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The undoing of seals when you love is lost, trust broken, and loyalty nowhere to be seen&hellip; Power takes over, inflicting more wounds much deeper than desired&hellip; Greed sets in, you block off everyone and hold onto your possessions for your life, grasping for things that dont belong to you&hellip; Envy, feeding into your jealousy, thoughts stir in your mind telling you they belong to you and no one else can have them&hellip; The poison of your mind slowly taking over your actions, corruption seeping into the once pure heart you used to hold close to you&hellip;<br /><br />Shutting out your senses. you replay things over and over in your mind only taking you back to the same place&hellip;<br /><br />Close your eyes he whispers&hellip;<br /><br />Your lids grow heavy&hellip;<br /><br />The light dims&hellip;<br /><br />Darkness&hellip;<br /><br />`~`~`<br /><br />above is more just dramatic context to add to flavor of the art ;)<br /><br />If you dont know enough to make sense of whats going on, you can check out this link to my seal or ask me about it in the comments ;)<br /><a href=\"http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10505934/\" rel=\"nofollow\">http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10505934/</a><br /><br />`~`~`<br /><br />Art &copy; Ceowolf<br />Characters &copy; Ceowolf<br /><br />`~`~`<br /><br />First things first. This vent art was started at the beginning of the breakup when I was feeling in my lowest point. It no longer represents my feelings but is still a powerful piece.<br /><br /><br />So this is going to be somewhat long of a post&hellip; Or short I dont know yet I&rsquo;m just throwing words at the page right now&hellip;.<br /><br />Pretty much if you haven&rsquo;t noticed from the art is of me and the subject heartache. For those who dont know yet my BF and I broke up. I&rsquo;m not going to go into detail on this but if you want to know more about it you can contact me and if unpressured and willing I may tell you more about the situation.<br /><br />Don&rsquo;t try to give me your pity, I don&rsquo;t want to hear &ldquo;you poor thing&rdquo; and &ldquo;it will get better&rdquo; kind of comments, its a thing that happened and I&rsquo;m moving forward with things best I can. Mostly I just need the social support to pull me up when I&rsquo;m feeling down, to be there for me if I need to talk, or just some pleasant conversation.<br /><br />If you wish to offer advice, just know that one of my biggest pet peeves is if you try and compare one like problem or experience to another because each problem holds its own weight to each person and no situation is ever the same. Sympathy for having a similar problem is fine but dont try to compare them.<br /><br />As far as the breakup goes, there were events that lead up to the breakup, but in turn ultimately we both were not getting what we wanted out of the relationship and thus it came to a close. We are still quite close and maybe in the future things might rekindle but as for now we dont have labels anymore and he has moved out.<br /><br />That being said November was pretty much a write off&hellip; I didn&rsquo;t accomplish much of anything trying to make it through the days of heartache as well as a bunch of health issues surfacing along with the breakup and unexpected bills.<br /><br />After the breakup I spent about a week with a &ldquo;flared&rdquo; up stomach, when every time I tried to eat any type of solid food my body treated it like poison and proceeded to try and stab it to death. So I avoided eating generally because the pain was too much. After that week of not eating I considered hospitalizing myself to at least get some sort of nutrition into my body after having lost 20lbs and still wasn&rsquo;t eating which was making me too weak to do anything. Things are going a lot better now though I&rsquo;m almost fully back to regular foods though I&rsquo;m getting medical testing to see if we can figure out what the problem is again (have looked into it before but they didn&rsquo;t find anything).<br /><br />Then there is also my hip started acting up about a week before we broke up and I had been using my umbrella as a foe cane to get around, now on a real cane after wearing through about an inch and a half of metal on my umbrella tip ^^;;; Went for xrays to see if there is something wrong in my hip but it could just be related to my collapsing ankles. Also looking into progression in surgery options for foot correction. 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