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It came about at a time of true sadness when kaio and I broke up.\n\nThe story behind the picture:\n\nThe field was lush and green with the bright and warm rays of the sun on his fur. Rascal was just a little wolf pup running about and playing all the time. Today his daddy, Kaio, an artic otter, took him to the field to chase the butterfly’s. After an hour of play, Kaio yelled out to the pup, “Rascal, Its time to go home!” Rascal ran back to his daddy taking his paw and they began to walk back to the car, Rascal waddling with his thick diaper.\n\nOn their walk back, Rascal noticed the look on Kaios face. He wasn’t smiling, but instead he had a look of concern and pain. As they passed a flower, Rascal though he would cheer his daddy up. He let go of Kaio’s paw and ran back, quickly picking the small white flower. Rascal sniffed the warm loving smell of the flower before turning to give it to Kaio.\n\nBut when he turned to look in the direction that Kaio was walking, he found that Kaio wasn’t there. Rascal cried out for his daddy, but no response came to his ears. Rascal began to whimper, sitting on the ground where his daddy was, his faint scent still there, but difficult to trace. “Daddy…” Rascals whimpers began to turn to cries as tears came down his face. Before Rascal knew it, it had gotten very dark. Rascal was still holding the flower, looking at it, as the warm rays of the sun changed to darkness.\n\n\n\nThis is a real dream that had been reoccurring weeks before Kaio and I broke up. At the time I didn't understand it but now I do. Its the fear of being surrounded by nothing but my own thoughts, something I do all the time when at work late at night with nobody to talk to. Dark thoughts creep in when I least expect them, and all I can do is try to not focus on them. But what do I do when those thoughts get into my dreams? Nothing I can do except try not to go insane :(", "description_bbcode_parsed": "I just feel this picture drawn by toddlergirl was fitting with how I feel. It came about at a time of true sadness when kaio and I broke up.

The story behind the picture:

The field was lush and green with the bright and warm rays of the sun on his fur. Rascal was just a little wolf pup running about and playing all the time. Today his daddy, Kaio, an artic otter, took him to the field to chase the butterfly’s. After an hour of play, Kaio yelled out to the pup, “Rascal, Its time to go home!” Rascal ran back to his daddy taking his paw and they began to walk back to the car, Rascal waddling with his thick diaper.

On their walk back, Rascal noticed the look on Kaios face. He wasn’t smiling, but instead he had a look of concern and pain. As they passed a flower, Rascal though he would cheer his daddy up. He let go of Kaio’s paw and ran back, quickly picking the small white flower. Rascal sniffed the warm loving smell of the flower before turning to give it to Kaio.

But when he turned to look in the direction that Kaio was walking, he found that Kaio wasn’t there. Rascal cried out for his daddy, but no response came to his ears. Rascal began to whimper, sitting on the ground where his daddy was, his faint scent still there, but difficult to trace. “Daddy…” Rascals whimpers began to turn to cries as tears came down his face. Before Rascal knew it, it had gotten very dark. Rascal was still holding the flower, looking at it, as the warm rays of the sun changed to darkness.



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