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Dreaming so long, time's been spent...
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three bullets left...finally alone,
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Time to open the door;
Wait.
Wait.
No, I have to stay...
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----
this is dedicated to people who have been in this moment and worked past it. Keep going, keep moving past it, keep holding on strong. You are a wonderful person. You deserve to live. People love you.
I've been here before...
So this is dedicated to all of you who have been here too. Don't leave us...you can make it through. If you need to talk, my notes are open.
I cannot say I'll be helpful, but I'm always willing to try!
If you need help;
@suicidepreventioneers
@fursupport
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