Here are the next few days.
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May 29 - part 2

Technically the last entry I wrote was also today, but I also want to write about the next morning.

I woke up to the muffled sound of the shower, but then I just stared at the ceiling for minutes. The thoughts were swirling in my head from yesterday night. That little adventure in the dark, our conversation, those few touches we shared at the final moments. Did we go to far already? But it was so amazing. Do I regret it?

Or even worse... what if he regrets it? Finally I got up, and because of my doubts I was a little afraid to meet him.

Nate was standing nude in front of the mirror when I entered the bathroom. He blushed a little and smiled at me in the mirror.

"Morning sis. Did you slept well?"
"Yeah. And you?"
"Me too. Thanks for... what happened."

I was relieved. I went to him, and hugged him from behind while we were still looking at each other in the mirror. We didn't talk much, I was running my fingers back and forth on his chest, while he was brushing his teeth, and probably because of the meories of the last night or just because of the morning, but he started to get hard. His penis was still hanging down but in an angle but it was bigger then when I entered the room. He also noticed it and slightly blushed in embarrassment.

I asked him if he wants me to leave, and he said no.

Ohhh my god. My heart skipped a beat. He wanted me to stay.

As I rubbed his chest my hand started to slowly move a little lower with each stroke, while his penis was growing rapidly with each heartbeat. His foresking started to rolling back revealing his glans. His member was almost horizontal when I reached his stomach. I got closer to his shaft witch each stroke. I alternately glanced down at it from above his shoulder, or I looked  at the mirror for a frontal look. I enjoyed watching it so much as he got more rigid with each pulse, as the tip was pointig higher and higher. When my hand reached the base of his penis he was fully hard. It was standing proudly pointing almost at the ceiling, and his foreskin almost fully rolled back in the process.

"Hmm, little Nate is not so little after all."
He blushed with a slight smile on my comment, and looked away from me in the mirror.
"Hey, don't worry, I like it."
Then I lost control over my body. I knew it's bad, but I couldn't miss the opportunity. My fingers moved involuntarily, and started to play with his penis. I pushed down his tip, then it instantly jumped back when my finger slipped away from it. Then I slowly pulled back his foreskin to fully expose his tip, while he pushed his crotch forward against my hand. I wrapped my fingers around his shaft then he pulled his hips back and pushed again, and he started repeating and picking up a rythm. He was literally fucking my palm.

It was so arousing to see and feel his whole 12 centimeters long pulsing rock hard erection sliding between my fingers. I looked in his eyes in the mirror and he looked back at me with a shy smile.

"Hehe, you are enjoying this."
"Uhum."

Then we started chatting while my hand was moving around his boner. I tried to hold and rub it different ways while he told which he liked more. I rubbed his precum around his tip, then I sped up, than slowed down, then I rubbed him with finger tips, than my whole palm. His breathing got deeper, leaned his head back to my shoulder, and without saying anything we knew what's coming.

Then it happened. Quiet moans left his mouth while his member started wildly twitching in my hand and a few droplets of white-ish fluid appeared on his penis tip, and slowly started to run down on his shaft. It didn't took long but until those dozen twitches he seemed to be in the heaven.

I was a bit surprized that he cummed only a few droplets. When his orgasm passed he also noticed me examining the fluid between my fingers, and after a little blushing he told me that usually not much stuff comes out.

So lil bro is clearly in development, but he didn't produce much sperm yet. I smiled on it, while he cleaned himself, then we both went to our way.

So I jerked off my brother. Okay, something happened last nigh too... but there we both did it to ourselves, while now it was clearly my action. It felt nice... but I'm also a bit afraid that things are spiraling out of control.

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June 2

I haven't wrote here for a few days.

After some thinking I decided to hold myself back from doing any kind of slightly sexual stuff with him. Since that handjob we did nothing else happened. I wanted to make sure he doesn't think it's something he can demand any time he got horny. We also have to be careful, because if mom or dad finds out, that will end this thing for sure.

And so far it looks like my fears were pointless. Of course the last reason of his shyness passed. When it's only two of us in our room or bathroom he doesn't mind anymore to undress in front of me with an erection, and he does it in such a nonchalant and non-pushy way, that it surprises me.

Of course when he notices me looking he giggles and swings it a bit with moving his hips or something. He even flashed it once in the living room when I noticed  his boner and teased him about that.

But otherwise if I don't pay attention to him and his twitching member, he doesn't care about it either, and we just talk about ordinary stuff, or do the usual things next to each other.

I don't know what to do. I should have burned this journal already.

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June 3

I haven't heard him jerking off for a few days... to be exact, since when we did it together. Is he waiting for me?

I mentioned him the handjob I gave him almost a week ago. He blushed, then thanked it, and said he enjoyed it... but nothing else. He didn't try to bend the conversation to something like he wants it again, or when will we do it next time. He simply just stated that it was good and moved on.

I can't believe this boy exists. How can he act so innocently, while I'm almost dying not jumping on him and start fingering myself.

He is just teasing me again.

Okay, if he doesn't take the initiative tomorrow, I will then.

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June 4

Yesterday night we got into bed quite late. I think even mom and dad were sleeping when we're still chatting about stuff, and soon I felt like we're on track. He asked me about my explorations and I asked him too. Of course he haven't done much stuff yet, he is quite young. But he told me about how he jerked off with a friend a few times.

His briefs were tenting for a while when he asked if I want to do it again, and after I said yes he also asked if he could try to pleasure me, because I did it to him, and he's also interested about how to make a girl happy... he was so cute when he tried to explain all of this with trying to be not too direct.

We both undressed and lied on my bed next to each other, and our hands started to wander to each others body again, except... this time we didn't turn off the lights.

We're facing each other very very close, he touched my breasts, circling around my hard nipples while I played with his penis, but in a way it doesn't increase his pleasure but only keept him hard. Then his hand started to move downward and soon arrived between my legs.

I lifted my upper leg to let him access it better, and led his fingers with my own, showing my clit, my vagina, the ways I used to do it myself. He is a fast learner, after a few minutes he fingered me with full confidence the way I like it. Then I returned to his hard member.

It felt so nice to look at each others eyes while feeling the pleasure building up. Sometimes we sped up, then slowed down, our bodies were swirling in each other's arms, pressing together, or moving apart, to give room for our hands. We continued this for a very long time. I think none of us wanted to finish fast, but we rather just wanted to feel the others pressence, and breathes, heartbeats, touches, gasps and moans.

We finished about a minute apart, then we just cuddled there pressing our whole body together. When I think about the feeling of his pulsing member in my palm and his quiet moans, it still makes me horny.

Then after a little time we did it again, but that time we sat in front of each other. My back was against the wall, his back to the side of the cabinet, with our legs spread wide apart, and our privates only that far from each other, that our hands could barely fit there.

And then again.

I'm comforting myself by saying we're just masturbating together, but in reality we both had 3 orgasms, and none of us touched ourself the whole night.

I'm casually petting with my brother... and we're enjoying it so much.

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June 5

This morning a little incident happened.

We're in the bathroom, he's nude and rock hard of course. We're just fooling around, I teased him a little about his morning wood, while he tesed me back by flashing his rod here and there from behind the towel, then when he wanted leave, he swung the bathroom door open, and dropped the towel while still looking back at me, and swinging his member.

The only problem was, that mom was standing in the middle of the room, and was looking at the door... and at Nate, who gave her quite a few second of full view of his adolescent erection.

He quickly grabbed the towel from the floor and covered himself after noticing her, I tried to make a surprised look, pretending it happened for the first time, and she was just watching his son with round eyes. I don't think she suspects anything more that we got a little more open in such a limiting environment...

Of course I laughed hard at him after we got alone, while he was blushing.
"Poor little doggo, involuntarily showing off to his mom."

Luckily nobody mentioned it since then, but I think that was close. I also told him to be more careful.

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June 6

Dad told us the new house got empty, and finally we can move from this flat at the weekend. I told him I'm happy... But do I really happy?

Of course I am, but I also feel like something is coming to an end.

Nate also looked happy about the change, but when we left alone he just gave me a big hug from out of nowhere. It felt so sweet.

We haven't talked about it yet, but deep down I can feel why he did that.

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June 9

This morning we got into the shower together. I mean actually together.

It started as the same kind of teasing and preseting we do to each outher, when he suddenly asked me if I want to shower with him. You can guess my answer.

The narrow cabin made our bodyparts constantly touching and pressing together, and soon we ended up washing and rubbing the other. Of course the hormones started to work and we both got wery aroused, so it quiclky turned into him fingering me while I jerked him off, but after switching pose a few times he was behind me with his erection between my thighs, while he was hugging me with his hand, and fingered my pussy from the front.

It was so erotic to see and feel his penis tip appearing and disappearing just below my pussy.

I'll never forget that feeling.

It's afternoon now, and I'm sitting at my desk writing this down. He sits next to me.

We smiled at each other.

Ohhh, my god, he's reading this as I'm writing it.

I think our relationship changed a lot, we are no longer just siblings. But then what? Is that called friends with benefits? No, it feels to be more... boyfriend and girlfrend? No, that can't happen either, because we are siblings.

Why am I in a constant conflict with myself?

Ohh my, he said "lovers", then he blushed and giggled, and now he is sitting on his bed with a smile and pretending to do something on his phone.

What am I doing? Why did I show this to him at all?

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June 11

Yesterday was our last night here, and I'm writing this entry in the morning. The movers can arrive at any minute.

So, in the evening we decided to repeat our secret date, but that time in his bed... and I would say that only the usual stuff happened... in the beggining... but...

He sat between my legs because he wanted to pleasure me first, and he did it so well. He wasn't hurrying, he was patient and gentle with his fingers, he gave me time... and when I came I couldn't help, but sat up after I was able to, leaned close to him... and kissed him.

He was surprised for a moment but didn't stop me, even more, he kissed me back. But I didn't stop here, but pushed him back on his bed, leaned in frontof him with my head in front of his croth, and... I looked up at him and asked if he wants that. He nodded without a word. He knew what was coming.

I opened my mouth, took his erection into my mouth, and started to suck him. I wrapped my tongue around his member, moved my head, and sucked as hard as I could, while my hands was rubbing his body all around.

I've never heard him moaning so much. He must have been very aroused when I started, because it didn't take longer than 3 or 4 minutes when I felt the muscles in his body tensing, his hand on my head gently pushing his member deeper into my mouth, then suddenly his body started to shake his shaft was twitching and shoot those few droplets of salty liquid into my mouth.

He told me that was the first time someone did this to him and thanked me.

Then we were just lying there cuddling and talking for a long time. I asked him if he want to continue this at the new house. He said yes, and now I can't be happier.

We just have to find a way.

But I'm also afraid. How far should we go? What about the consequences? No one can know this.

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