for just a good outcome and a spark of light upon my course here.\n[b]So Pfræyp here is walking onto a thin red stripy sidewalk on which he can only land around a massive white space. The critical pointer is that he cannot actually off the stripe for it has eroded to that size. He is close to his doom. It's all up to him to keep balanced, lest he will forget about his motives and thereby lose all honor he has left from this point in time.[/b]","description_bbcode_parsed":"Working title: (Pfræyp Walking in the) Marginalization Sidewalk Mark.
Based on cathartic theme
A Cranky Cacophonies concept to be hopefully done on watercolor.
I haven't been active since my controversy had befallen me, and as usual I may have lost the privilege to vent anymore... Or so I feel as so. I thought perhaps a journal can accompany a drawing as a way to sum it up, context behind subject matter like I learned from art history. So I keep puzzling over whether doing commissions for other people is ever right for me... I'm considering to again avoid contact with my loved ones or school peers or my former teachers in Facebook, like every other year, so again I don't get distracted from my duty to finish that three year commission. If I for once finish this commission, I would never ever have to touch another commission during my lifetime, or so I think based on my heart after experience during my existence here. All I could do is just pour out a doodle and say something even in a harsh time of the artistic block; the holidays do drain me. I feel angry but at the same time I feel like a zombie... Like in every other vacation. Why is that? Is it because of the Inauguration approaching so every artist will have to submit to every patron? There could be the next set of "culture wars" like in the 80's when graffiti-ers and many developing groups outside the cultural majority in the US speak out in spite of prejudice and discrimination; as I said, however, obstacles of bias can also serve to inject motivation for creative diversity. Unless this site can include a feature to block keyword-based pica for the safety of each and every individual watcher out there, and may the username do the same to contribute respectively keywords do they won't ever have to face another threat of termination of a relationship or just many reports to remove such content just because it doesn't appeal to them... getting sidetracked,... I will just keep myself under marginalization. I feel I don't have the total creative freedom and control, and at the same time I fear to take another commission or tend to be overprotective against newcomers just in case they do PM me one day, like a vet cocking his gun. One top of that, even when production my likely increase, so a fellow told me by their heart, where every furry artist will yield to conservative industrial motives of artmaking, in which extrinsic values dominated over intrinsic ones, albeit I still lack knowledge of a transaction platform, let alone take advantage of the opportunity, I wouldn't ever touch a dollar. I'm not that kind of an artist, just let me be for a while, so my OWN heart says. There is always an irony to an outcome when I move one to a change of mind, so I keep on believing under evolutionary terms... Art is all I can think about, and I haven't ate all taken advantage to explore for careers, for animation industry has "ups and downs". I haven't talked to my folks because I feel I may burden them, it even my dear fellow online, because I may burden them. I get one of those "how will there lives turn out if I was never born" thoughts after an immediate trace of self-doubt before I could execute something in a typical scenario.
It happens.
Anyway, now that it's out of the way ("I'm surprised they still watch you"...it stuck to my mind... ), and I HAVE to make a ref sheet out of my wyvern character first (my golly! $%@#)
...LOL So like any other I have set, it's gonna be a simple Winsor&Newton® Cotman™ sketch and on a trimmed coldpress with a different brand seeing that although it's cold out here and I'm very short on cash (still want that bottle of ox gall liquid so I can finally attend to that three year commission)... anamorphic ratio.
Freedom of artistic expression resides on. Yet I will gladly decline another commission or donation if my actions seem to spark a cloud of thought...
This is also one of those "for old times sake" the "one last time and I'm quitting cold turkey" moments before the change in my life begins to occur, however surreal the context appears to the viewer/reader.
So it's been a while since my last submission, and I am alive. Again I should be open to suggestions.
I pray for just a good outcome and a spark of light upon my course here.
So Pfræyp here is walking onto a thin red stripy sidewalk on which he can only land around a massive white space. The critical pointer is that he cannot actually off the stripe for it has eroded to that size. He is close to his doom. It's all up to him to keep balanced, lest he will forget about his motives and thereby lose all honor he has left from this point in time.","writing":"","writing_bbcode_parsed":"","pools_count":0,"title":"Pfraeyp Margin WIP","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"image/jpeg","pagecount":"1","rating_id":"0","rating_name":"General","ratings":[],"submission_type_id":"1","type_name":"Picture/Pinup","guest_block":"f","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"0","views":"8","sales_description":null,"forsale":"f","digitalsales":"f","printsales":"f","digital_price":""}