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Aun asi, estoy muy agardecido con cada uno de ustedes por preocuparse de mi. Lamento mucho si no interactuo mucho con ustedes despues de lo mucho que han hecho por mi. Siempre estoy sobrepensando en hacer todo perfecto para los demas.\n\n\nAhora bien. El arte a pedido (como request, sujestions, art tardes, etc) son lo que mas me estresan en internet. ¿Y saben porque? Porque es casi como acoso. Piden demaciado, de cosas que no estan en mis criterios, no medejan expresar lo que realmente siento y al final te das cuenta que dibujas para otros y no para ti. No resivo ninguna recompensa (como el sueldo minimo) por dibujar un fetiche. Y solo lo hago para que me dejen en paz. Pero nunca entienden, nunca. Tenia ataques nerviosos a pirncipios de año por esto, llegaba a llorar, tener ataques de ira y rabia y todos los dias pensaba en e suicidio. Hace un par de meses atras le explique finalmente a mi familia sobre mi problema, pense que no me entenderia y me tendrian que quitar internet. Pero ellos entendieron muy bien mi problema y me dijeron que eso era acoso y que nadie debia de obligarme a hacer algo que no quiero si no me van a dar nada a cambio. Asi que tanto request, Sujestions, art trades, Comission Points, retos, etc. Cerrados. Tengo planeado hacer comisiones (con dinero real) para que asi me dejen en paz.\n\n\nY tambien. Si se preguntan porque he estado tan aucente por este sitio web (D.A., F.A. e I.B. ). Es porque eh estado mas activo en Twitter ultimamante. El problema, es que mi arte no tiene mucho alcance como soy un artista pequeño tradicional. Y solo tengo mas de 2k likes si digo algun chiste o meme y apenas como 5 o 3 likes por mi arte (y eso si que decepciona a cualquiera). tambien, ultimamante e tenido esa fantasia de que cualqueira puede hacer eso de crear un \"gran impacto en Internet\", ya saben: Crear un personaje del que todo el mundo dibuja sin preguntarte, revivir un perosanje olvidado y decir que es gracias a ti que todos lo conocen, tu gran legdo en Internet... un meme. Eso quizas me \"relaje\" un poco. Pero el problema es que es algo que ocurre por casualidad y la fama de internet te puede hacer muy mal ya que tu vida privada ya no es muy privada y se puede mainterpretar. Es algo que sale por casualidad, la mayotia salen por cosas negativas que las reinventan. Asi que mejor, seguir como artista pequeño conocido por algunos que aprecio, que ser conocido por algo malefico.\n\n\nY tambien, mi padre me consiguio el mes pasado un trabajo de 2pm a 7pm Lunes a Viernes de pastelero en una panaderia local, es un ofico que estudie, me encanta cocinar y mi entuciasmo a cambiado bastante. \n\n\nSeguire dibujando, me encanta, tngo muchas ideas en mente, es un hobbie muy facil de hacer que me relaja y lo seguire haciendo un largo tiempo. Solo les pido, que lo que dibujo, es lo que dibujo. Si ustedes tiene una idea haganla ustedes mismos. Sin importar el nivel. Todo tipo de arte es apreciado. Eh visto muchos nuevos artistas hacer maravillas y tienen todo mi apoyo, en cuando ponga fondos en mi cuenta paypal. Les pedide un par de comisiones de rediceñar mis dibujos.\n\n\nY hablando de eso: Les doy todo el derecho de que redibujen cuando ustedes quieran mis dibujos y OCs. Solo denme credito por ser el artista. \n\n\nY esto seria todo. Les deceo la mejor de las suertes a todos ustedes en especial en estos tiempos dificiles y que todas sus metas se hagan realidad. Adios.\n\n\n------------------------------------------------- ° --------------------------------------------------\n\n\nLet's talk more about my mental health.\n\n\nGood morning, afternoon or evening, whoever is reading this post:\n\n\nOnce again, as I always do, I vent about my emotional problems, I always have, from the character that depresses me that I don't have a lot of fan art, to really serious problems like suicide and existentialism. Still, I am very grateful to each of you for caring about me. I'm very sorry if I don't interact with you a lot after all you have done for me. I am always over-thinking about making everything perfect for others.\n\n\nHowever. The art on demand (like request, sujestions, art afternoons, etc) are what stress me the most on the internet. And do you know why? Because it's almost like bullying. They ask too much, of things that are not in my criteria, they do not let me express what I really feel and in the end you realize that you draw for others and not for yourself. I do not receive any rewards (such as minimum salary) for drawing a fetish. And I only do it to be left alone. But they never understand, never. I had nervous attacks at the beginning of the year because of this, I would cry, have fits of anger and rage and every day I thought about suicide. A couple of months ago I finally explained to my family about my problem, I thought they would not understand me and they would have to remove the internet from me. But they understood my problem very well and told me that this was harassment and that no one should force me to do something I don't want if they are not going to give me anything in return. So so much request, Sujestions, art trades, Commission Points, challenges, etc. Closed. I plan to make commissions (with real money) so that they leave me alone.\n\n\nAnd also. If you are wondering why I have been so authentic on this website (D.A., F.A. and I.B.). It's because I've been more active on Twitter lately. The problem is that my art does not have much scope as I am a traditional small artist. And I only have more than 2k likes if I say a joke or meme and just like 5 or 3 likes for my art (and that does disappoint anyone). Also, lately I have had that fantasy that anyone can do that to create a \"great impact on the Internet\", you know: Create a character that everyone draws without asking you, revive a forgotten person and say that it is thanks to you that everyone knows it, your great legacy on the Internet ... a meme. That might \"relax\" me a bit. But the problem is that it is something that happens by chance and the fame of the internet can do you very bad since your private life is no longer very private and can be misinterpreted. It is something that comes out by chance, most of them come out of negative things that reinvent them. So better, to remain a small artist known to some that I appreciate, than to be known for something malefic.\n\n\nAnd also, my father got me a job last month from 2pm to 7pm Monday to Friday as a pastry chef in a local bakery, he is a tradesman who studies, I love to cook and my enthusiasm has changed a lot.\n\n\nI will continue drawing, I love it, I have many ideas in mind, it is a very easy hobby to do that relaxes me and I will continue doing it for a long time. I only ask that what I draw is what I draw. If you have an idea, do it yourself. Regardless of the level. All kinds of art are appreciated. I've seen many new artists do wonders and they have my full support, as long as I fund my paypal account. I asked them for a couple of commissions to redesign my drawings.\n\n\nAnd speaking of which: I give you every right to redraw whenever you want my drawings and OCs. Just give me credit for being the artist.\n\n\nAnd this would be it. I wish you the best of luck to all of you especially in these difficult times and may all your goals come true. Bye.", "description_bbcode_parsed": "Muy buenos dias tardes o noches a cualqueira que este leyendo este post:


Una vez mas, como siempre lo hago, me ventilo de mis problemas emocionales, siempre lo he hecho, desde que personaje me deprime que no tenga muchos fan art, hasta problemas realmente serios como el suicidio y el existencialismo. Aun asi, estoy muy agardecido con cada uno de ustedes por preocuparse de mi. Lamento mucho si no interactuo mucho con ustedes despues de lo mucho que han hecho por mi. Siempre estoy sobrepensando en hacer todo perfecto para los demas.


Ahora bien. El arte a pedido (como request, sujestions, art tardes, etc) son lo que mas me estresan en internet. ¿Y saben porque? Porque es casi como acoso. Piden demaciado, de cosas que no estan en mis criterios, no medejan expresar lo que realmente siento y al final te das cuenta que dibujas para otros y no para ti. No resivo ninguna recompensa (como el sueldo minimo) por dibujar un fetiche. Y solo lo hago para que me dejen en paz. Pero nunca entienden, nunca. Tenia ataques nerviosos a pirncipios de año por esto, llegaba a llorar, tener ataques de ira y rabia y todos los dias pensaba en e suicidio. Hace un par de meses atras le explique finalmente a mi familia sobre mi problema, pense que no me entenderia y me tendrian que quitar internet. Pero ellos entendieron muy bien mi problema y me dijeron que eso era acoso y que nadie debia de obligarme a hacer algo que no quiero si no me van a dar nada a cambio. Asi que tanto request, Sujestions, art trades, Comission Points, retos, etc. Cerrados. Tengo planeado hacer comisiones (con dinero real) para que asi me dejen en paz.


Y tambien. Si se preguntan porque he estado tan aucente por este sitio web (D.A., F.A. e I.B. ). Es porque eh estado mas activo en Twitter ultimamante. El problema, es que mi arte no tiene mucho alcance como soy un artista pequeño tradicional. Y solo tengo mas de 2k likes si digo algun chiste o meme y apenas como 5 o 3 likes por mi arte (y eso si que decepciona a cualquiera). tambien, ultimamante e tenido esa fantasia de que cualqueira puede hacer eso de crear un "gran impacto en Internet", ya saben: Crear un personaje del que todo el mundo dibuja sin preguntarte, revivir un perosanje olvidado y decir que es gracias a ti que todos lo conocen, tu gran legdo en Internet... un meme. Eso quizas me "relaje" un  poco. Pero el problema es que es algo que ocurre por casualidad y la fama de internet te puede hacer muy mal ya que tu vida privada ya no es muy privada y se puede mainterpretar. Es algo que sale por casualidad, la mayotia salen por cosas negativas que las reinventan. Asi que mejor, seguir como artista pequeño conocido por algunos que aprecio, que ser conocido por algo malefico.


Y tambien, mi padre me consiguio el mes pasado un trabajo  de 2pm a 7pm Lunes a Viernes de pastelero en una panaderia local, es un ofico que estudie, me encanta cocinar y mi entuciasmo a cambiado bastante.


Seguire dibujando, me encanta, tngo muchas ideas en mente, es un hobbie muy facil de hacer que me relaja y lo seguire haciendo un largo tiempo. Solo les pido, que lo que dibujo, es lo que dibujo. Si ustedes tiene una idea haganla ustedes mismos. Sin importar el nivel. Todo tipo de arte es apreciado. Eh visto muchos nuevos artistas hacer maravillas y tienen todo mi apoyo, en cuando ponga fondos en mi cuenta paypal. Les pedide un par de comisiones de rediceñar mis dibujos.


Y hablando de eso: Les doy todo el derecho de que redibujen cuando ustedes quieran mis dibujos y OCs. Solo denme credito por ser el artista.


Y esto seria todo. Les deceo la mejor de las suertes a todos ustedes en especial en estos tiempos dificiles y que todas sus metas se hagan realidad. Adios.


------------------------------------------------- ° --------------------------------------------------


Let's talk more about my mental health.


Good morning, afternoon or evening, whoever is reading this post:


Once again, as I always do, I vent about my emotional problems, I always have, from the character that depresses me that I don't have a lot of fan art, to really serious problems like suicide and existentialism. Still, I am very grateful to each of you for caring about me. I'm very sorry if I don't interact with you a lot after all you have done for me. I am always over-thinking about making everything perfect for others.


However. The art on demand (like request, sujestions, art afternoons, etc) are what stress me the most on the internet. And do you know why? Because it's almost like bullying. They ask too much, of things that are not in my criteria, they do not let me express what I really feel and in the end you realize that you draw for others and not for yourself. I do not receive any rewards (such as minimum salary) for drawing a fetish. And I only do it to be left alone. But they never understand, never. I had nervous attacks at the beginning of the year because of this, I would cry, have fits of anger and rage and every day I thought about suicide. A couple of months ago I finally explained to my family about my problem, I thought they would not understand me and they would have to remove the internet from me. But they understood my problem very well and told me that this was harassment and that no one should force me to do something I don't want if they are not going to give me anything in return. So so much request, Sujestions, art trades, Commission Points, challenges, etc. Closed. I plan to make commissions (with real money) so that they leave me alone.


And also. If you are wondering why I have been so authentic on this website (D.A., F.A. and I.B.). It's because I've been more active on Twitter lately. The problem is that my art does not have much scope as I am a traditional small artist. And I only have more than 2k likes if I say a joke or meme and just like 5 or 3 likes for my art (and that does disappoint anyone). Also, lately I have had that fantasy that anyone can do that to create a "great impact on the Internet", you know: Create a character that everyone draws without asking you, revive a forgotten person and say that it is thanks to you that everyone knows it, your great legacy on the Internet ... a meme. That might "relax" me a bit. But the problem is that it is something that happens by chance and the fame of the internet can do you very bad since your private life is no longer very private and can be misinterpreted. It is something that comes out by chance, most of them come out of negative things that reinvent them. So better, to remain a small artist known to some that I appreciate, than to be known for something malefic.


And also, my father got me a job last month from 2pm to 7pm Monday to Friday as a pastry chef in a local bakery, he is a tradesman who studies, I love to cook and my enthusiasm has changed a lot.


I will continue drawing, I love it, I have many ideas in mind, it is a very easy hobby to do that relaxes me and I will continue doing it for a long time. I only ask that what I draw is what I draw. If you have an idea, do it yourself. Regardless of the level. All kinds of art are appreciated. I've seen many new artists do wonders and they have my full support, as long as I fund my paypal account. I asked them for a couple of commissions to redesign my drawings.


And speaking of which: I give you every right to redraw whenever you want my drawings and OCs. Just give me credit for being the artist.


And this would be it. I wish you the best of luck to all of you especially in these difficult times and may all your goals come true. Bye.", "writing": "", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "", "pools_count": 0, "title": "Hablemos mas a fondo de mi salud mental.", "deleted": "f", "public": "t", "mimetype": "image/jpeg", "pagecount": "1", "rating_id": "0", "rating_name": "General", "ratings": [], "submission_type_id": "1", "type_name": "Picture/Pinup", "guest_block": "f", "friends_only": "f", "comments_count": "0", "views": "13" }