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You know, aside from the rabbit-person thing.\n\nI've always been a somewhat anxious, introverted person. Didn't want to be part of giant groups, didn't go out too much. I might occasionally see a friend for lunch or go for a short walk, but I tend to be fine keeping to myself. On top of that, I've always exhibited strange tendencies. I tend to be tidy and am bugged when things aren't. My parents even told me I was the only kid they ever saw who would walk AROUND puddles.\n\nIn some ways, these tendencies have grown worse. I went through a rather stressful period several months back, and while I'd say I'm certainly over the hump, it definitely seemed to stick with me. Before then, I've never been in a place where stress/anxiety actually seemed to notably affect my physical and mental health... particularly my bowels, ironically, to be frank. \n\nI even had doctor's appointments to try and figure it out. A specific cause was never determined, but I largely got over it - though it still pops up again from time to time. I can't help but conclude that it's a physical symptom caused by becoming increasingly anxious. And that's not the only thing - I also had the first nightmares I'd had in years, and have found myself sometimes struggling to stay awake. I even had my first panic attack at one point.\n\nBut probably the quirk of mine that sticks with me the most is my increased paranoia. (Roll credits.) As you can imagine, I'm a bit of a recluse. When I'm not at work, I tend to want to spend my time comfortable at home, especially after dark. I don't know why I'm so concerned about the following - I live in a quiet neighborhood in a small town in the Midwest, with a low crime rate.\n\nAnd yet, whenever nighttime rolls around, I'm always compelled to keep my curtains and blinds shut tight. It's actually difficult to see into my apartment - I'm on the second floor, and my balcony doesn't run under my living room window. And yet, after dark, I keep it that way regardless. I just greatly dread the idea of anyone being able to look in and see me. Keeping them shut at night gives me comfort, as does locking my door, and certain gear I've quite taken to wearing, namely my collar, shortalls outfit, and a few layers of diapers - just like in the picture. All helps me feel safer, you know? Not to mention being in an apartment complex - I like having my little corner of the world to myself, while knowing other humans aren't too far if there's trouble.\n\nPart of me wonders if I even have some sort of agoraphobia. I've never been diagnosed, so take it with a grain of salt, but given what a lot of the symptoms tend to be - fear of crowds, being totally alone, leaving home, and public places, or feeling detached and anxious, all of which I can relate to - I can't help but wonder.\n\nSo yeah, sorry if that was a bit heavy, and don't think I'm fishing for sympathy or anything, because I'm not. Simply thought this would be interesting to share. Artistic inspiration and all that.","description_bbcode_parsed":"A rather accurate depiction of myself... You know, aside from the rabbit-person thing.
I've always been a somewhat anxious, introverted person. Didn't want to be part of giant groups, didn't go out too much. I might occasionally see a friend for lunch or go for a short walk, but I tend to be fine keeping to myself. On top of that, I've always exhibited strange tendencies. I tend to be tidy and am bugged when things aren't. My parents even told me I was the only kid they ever saw who would walk AROUND puddles.
In some ways, these tendencies have grown worse. I went through a rather stressful period several months back, and while I'd say I'm certainly over the hump, it definitely seemed to stick with me. Before then, I've never been in a place where stress/anxiety actually seemed to notably affect my physical and mental health... particularly my bowels, ironically, to be frank.
I even had doctor's appointments to try and figure it out. A specific cause was never determined, but I largely got over it - though it still pops up again from time to time. I can't help but conclude that it's a physical symptom caused by becoming increasingly anxious. And that's not the only thing - I also had the first nightmares I'd had in years, and have found myself sometimes struggling to stay awake. I even had my first panic attack at one point.
But probably the quirk of mine that sticks with me the most is my increased paranoia. (Roll credits.) As you can imagine, I'm a bit of a recluse. When I'm not at work, I tend to want to spend my time comfortable at home, especially after dark. I don't know why I'm so concerned about the following - I live in a quiet neighborhood in a small town in the Midwest, with a low crime rate.
And yet, whenever nighttime rolls around, I'm always compelled to keep my curtains and blinds shut tight. It's actually difficult to see into my apartment - I'm on the second floor, and my balcony doesn't run under my living room window. And yet, after dark, I keep it that way regardless. I just greatly dread the idea of anyone being able to look in and see me. Keeping them shut at night gives me comfort, as does locking my door, and certain gear I've quite taken to wearing, namely my collar, shortalls outfit, and a few layers of diapers - just like in the picture. All helps me feel safer, you know? Not to mention being in an apartment complex - I like having my little corner of the world to myself, while knowing other humans aren't too far if there's trouble.
Part of me wonders if I even have some sort of agoraphobia. I've never been diagnosed, so take it with a grain of salt, but given what a lot of the symptoms tend to be - fear of crowds, being totally alone, leaving home, and public places, or feeling detached and anxious, all of which I can relate to - I can't help but wonder.
So yeah, sorry if that was a bit heavy, and don't think I'm fishing for sympathy or anything, because I'm not. Simply thought this would be interesting to share. Artistic inspiration and all that.","writing":"","writing_bbcode_parsed":"","pools_count":0,"title":"Paranoia...","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"image/jpeg","pagecount":"1","rating_id":"0","rating_name":"General","ratings":[],"submission_type_id":"1","type_name":"Picture/Pinup","guest_block":"f","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"0","views":"43","sales_description":null,"forsale":"f","digitalsales":"f","printsales":"f","digital_price":""}