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  "description_bbcode_parsed": "<span style='word-wrap: break-word;'>Just a too short drabble in Raph&#039;s POV. I know it&#039;s short and really vague, but there is a bit more to it than what I&#039;ve shown. If anyone cares to see more, then I&#039;ll try to add more drabbles that will (hopefully) make what&#039;s going on with Raph clearer. My apologies if it sucks and for any OOC-ness. </span>",
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