{"submission_id":"2565385","keywords":[{"keyword_id":"3094","keyword_name":"alone","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"1048"},{"keyword_id":"36174","keyword_name":"atlasfield","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"419"},{"keyword_id":"3724","keyword_name":"beast","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"2461"},{"keyword_id":"61","keyword_name":"boy","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"57907"},{"keyword_id":"57","keyword_name":"bunny","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"81057"},{"keyword_id":"1864","keyword_name":"creepy","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"1724"},{"keyword_id":"18120","keyword_name":"experience","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"79"},{"keyword_id":"5966","keyword_name":"hands","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"2429"},{"keyword_id":"1440","keyword_name":"human","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"75956"},{"keyword_id":"559450","keyword_name":"kris rabbit","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"13"},{"keyword_id":"13361","keyword_name":"lagomorph","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"9110"},{"keyword_id":"2099","keyword_name":"mad","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"1213"},{"keyword_id":"6850","keyword_name":"madness","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"247"},{"keyword_id":"165","keyword_name":"male","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"887780"},{"keyword_id":"42664","keyword_name":"male solo","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"19302"},{"keyword_id":"542","keyword_name":"mature","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"4416"},{"keyword_id":"10152","keyword_name":"nightmare","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"1359"},{"keyword_id":"187382","keyword_name":"personal character","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"136"},{"keyword_id":"299007","keyword_name":"pneumonia","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"2"},{"keyword_id":"186","keyword_name":"rabbit","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"96214"},{"keyword_id":"26311","keyword_name":"sick","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"582"},{"keyword_id":"66451","keyword_name":"sickness","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"111"},{"keyword_id":"2492","keyword_name":"solo","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"67163"},{"keyword_id":"3092","keyword_name":"speedo","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"3905"},{"keyword_id":"1661","keyword_name":"trauma","contributed":"f","submissions_count":"213"}],"hidden":"f","scraps":"f","favorite":"f","favorites_count":"41","create_datetime":"2021-10-25 01:09:40.41109+02","create_datetime_usertime":"25 Oct 2021 01:09 CEST","last_file_update_datetime":"2021-10-25 00:55:34.710332+02","last_file_update_datetime_usertime":"25 Oct 2021 00:55 CEST","username":"Atlasfield","user_id":"9405","user_icon_file_name":"4571_Atlasfield_atlas.gif","user_icon_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/usericons/large/4/4571_Atlasfield_atlas.gif","user_icon_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/usericons/medium/4/4571_Atlasfield_atlas.gif","user_icon_url_small":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/usericons/small/4/4571_Atlasfield_atlas.gif","file_name":"3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.png","file_url_full":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/full/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.png","file_url_screen":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/screen/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.png","file_url_preview":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumb_huge_x":"200","thumb_huge_y":"200","thumb_large_x":"200","thumb_large_y":"200","thumb_medium_x":"120","thumb_medium_y":"120","thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal_noncustom.jpg","thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal_noncustom.jpg","thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"96","thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"120","thumb_large_noncustom_x":"160","thumb_large_noncustom_y":"200","thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"240","thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"300","files":[{"file_id":"3781184","file_name":"3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.png","file_url_full":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/full/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.png","file_url_screen":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/screen/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.png","file_url_preview":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","mimetype":"image/png","submission_id":"2565385","user_id":"9405","submission_file_order":"0","full_size_x":"1200","full_size_y":"1500","screen_size_x":"920","screen_size_y":"1150","preview_size_x":"240","preview_size_y":"300","initial_file_md5":"75a0dd36b202bda2e94fe749a01a452d","full_file_md5":"53faecf17172f5f12cd46c3e783c142d","large_file_md5":"82394ed51ce8e083a853aa1d83b4770e","small_file_md5":"1e4c5a8b6edfe817ef52545929a1587b","thumbnail_md5":"8111fdac0e06102f1049b79914ea1636","deleted":"f","create_datetime":"2021-10-25 00:54:41.112306+02","create_datetime_usertime":"25 Oct 2021 00:54 CEST","thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumb_huge_x":"200","thumb_huge_y":"200","thumb_large_x":"200","thumb_large_y":"200","thumb_medium_x":"120","thumb_medium_y":"120","thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal_noncustom.jpg","thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3781/3781184_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_1_gal_noncustom.jpg","thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"96","thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"120","thumb_large_noncustom_x":"160","thumb_large_noncustom_y":"200","thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"240","thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"300"},{"file_id":"3781187","file_name":"3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.png","file_url_full":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/full/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.png","file_url_screen":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/screen/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.png","file_url_preview":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","mimetype":"image/png","submission_id":"2565385","user_id":"9405","submission_file_order":"1","full_size_x":"1200","full_size_y":"1500","screen_size_x":"920","screen_size_y":"1150","preview_size_x":"240","preview_size_y":"300","initial_file_md5":"6ef3b2e2c740bf8b174382af5ed5617c","full_file_md5":"eb73683c5c8b12ca8e54367127b64ef9","large_file_md5":"9bd1de389d99fa35c6f69fb38bd9f637","small_file_md5":"fcf876ddbeaf26b6c35a4f246fe1ae63","thumbnail_md5":"640dc0ddf33bed07b13bfd77c540c352","deleted":"f","create_datetime":"2021-10-25 00:55:34.710332+02","create_datetime_usertime":"25 Oct 2021 00:55 CEST","thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","thumb_huge_x":"200","thumb_huge_y":"200","thumb_large_x":"200","thumb_large_y":"200","thumb_medium_x":"120","thumb_medium_y":"120","thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal_noncustom.jpg","thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal_noncustom.jpg","thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"96","thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"120","thumb_large_noncustom_x":"160","thumb_large_noncustom_y":"200","thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"240","thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"300"}],"pools":[{"pool_id":"73789","name":"2021","description":"Another hard year...","count":"17","submission_left_submission_id":"2561952","submission_left_file_name":"3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.png","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumb_huge_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_medium_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_y":"120","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"96","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_y":"160","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"300","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"240"},{"pool_id":"46837","name":"Adult","description":"When the childhood and teenage end.","count":"62","submission_left_submission_id":"2525481","submission_left_file_name":"3715824_Atlasfield_en_mi_perspectiva_1_vg.png","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3715/3715824_Atlasfield_en_mi_perspectiva_1_vg.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3715/3715824_Atlasfield_en_mi_perspectiva_1_vg.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3715/3715824_Atlasfield_en_mi_perspectiva_1_vg.jpg","submission_left_thumb_huge_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_medium_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_y":"120","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3715/3715824_Atlasfield_en_mi_perspectiva_1_vg.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3715/3715824_Atlasfield_en_mi_perspectiva_1_vg_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3715/3715824_Atlasfield_en_mi_perspectiva_1_vg_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"96","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_y":"160","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"300","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"240"},{"pool_id":"45298","name":"Kris Chronicles","description":"Inspired in real stories...","count":"16","submission_left_submission_id":"2531123","submission_left_file_name":"3725223_Atlasfield_por_siempre_detalle_2_.png","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3725/3725223_Atlasfield_por_siempre_detalle_2_.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3725/3725223_Atlasfield_por_siempre_detalle_2_.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3725/3725223_Atlasfield_por_siempre_detalle_2_.jpg","submission_left_thumb_huge_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_medium_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_y":"120","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3725/3725223_Atlasfield_por_siempre_detalle_2_.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3725/3725223_Atlasfield_por_siempre_detalle_2__noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3725/3725223_Atlasfield_por_siempre_detalle_2__noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"120","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"300","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"300"},{"pool_id":"28852","name":"Odd Works","description":"Strange pictures between bizarre, crazy, madness... odd pictures.","count":"165","submission_left_submission_id":"2561952","submission_left_file_name":"3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.png","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumb_huge_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_medium_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_y":"120","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3775/3775811_Atlasfield_depresi_n_gal_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"96","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_y":"160","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"300","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"240"},{"pool_id":"38017","name":"Own Characters","description":"My OCs, my creations, my children.","count":"98","submission_left_submission_id":"2558644","submission_left_file_name":"3770327_Atlasfield_venadito_gal.png","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3770/3770327_Atlasfield_venadito_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3770/3770327_Atlasfield_venadito_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3770/3770327_Atlasfield_venadito_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumb_huge_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_medium_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_y":"120","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3770/3770327_Atlasfield_venadito_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3770/3770327_Atlasfield_venadito_gal_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3770/3770327_Atlasfield_venadito_gal_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"96","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_y":"160","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"300","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"240"},{"pool_id":"32579","name":"Speedos, Bikinis And Other Clothes","description":"When the underwear looks nice...","count":"82","submission_left_submission_id":"2553018","submission_left_file_name":"3761397_Atlasfield_m_s_all_de_la_ternura_1_gal.png","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3761/3761397_Atlasfield_m_s_all_de_la_ternura_1_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3761/3761397_Atlasfield_m_s_all_de_la_ternura_1_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3761/3761397_Atlasfield_m_s_all_de_la_ternura_1_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumb_huge_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_medium_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_y":"120","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3761/3761397_Atlasfield_m_s_all_de_la_ternura_1_gal.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3761/3761397_Atlasfield_m_s_all_de_la_ternura_1_gal_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3761/3761397_Atlasfield_m_s_all_de_la_ternura_1_gal_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"96","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"120","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_x":"160","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"240","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"300"},{"pool_id":"68203","name":"Tentacles","description":"They are not friendly...","count":"10","submission_left_submission_id":"2293126","submission_left_file_name":"3341137_Atlasfield_0346.png","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3341/3341137_Atlasfield_0346.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3341/3341137_Atlasfield_0346.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3341/3341137_Atlasfield_0346.jpg","submission_left_thumb_huge_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_x":"200","submission_left_thumb_large_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_medium_x":"120","submission_left_thumb_medium_y":"120","submission_left_thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3341/3341137_Atlasfield_0346.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3341/3341137_Atlasfield_0346_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3341/3341137_Atlasfield_0346_noncustom.jpg","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"96","submission_left_thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"120","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_x":"160","submission_left_thumb_large_noncustom_y":"200","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"240","submission_left_thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"300"}],"description":"When I was sick of pneumonia, between june and august, I had few dreams, it was rare when I had one, it was like... like only I was floating.\n\nI had difficults for breath, I thought I´d died on any moment. I tought was covid, but it wasn´t thankfully, but was an horrible experience.\n\nHowever, there is one dream I had, and it was one for many time when I was a kid, and it was for many times the same scene, the same dream, the same feel.\n\nI was falling slowly on a cave, I was naked and I felt the cold of the place. Looks like the walls were moving. Like be organic, and I smelled it, it was gross.\n\nThen, moving into the darkness, I heard voices, very sweet voices, calling me, saying something like \"you are now with me\".\n\nSuddenly I started to feel many hands, touching me everywhere, I cannot move, I cannot escape, I am falling slowly.\n\nI am alone.\nThere is nothing.\nOnly darkness.\nI am falling.\nI am out of control.\nI cannot wake up.\nI cannot sleep.\n\nAnd then... there is.\n\nI see who is calling me.\n\nLike shadows I see his face. He is around me, he is calling me, he is part of my memories, my childhood, my life.\n\nHomesick is the thing I felt when I had pneumonia.\n\nI cannot escape.\nDoctors are touching me.\nThey are searching my sickness.\nI am alone in the hospital.\nI cannot get out.\nI am getting worse.\nI feel horrible.\nIs cold.\nIs my worst nightmare.\n\nBut...\n\nI was awake.","description_bbcode_parsed":"<span style='word-wrap: break-word;'>When I was sick of pneumonia, between june and august, I had few dreams, it was rare when I had one, it was like... like only I was floating.<br /><br />I had difficults for breath, I thought I&acute;d died on any moment. I tought was covid, but it wasn&acute;t thankfully, but was an horrible experience.<br /><br />However, there is one dream I had, and it was one for many time when I was a kid, and it was for many times the same scene, the same dream, the same feel.<br /><br />I was falling slowly on a cave, I was naked and I felt the cold of the place. Looks like the walls were moving. Like be organic, and I smelled it, it was gross.<br /><br />Then, moving into the darkness, I heard voices, very sweet voices, calling me, saying something like &quot;you are now with me&quot;.<br /><br />Suddenly I started to feel many hands, touching me everywhere, I cannot move, I cannot escape, I am falling slowly.<br /><br />I am alone.<br />There is nothing.<br />Only darkness.<br />I am falling.<br />I am out of control.<br />I cannot wake up.<br />I cannot sleep.<br /><br />And then... there is.<br /><br />I see who is calling me.<br /><br />Like shadows I see his face. He is around me, he is calling me, he is part of my memories, my childhood, my life.<br /><br />Homesick is the thing I felt when I had pneumonia.<br /><br />I cannot escape.<br />Doctors are touching me.<br />They are searching my sickness.<br />I am alone in the hospital.<br />I cannot get out.<br />I am getting worse.<br />I feel horrible.<br />Is cold.<br />Is my worst nightmare.<br /><br />But...<br /><br />I was awake.</span>","writing":"","writing_bbcode_parsed":"<span style='word-wrap: break-word;'></span>","pools_count":7,"title":"My Worst Nightmare","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"image/png","pagecount":"2","rating_id":"1","rating_name":"Mature","ratings":[{"content_tag_id":"2","name":"Nudity","description":"Nonsexual nudity exposing breasts or genitals (must not show arousal)","rating_id":"1"}],"submission_type_id":"1","type_name":"Picture/Pinup","guest_block":"t","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"9","views":"541","latest_file_name":"3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.png","latest_mimetype":"image/png","latest_file_url_full":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/full/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.png","latest_file_url_screen":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/screen/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.png","latest_file_url_preview":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","latest_thumbnail_url_huge":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","latest_thumbnail_url_large":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","latest_thumbnail_url_medium":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","latest_thumb_huge_x":"200","latest_thumb_huge_y":"200","latest_thumb_large_x":"200","latest_thumb_large_y":"200","latest_thumb_medium_x":"120","latest_thumb_medium_y":"120","latest_thumbnail_url_huge_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal.jpg","latest_thumbnail_url_large_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal_noncustom.jpg","latest_thumbnail_url_medium_noncustom":"https://nl.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/3781/3781187_Atlasfield_mi_peor_pesadilla_3_gal_noncustom.jpg","latest_thumb_medium_noncustom_x":"96","latest_thumb_medium_noncustom_y":"120","latest_thumb_large_noncustom_x":"160","latest_thumb_large_noncustom_y":"200","latest_thumb_huge_noncustom_x":"240","latest_thumb_huge_noncustom_y":"300"}