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I'm pretty sure these are symptoms of depression or some kind of identity disorders?\n\nAs Elly, the dragon girl there who's a character of my good friend Aaron, demonstrates, even the most heartfelt and sincere sentiments of kindness and love are immediately assumed to be fake, because, how could someone so nice ever want to like me, even for a second? \n\nUm, anyways, I will be posting some cool, not depressing art in the coming days.","description_bbcode_parsed":"Just a little comic I drew between classes, exploring my emotions and feelings, such as self love, and accepting the love and friendship of those around me. Like, I know I have people who care about me. Online, at work, in my new house, at school, etc. I know I have friends, nice people in my life.
And yet... Part of my mind is still thoroughly convinced that, even my best friends barely tolerate me, and that their kindness is conditional, like my family's, and that at any second I'll do the One Thing that makes it so anyone who was remotely kind to me will never want to have anything to do with me ever again. And if that happens, I deserve to be alone and unloved forever, because I'm just a worthless person, and should never expect any sort of decency or respect. I'm pretty sure these are symptoms of depression or some kind of identity disorders?
As Elly, the dragon girl there who's a character of my good friend Aaron, demonstrates, even the most heartfelt and sincere sentiments of kindness and love are immediately assumed to be fake, because, how could someone so nice ever want to like me, even for a second?
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