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I had started saving money and wanted to save up enough to pay for the move myself and to support myself until I found a job in California. When Findra found out about what had happened, he decided I should go ahead and move and he insisted on paying for the move, and also supporting me and taking care of me while I recovered from my illness.\n\nShortly after the photo was taken Findra took me to a steakhouse that was near the FC hotel for dinner. We had a long conversation where he told me about his college years, his doctoral thesis, his moving to the US and how he had always thought there was more to me than what other people saw on the surface. He later told me that it was during that date he had decided we should live together.\n\nThus began a very complicated relationship.","description_bbcode_parsed":"Me being hugged by Amodeo at FC2010. It's Findra in the suit this time.
The story behind this photo:
In 2010 I was living in Oregon and, due to a caffeine overdose, had had a severe panic attack at work. I went home early and had back to back panic attacks for the next couple of days, and I was so distraught that I didn't think to call in sick to work. I was up for a couple of days and then I finally fell asleep at some point. When I woke up on Monday morning I had a voicemail from my manager telling me that I had been fired for no-call no-show and that I could come pick up my stuff from the office.
The reason for the spaced out look in my eyes is because I was still having severe panic attacks from the caffeine overdose, and just before Findra had arrived I had taken a dose of Lorazepam. When the photo was taken he was holding me and telling me everything was going to be alright.
Findra and I at the time had been discussing the possibility of my moving to the bay area to live with him and his roommate. I had started saving money and wanted to save up enough to pay for the move myself and to support myself until I found a job in California. When Findra found out about what had happened, he decided I should go ahead and move and he insisted on paying for the move, and also supporting me and taking care of me while I recovered from my illness.
Shortly after the photo was taken Findra took me to a steakhouse that was near the FC hotel for dinner. We had a long conversation where he told me about his college years, his doctoral thesis, his moving to the US and how he had always thought there was more to me than what other people saw on the surface. He later told me that it was during that date he had decided we should live together.
Thus began a very complicated relationship.","writing":"","writing_bbcode_parsed":"","pools_count":0,"title":"Me and Amodeo","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"image/jpeg","pagecount":"1","rating_id":"0","rating_name":"General","ratings":[],"submission_type_id":"14","type_name":"Photography - Fursuit/Sculpture/Jewelry/etc","guest_block":"t","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"0","views":"103"}